I am starting on my IBM assignment. :D
Before that, I need to compile and make my IBM notes more study-able.
I just want to get things done, don't want to keep procrastinating.
Year 2 will pass very fast. now is already October 26.
School has started for almost 6 weeks now.
and Final exams is in May.
a few more months only.
no time to waste.
hopefully, hopefully, i can and i will persevere.
i cut down on meeting bf already.
somehow, i am glad that he has his other commitments.
cuz if he is very free, my mind tend to travel over to his.
so it's actually good that he has scouts, archery and other other stuffs. :)
I am glad i am not a "sticker". =p
yesterday was talking to a few people.
hahas.
i feel good lehs.
thanks for talking to me. :)
and
thanks for the short and meaningful conversation. :)
hopefully, LH girl, is feeling better already. :)
let go, life will still go on as usual. I'm here for you okayss.. :)
then Bestie girl, sorry, have to turn u down..
IBM assignment due on tuesday ar!
meet u some other time and we'll go shopping. :)
you, please take care in the mean time.
y am i like "begging" people to meet me.
that's sad right??
Mad girl, Bestie, Heup.
When i ask to meet them,
they ALWAYS turn me down.
WHY?
because. they don't want to disturb me n bf.
-.-''
LET ME SAY THIS ONE MORE TIME.
YOU ARE NOT DISTURBING US!
=(
mostly, if i turn u all down, it will be because i have sch work to finish,
and not because of him.
but i've never turned down any of u. because
u all also never come and jio me out. :'(
okays. lets now..
continue with IBM..
Saturday, October 25, 2008
sometimes, ignorance is bliss.
enjoying the present is what matters.
there is no point in making everyone sad, just because you are unhappy with something.
so yeahs, treat as if nothing happened.
if this can make everyone happy,
i'll gladly do it.
everything is fine. :)
they don't like it when we keep repeating and doing the same thing again and again.
to them, it's stupid and not important.
they don't like it when we cant make up our mind, because to them,
if you can't even decide on something trivial, what else can you make decision on.
they don't like it when we request them to do something,
they think that we are treating them as our maids.
they don't like it when we are overly worried,
to them, we are just like their mom and
they can never imagine themselves going out with their mom holding hands on the streets.
don't know is the weather stupid, or i am just weak.
i fell sick again. :(
fever, flu & cough.
this sucks.
the last time i fell sick was at home.
Mama & Papa was there to take care of me.
Mom & Dad would either cook or buy porridge for me.
my maids was there to take care of me.
but i am here now.
i miss home. :'(
and..
this might sound familiar... -.-''
"please last for at least 1 year?! I made a bet" -.-''
haha. let's laugh.
i am not too pampered.
i just want to feel the warmth, being concerned and being loved.
enjoying the present is what matters.
there is no point in making everyone sad, just because you are unhappy with something.
so yeahs, treat as if nothing happened.
if this can make everyone happy,
i'll gladly do it.
everything is fine. :)
they don't like it when we keep repeating and doing the same thing again and again.
to them, it's stupid and not important.
they don't like it when we cant make up our mind, because to them,
if you can't even decide on something trivial, what else can you make decision on.
they don't like it when we request them to do something,
they think that we are treating them as our maids.
they don't like it when we are overly worried,
to them, we are just like their mom and
they can never imagine themselves going out with their mom holding hands on the streets.
don't know is the weather stupid, or i am just weak.
i fell sick again. :(
fever, flu & cough.
this sucks.
the last time i fell sick was at home.
Mama & Papa was there to take care of me.
