Good Morning!
I'm slowly getting back to my "normal" sleeping time. :)
I don't know why, but I got tired as early as 10 yesterday.
And I finally turn in at 11, because I can no longer stand it.
So there I go. Lily's land. :)


I've been thinking and listening a lot.
Some good some bad.
People provide me with their opinions.
In the end, I just have to make the decision.
All decision lies in me.
People can only give pointers.
In the end, it depends on how I want everything to start, progress and end.
I used to say that. We don't get to choose, because God planned everything and everyone probably have their own story book in His hands.
I'll tell you all if it's true or not when I get to know it one fine day. :b
I don't know why, now I think that, even though everything is planned.
I guess He still allows us to make our own choice in certain things. yeahs.


Yesterday, someone told me something, quite hurting, yet i must admit that it's a fact.
it's a fact that my life is like this.
no. i am not complaining.
I am accepting. When she said it, I just smile and let it go.
Because I can't do anything. What am i supposed to do?
Sit down, cry and moan? Asking WHY is everything like this?
No I won't. I am starting to grow up. I am responsible for my own actions.
I need to be responsible for the decision i made 12 years ago.
It's my own decision. No one to blame.


BTT later at TWO.
Please don't rain.
I still need to rush for lecture after that.
Let's hope that I will pass. :)
I've read the book like.. 2 times already?!?!
So i'd better pass.
Bless me. :)


& you are coming back in 9 days. (hopefully) :)

Dad sms-ed me this afternoon.
I realized i missed home a lot.
I miss chit chatting with Mama.
I miss disturbing her before she sleeps.
I miss looking after the shop with Dad.
I miss calling Dad to tell him that I'll be bringing food over to the shop for him.
I miss making fruit juices for Dad & Mom.
I miss helping Mom & Dad with the shop.
I miss everything at home.
I don't know how things are going on now.
I hope everything is alright.
Everything is very fine.
I miss home a lot. A real lot.
I miss home. :(


In the end, no matter how many times of unhappiness happened, I know I still have a home.

so much for being honest.
I never liked to be honest about certain things.
because I know when i am honest there are people who will get hurt because of my honesty.
That is precisely the case yesterday.
i finally cannot keep them all in me anymore and i just yeahs. let them all out.
because it's either you say it or you don't.
say it now or never.
or perhaps.
say it now or let the problems accumulate then explode one fine day.
I don't want to let things turn worst.
so yeahs. I'd rather be honest.. Whether or not you are happy, it's another case already.


Life's full of problems.
which is why we get new problems each day and everyday.
It's up to us to solve to problem or make it worse.


I heeded their advice.
Thank you.
If i didn't consult anyone yesterday, I guess the outcome won't be as good as now. :)
so thank you! :)


i hope he'll come back NEXT WEEK.
please do.
it's been 2 and a half months.
Don't you miss Singapore? =x


I need to concentrate on my studies.
I've been doing pretty well.
compared to last year.
i guess i am more concerned now.
cause i am working doubly hard now.
read through lecture notes before lecture even starts.
finish up tutorials after every lecture.
haha! lily is so guai.
she is finally a uni student now.
I'm so proud of myself. :D


and for now, i want to ask the one above to let me pass my BTT tomorrow.
Thank you very very very much. :)

it's been some time ago since i had full 5 days of school in a week.
this week was my first. :( tiring lehs. :(
but still hai hao. because lessons are only like 3 hours. :)
I can't imagine how it'll be like when i have 6 days of school. PLUS tuesday long day.. from 830 till 10pm..
I think i'll be 3/4 dead by the time lesson ends. =x


I don't know if it's appreciated..I guess it's not..
I haven been thinking a lot. Just doing what i think i should do. :)
Be it for myself. for you, for us, for them or whatever.
I hope what i am doing is right. :)


I have school tml! :(


I