Mom & Dad would either cook or buy porridge for me.
my maids was there to take care of me.
but i am here now.
i miss home. :'(
and..
this might sound familiar... -.-''
"please last for at least 1 year?! I made a bet" -.-''
haha. let's laugh.
i am not too pampered.
i just want to feel the warmth, being concerned and being loved.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Love wandered inside
Stronger than you
Stronger than I
And now that it has begun
We cannot turn back
We can only turn into one
Chorus
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
Verse
And I'm truly inspired
Finding my soul
There in your eyes
And you
Have opened my heart
And lifted me inside
By showing me yourself
Undisguised
Chorus
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
Bridge
And I will breathe for you each day
Comfort you through all the pain
Gently kiss your fears away
You can turn to me and cry
Always understand that I
Give you all I have inside
Chorus
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
Chorus
I won't ever be too far to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
I'll always remember
That part of you so tender
And be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
Whenever you call x2
Stronger than you
Stronger than I
And now that it has begun
We cannot turn back
We can only turn into one
Chorus
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
Verse
And I'm truly inspired
Finding my soul
There in your eyes
And you
Have opened my heart
And lifted me inside
By showing me yourself
Undisguised
Chorus
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
Bridge
And I will breathe for you each day
Comfort you through all the pain
Gently kiss your fears away
You can turn to me and cry
Always understand that I
Give you all I have inside
Chorus
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
Chorus
I won't ever be too far to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
I'll always remember
That part of you so tender
And be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
Whenever you call x2
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
It hit me quite hard during IBM lecture yst when the lecturer sort of "lectured" me.
yeahs. he is right.Am i sacrificing IBM for my other modules?
my answer to him was a NO and a NO and a NO!
I am very sure of my answer and it came fast, straight from my mouth.
I really didn't sacrifice IBM for my other modules.
I just need the time to rest. That is all.
But in a way, I really am sacrificing IBM for something else.
that is how you will think, how others will think.
and not, how i think.
The conversation.
made me think.
I really am very confused now.
I am scared. Really.
It's scary when you cannot even trust the person whom you think you can trust.
It all boils down to the word T R U S T. again.
yeahs.
I don't know who to trust, who to believe, who to listen to.
The only person/persons,
whom i can believe, always, without any feeling of doubt is/are my
Dad & Mom.
and then as i grew up. the list adds on.
but now. i really don't know who to trust, except my parents.
I know i can trust my Bestie girl.
I am very very sure about this.
She, like my parents, wants the best for me too.
I trust and believe that her care and concern for me are genuine.
Straight from the heart.
This is why, when she said something.
She made me think.
She made me think very hard.
There is something which i hated most apart from many other things i always complains of.
I hate to think.
because when i start thinking, i get worried.
I will think of the most negative outcome anyone can ever think of.
I will think about why is this like this, why and why...?
I will think of, what ifs...?
I will think of, what will happen to me... then...?
In short, I will get very sad, worried and unhappy.
But then, yes.
I need to start thinking.
I need to wake up from my silly thinking of,
"no lah..u think people very free meh..they always think about very complicated things that will make u unhappy. who are u, what benefits them if they hurt u..?"
I cannot stupidly live my life, thinking that, I am very safe at where i am now.
I am very safe. No one will hurt me.
I cannot stupidly take in what everyone says.
You know why i hate to make new friends? Because I don't know their heart.
i don't know what they are thinking.
I only make friends with my friend's friend.
My friends know what kind of person i am, thus, they will think before they introduced any person to me.
When i first got to know one of my friend in SIM.
He used to introduced me to every new friend i met of his.
Now he no longer do so.
I guess i know why.
Because out of 10 of the friends he intro-ed to me.
I never talk to any of them for the second time.
I really don't know what to do,
except, start to be wary of things happening around me?
start to open my eyes and heart bigger so that i could see better.
Human minds are complicated.
Human minds are not simple.
It's sick i know, but it's a fact of life.
Lily girl, needs to wake up from her silly thoughts about life and start to grow up.
You know why i am always very happy when i go home to my parents?
You know why is it, i don't like to go out when i am in singapore?
You know why i hate changes?
I feel safer when i do these things.
I feel safe when i am home with my parents.
I feel safe when i am facing the four walls in my shelter in singapore.
I feel safe when i am doing the same thing again and again.
I feel very very S A F E.
Even when there are unhappy events that happen along the way.
In the end, I just feel S A F E, to be with my parents, to be home.
I have one secret. One little secret that has been on my mind since years ago.
There is this person inside me, whom i haven't been able to let go off.
I still don't know the answer to the question i have in my mind.
I am still wondering if this person exist or not.
I've been waiting for a few years now, 7 years?
I wanted to throw all the memories away.
I threw all the letters already.
The little notes and letters which you said we will pile them altogether when you come back.
BUT certain memories just can't be erased.
all i want is an answer to the question i have.
In three words I can sum up everything i've learnt about life: IT GOES ON..
-Robert Frost-
yeahs. he is right.Am i sacrificing IBM for my other modules?
my answer to him was a NO and a NO and a NO!
I am very sure of my answer and it came fast, straight from my mouth.
I really didn't sacrifice IBM for my other modules.
I just need the time to rest. That is all.
But in a way, I really am sacrificing IBM for something else.
that is how you will think, how others will think.
and not, how i think.
The conversation.
made me think.
I really am very confused now.
I am scared. Really.
It's scary when you cannot even trust the person whom you think you can trust.
It all boils down to the word T R U S T. again.
yeahs.
I don't know who to trust, who to believe, who to listen to.
The only person/persons,
whom i can believe, always, without any feeling of doubt is/are my
Dad & Mom.
and then as i grew up. the list adds on.
but now. i really don't know who to trust, except my parents.
I know i can trust my Bestie girl.
I am very very sure about this.
She, like my parents, wants the best for me too.
I trust and believe that her care and concern for me are genuine.
Straight from the heart.
This is why, when she said something.
She made me think.
She made me think very hard.
There is something which i hated most apart from many other things i always complains of.
I hate to think.
because when i start thinking, i get worried.
I will think of the most negative outcome anyone can ever think of.
I will think about why is this like this, why and why...?
I will think of, what ifs...?
I will think of, what will happen to me... then...?
In short, I will get very sad, worried and unhappy.
But then, yes.
I need to start thinking.
I need to wake up from my silly thinking of,
"no lah..u think people very free meh..they always think about very complicated things that will make u unhappy. who are u, what benefits them if they hurt u..?"
I cannot stupidly live my life, thinking that, I am very safe at where i am now.
I am very safe. No one will hurt me.
I cannot stupidly take in what everyone says.
You know why i hate to make new friends? Because I don't know their heart.
i don't know what they are thinking.
I only make friends with my friend's friend.
My friends know what kind of person i am, thus, they will think before they introduced any person to me.
When i first got to know one of my friend in SIM.
He used to introduced me to every new friend i met of his.
Now he no longer do so.
I guess i know why.
Because out of 10 of the friends he intro-ed to me.
I never talk to any of them for the second time.
I really don't know what to do,
except, start to be wary of things happening around me?
start to open my eyes and heart bigger so that i could see better.
Human minds are complicated.
Human minds are not simple.
It's sick i know, but it's a fact of life.
Lily girl, needs to wake up from her silly thoughts about life and start to grow up.
You know why i am always very happy when i go home to my parents?
You know why is it, i don't like to go out when i am in singapore?
You know why i hate changes?
I feel safer when i do these things.
I feel safe when i am home with my parents.
I feel safe when i am facing the four walls in my shelter in singapore.
I feel safe when i am doing the same thing again and again.
I feel very very S A F E.
Even when there are unhappy events that happen along the way.
In the end, I just feel S A F E, to be with my parents, to be home.
I have one secret. One little secret that has been on my mind since years ago.
There is this person inside me, whom i haven't been able to let go off.
I still don't know the answer to the question i have in my mind.
I am still wondering if this person exist or not.
I've been waiting for a few years now, 7 years?
I wanted to throw all the memories away.
I threw all the letters already.
The little notes and letters which you said we will pile them altogether when you come back.
BUT certain memories just can't be erased.
all i want is an answer to the question i have.
In three words I can sum up everything i've learnt about life: IT GOES ON..
-Robert Frost-
Monday, October 20, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERALD NG BO RONG!!! :D
tomorrow is the day! =(
i'll be having 830am lesson all the way till 1000pm.
in between, i have no class at 1130 till 330.
but it doesn't help.
i don't know how i am going to survive tomorrow.
bless me bahs. wish me luck.
Wish me lots and lots of luck.
hopefully i will sit through all the lesson and not miss any of the lesson.
yeahs. please. :)
I am getting super irritated with myself,
for always making you angry.
I am so sorry.
Very very sorry.
I know action speaks louder than words.
no use saying sorry, if i keep repeating the same thing over and over again.
yeahs.
i'll try not to irritate you that often ok?
I am sorry........
tomorrow is the day! =(
i'll be having 830am lesson all the way till 1000pm.
in between, i have no class at 1130 till 330.
but it doesn't help.
i don't know how i am going to survive tomorrow.
bless me bahs. wish me luck.
Wish me lots and lots of luck.
hopefully i will sit through all the lesson and not miss any of the lesson.
yeahs. please. :)
I am getting super irritated with myself,
for always making you angry.
I am so sorry.
Very very sorry.
I know action speaks louder than words.
no use saying sorry, if i keep repeating the same thing over and over again.
yeahs.
i'll try not to irritate you that often ok?
I am sorry........
Sunday, October 19, 2008
it's been very long since i last talked to Mad girl.
and she made me smile when she talked to me yesterday.
i miss her a lot.
but i din really talk much. haha. sorry la.
I've been keeping a lot to myself recently.
probably because i am always in school alone.
and after school when i come home, i face the four walls, locked myself in the room.
and again i am alone.
when i am having dinner, i eat dinner on my own,
again i am alone.
when i go to school.
i travel alone.
what else?
maybe this is why, i don't really know how to communicate and talk to people now.
i am weird.
let's accept it.
i really think i am weird.
i want to talk to my friends, but i just can't get the topic to talk about.
i want to be the bubbly, talkative, lame, crappy and cheerful lily again.
but i can't.
i know he is really sick and irritated of me now.
i don't know what to say.
it's not that i don't want to take in what he said.
it's not that i don't want to heed his advise.
it's really not that. i did try.
i want to be happy too.
i hate to cry.
i want to smile.
he is really nice to me.
but me, always so emo emo. always make him angry, worried, frustrated, etc..
i know i can't be pardoned.
oh wells,
wait till i find back that girl..
i don't know where is she hiding..
i don't know who is she hiding from..
i don't know why is she isolating herself..
let's just wait for her to come back again..
i hope it won't be too long..
and she made me smile when she talked to me yesterday.
i miss her a lot.
but i din really talk much. haha. sorry la.
I've been keeping a lot to myself recently.
probably because i am always in school alone.
and after school when i come home, i face the four walls, locked myself in the room.
and again i am alone.
when i am having dinner, i eat dinner on my own,
again i am alone.
when i go to school.
i travel alone.
what else?
maybe this is why, i don't really know how to communicate and talk to people now.
i am weird.
let's accept it.
i really think i am weird.
i want to talk to my friends, but i just can't get the topic to talk about.
i want to be the bubbly, talkative, lame, crappy and cheerful lily again.
but i can't.
i know he is really sick and irritated of me now.
i don't know what to say.
it's not that i don't want to take in what he said.
it's not that i don't want to heed his advise.
it's really not that. i did try.
i want to be happy too.
i hate to cry.
i want to smile.
he is really nice to me.
but me, always so emo emo. always make him angry, worried, frustrated, etc..
i know i can't be pardoned.
oh wells,
wait till i find back that girl..
i don't know where is she hiding..
i don't know who is she hiding from..
i don't know why is she isolating herself..
let's just wait for her to come back again..
i hope it won't be too long..
Saturday, October 18, 2008
i am very very tired. but i don't want to rest.
again. there's still alot of things on my mind. and i am super sian.
there is a lot of things waiting for me to do also. :(
my week is almost always full.
and when i reach home, all i wanna do is rest.
nothing else. of course i want some other relaxation la. but then. i don't know.
my days is always books n books n books.
luckily, i have new things to play with now. my new hp & driving lesson is coming up soon too.
hopefully, these stuffs can bring me away from lecture notes and school.
i hate school a lot. :(
oh wells, another 2 more years? almost everything will be over. hopefully.
i get very envious when people are with their family.
I super hate it when i see people take their parents for granted.
i got very envious when i see groups of people sitting together to eat, relax and have fun!
it reminds me of the 71s peeps.
it's been very long since we all hang out together as a class.
hopefully there'll be an outing coming up soon. :)
still very worried for my girls.
Bestie, Mad & Lh.
I don't really know how they are doing now. Cause i don't see them often.
hopefully they are doing fine bahs.
I don't like this kind of feeling.
I don't want to get used to it.
I don't want things to change.
I really hate changes.
Is it always this way.
Is it really like this all the time?
Things do changes as time goes by?
But I can't do anything except adapting to these changes? :(
i wish and i really hope i could get away from
E V E R Y T H I N G
and i really mean E V E R Y T H I N G.
even if it's just for one pathetic day.
i'll still be happy.
but
i am broke now.
and i can't go anywhere. :'(
again. there's still alot of things on my mind. and i am super sian.
there is a lot of things waiting for me to do also. :(
my week is almost always full.
and when i reach home, all i wanna do is rest.
nothing else. of course i want some other relaxation la. but then. i don't know.
my days is always books n books n books.
luckily, i have new things to play with now. my new hp & driving lesson is coming up soon too.
hopefully, these stuffs can bring me away from lecture notes and school.
i hate school a lot. :(
oh wells, another 2 more years? almost everything will be over. hopefully.
i get very envious when people are with their family.
I super hate it when i see people take their parents for granted.
i got very envious when i see groups of people sitting together to eat, relax and have fun!
it reminds me of the 71s peeps.
it's been very long since we all hang out together as a class.
hopefully there'll be an outing coming up soon. :)
still very worried for my girls.
Bestie, Mad & Lh.
I don't really know how they are doing now. Cause i don't see them often.
hopefully they are doing fine bahs.
I don't like this kind of feeling.
I don't want to get used to it.
I don't want things to change.
I really hate changes.
Is it always this way.
Is it really like this all the time?
Things do changes as time goes by?
But I can't do anything except adapting to these changes? :(
i wish and i really hope i could get away from
E V E R Y T H I N G
and i really mean E V E R Y T H I N G.
even if it's just for one pathetic day.
i'll still be happy.
but
i am broke now.
and i can't go anywhere. :'(
Monday, October 13, 2008
meaningful song lehs... =)
「稻 香」
词曲：周杰伦
对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什麼人要这麼的脆弱 堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好
不要这么容易就想放弃 就像我说的
追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色 先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧 功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机 现在终於飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐 赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了 谁在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌睡著了
哦 哦 午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦 哦 阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好
Saturday, October 11, 2008
YAYS! MY DEAREST BOY IS BACK!!!
Finally after so so many months of not seeing him at all. =)
Spent quality time together. the past 2 days. That's why i went MIA-ing. =x
Cuz when i am with him, i seldom touch my phone. =p
so, i am very sorry, if i din pick up calls or whatsoever the past 2 days. =p
forgive me okies?! =D
Anyways.
HAHA. I am still very happy that he IS surprised and touched by my very very small act. =D
And I am touched by his too! =D
that's why i learn to dote on him more too.
i feel blessed. =D
I must thank Ling Hui girl for lending me her house to make my surprise possible. =D
Thanks girl!
It's great having him back after so so long.
I know, it'll mean, i'll get even more busy.
Because i have to still do my everyday revision. plus.
i know i have another commitment.
But, all will be well. I know things won't go wrong.
Our main goal, is still the same.
I will study hard and work hard.
No problem man.
I know that, even when i am very very tired.
There are still people around me who will give me their support. =)
Thank you!
I will try to be happy at least.
I no longer think much.
Everyday will just be, school, revision & my personal life.
Life's like this. No point whining and crying over it. It's life. =p
I am still worried for my dear girl.
I don't know how she's doing actually. I know she is a strong girl and she has her other sisters with her. but still, i cant help but to feel worried for her. Oh wells, hopefully, she'll get through this soon. PLease do take care! =)
Tomorrow's Shane's Birthday!
Happy Advanced Birthday Shane!
Shall wish you first, before i forget!
and here's my very first time baking cookies with the help of lh girl! =D
and i did make 1 full recipe on my very own without anyone's help. =D
haha! I do have the talent actually. =p
Finally after so so many months of not seeing him at all. =)
Spent quality time together. the past 2 days. That's why i went MIA-ing. =x
Cuz when i am with him, i seldom touch my phone. =p
so, i am very sorry, if i din pick up calls or whatsoever the past 2 days. =p
forgive me okies?! =D
Anyways.
HAHA. I am still very happy that he IS surprised and touched by my very very small act. =D
And I am touched by his too! =D
that's why i learn to dote on him more too.
i feel blessed. =D
I must thank Ling Hui girl for lending me her house to make my surprise possible. =D
Thanks girl!
It's great having him back after so so long.
I know, it'll mean, i'll get even more busy.
Because i have to still do my everyday revision. plus.
i know i have another commitment.
But, all will be well. I know things won't go wrong.
Our main goal, is still the same.
I will study hard and work hard.
No problem man.
I know that, even when i am very very tired.
There are still people around me who will give me their support. =)
Thank you!
I will try to be happy at least.
I no longer think much.
Everyday will just be, school, revision & my personal life.
Life's like this. No point whining and crying over it. It's life. =p
I am still worried for my dear girl.
I don't know how she's doing actually. I know she is a strong girl and she has her other sisters with her. but still, i cant help but to feel worried for her. Oh wells, hopefully, she'll get through this soon. PLease do take care! =)
Tomorrow's Shane's Birthday!
Happy Advanced Birthday Shane!
Shall wish you first, before i forget!
and here's my very first time baking cookies with the help of lh girl! =D
and i did make 1 full recipe on my very own without anyone's help. =D
haha! I do have the talent actually. =p
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Haha! I had fun talking with him yesterday.
Duno why la. just that, i was especially happy when talking to him yesterday. =p
and he is coming back in FOUR days time. =D
then i realised his friend is also from Innova. And i know who the guy is.
As in not my friend but, i know who he is.
Cuz Heup used to hang out with Vic, and this Jasper guy is Vic's friend. Haha.
Singapore is so small. and if he is hanging around with Jasper in Bangkok.
I am more or less "fang xin", not so worried. I don't know how this Jasper guy is like.
But my impression of him, seems to be good la. =)
and my cousin. -.-''
she yesterday 11++PM msn me..
i don't why people have d impression of, when my bf comes back le, i can't go anywhere le.
NO NO NO. all of you are terribly WRONG!
even when he comes back.
I STILL CAN GO OUT LOR!
i have my freedom one ok?!?!
so wanna go anywhere. just text me, give me a call, msn me.
If i am free i will definitely go. =D
because school's schedule been really. *sighs*
i dun wan to say.
next week still ok. i have a little bit of space to breathe. =)
so yeahs. if want to date me. just text me or whatever ok? =D
*arghs*
I have a lot of things to do today.
POA lecture 4 readings. Tutorial 2 & 3.
PBF lecture readings. Tutorial 2.
HRM & IBM readings.
ECONS tutorial 1 and lecture 2 readings.
and lastly BTT memorising.
see see.. i doubt i can finish la.
but i'll finish up BTT, HRM & IBM first. =D
jia you bahs! =D
Duno why la. just that, i was especially happy when talking to him yesterday. =p
and he is coming back in FOUR days time. =D
then i realised his friend is also from Innova. And i know who the guy is.
As in not my friend but, i know who he is.
Cuz Heup used to hang out with Vic, and this Jasper guy is Vic's friend. Haha.
Singapore is so small. and if he is hanging around with Jasper in Bangkok.
I am more or less "fang xin", not so worried. I don't know how this Jasper guy is like.
But my impression of him, seems to be good la. =)
and my cousin. -.-''
she yesterday 11++PM msn me..
i don't why people have d impression of, when my bf comes back le, i can't go anywhere le.
NO NO NO. all of you are terribly WRONG!
even when he comes back.
I STILL CAN GO OUT LOR!
i have my freedom one ok?!?!
so wanna go anywhere. just text me, give me a call, msn me.
If i am free i will definitely go. =D
because school's schedule been really. *sighs*
i dun wan to say.
next week still ok. i have a little bit of space to breathe. =)
so yeahs. if want to date me. just text me or whatever ok? =D
*arghs*
I have a lot of things to do today.
POA lecture 4 readings. Tutorial 2 & 3.
PBF lecture readings. Tutorial 2.
HRM & IBM readings.
ECONS tutorial 1 and lecture 2 readings.
and lastly BTT memorising.
see see.. i doubt i can finish la.
but i'll finish up BTT, HRM & IBM first. =D
jia you bahs! =D
Friday, October 3, 2008
I knew today won't be a good day. =(
The past few weeks, haven't been so bad.
I thought everything is fine.
I thought I could handle it.
I was right, until today.
I suddenly feel the pressure.
I got very scared once again.
What if...?!?! What if... the same thing happens again?!?!?
the same thing keep repeating on my mind since HRM lesson starts. :'(
I am not confident.
my confidence level is really ZERO now.
I really don't know if i can handle it.
I am very scared.
I really don't know if i can do it or not.
I really don't want to cause anymore disappointments.
I really don't.
I am really scared.
I wanted so much to tell you.
I wanted to pour everything out.
But I don't want you to get worried.
I want you to enjoy yourself.
You need to.
I don't know what you'll be facing when you come back.
All I want is, for you to enjoy yourself, now.
I still hope that you won't betray my trust.
The past few weeks, haven't been so bad.
I thought everything is fine.
I thought I could handle it.
I was right, until today.
I suddenly feel the pressure.
I got very scared once again.
What if...?!?! What if... the same thing happens again?!?!?
the same thing keep repeating on my mind since HRM lesson starts. :'(
I am not confident.
my confidence level is really ZERO now.
I really don't know if i can handle it.
I am very scared.
I really don't know if i can do it or not.
I really don't want to cause anymore disappointments.
I really don't.
I am really scared.
I wanted so much to tell you.
I wanted to pour everything out.
But I don't want you to get worried.
I want you to enjoy yourself.
You need to.
I don't know what you'll be facing when you come back.
All I want is, for you to enjoy yourself, now.
I still hope that you won't betray my trust.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Happy Birthday Koko Edi! :)
I am very very tired these few days.
and, what makes things worse is.
I still have so many things to do.
But all i want to do is lie down and rest.
I don't know why, but my whole body is very tired. :(
And I still have such a long day tomorrow, class from 1530 to 2200. :(
God Bless Me.
I am now wondering how am i supposed to carry..
800 pages of HRM notes back from lecture hall to my shelter tml.
anyone willing to volunteer to fetch me from school tomorrow, FRIDAY night at 10pm?
Location: anywhere near SIM building. :D
just give me a call OR you can text me! =D
I'll treat you to supper after that. =D
I am serious, I'd rather treat you to supper than donate the money to taxi-drivers. =p
and I am determined to go on a diet.
I'm getting fatter and fatter each day. :(
I am very very tired these few days.
and, what makes things worse is.
I still have so many things to do.
But all i want to do is lie down and rest.
I don't know why, but my whole body is very tired. :(
And I still have such a long day tomorrow, class from 1530 to 2200. :(
God Bless Me.
I am now wondering how am i supposed to carry..
800 pages of HRM notes back from lecture hall to my shelter tml.
anyone willing to volunteer to fetch me from school tomorrow, FRIDAY night at 10pm?
Location: anywhere near SIM building. :D
just give me a call OR you can text me! =D
I'll treat you to supper after that. =D
I am serious, I'd rather treat you to supper than donate the money to taxi-drivers. =p
and I am determined to go on a diet.
I'm getting fatter and fatter each day. :(
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri! :)
Happy Birthday Bashirah! :)
This year's Hari Raya. Got to stay at home. :(
No longer like previous year's hari raya season, when the S71 will go house visiting.
Shall accept the fact that everything changes.
Yeaps.
Primary school friends.
I am only in contact with Bestie, Dewi & Sooyan now.
The rest we still talk once in a blue moon.
The usual clique i'm with from sec 1 to sec 4, I don't really keep in contact with them now.
Yes. I miss them, I miss talking to them. I miss the fun i had with them.
But, I guess as time passes, everything will just pass.
I just find it weird to blend in with the group again after a few years.
Will try though. Hopefully, will get a chance to mix with the group again. :)
But surprisingly, I am now still in contact with my neighbouring schoolmate, like Hb, Jor, Yz and some others. =x
Happy Birthday Bashirah! :)
This year's Hari Raya. Got to stay at home. :(
No longer like previous year's hari raya season, when the S71 will go house visiting.
Shall accept the fact that everything changes.
Yeaps.
Primary school friends.
I am only in contact with Bestie, Dewi & Sooyan now.
The rest we still talk once in a blue moon.
The usual clique i'm with from sec 1 to sec 4, I don't really keep in contact with them now.
Yes. I miss them, I miss talking to them. I miss the fun i had with them.
But, I guess as time passes, everything will just pass.
I just find it weird to blend in with the group again after a few years.
Will try though. Hopefully, will get a chance to mix with the group again. :)
But surprisingly, I am now still in contact with my neighbouring schoolmate, like Hb, Jor, Yz and some others. =x
My dear S71s.
Now, I am only in contact with Mad, Mel, Mirna, Touty & Gerald.
It's sad isn't it? We used to be a big group of people.
Had phone conference once in a while.
Crap on msn once in a while.
Now, we don't even sms each other. Let alone phone conference or msn.
Now in Uni, I only have FIVE pathetic friends Ling Hui, Shane, Hendra, David & Zhen Yi.
And another 2 "hi-bye" friends Jesline & Shrada.
Maybe i am too anti-social la. =x
And one good news is, finally they are willing to return him back to me next Thurs and so i can stop worrying and everything. :)
No offence ar, but i think that place is scary.
I mean, how could you do light exercise and die?
how could u walk and die?
Isn't it weird.
Maybe it really has got nothing to do with the training and stuffs.
Maybe it's just that their time is up and they have to go.
Maybe God wants to take them away at that point in time and so how they leave us doesn't really matter anymore? They just have to go? Without saying goodbye?
I am always wondering if people who are leaving will have any premonition.
Did they actually say their last words to their family.
In the case of the old, I think there is. Because they'll want to make sure every single one of their family members is there ald, then they'll leave.
But for the young? Did they bid their parents and everyone goodbye beforehand?
Oh wells, no matter how sad and unhappy we are, ultimately.
Time heals almost everything. Just give time, time.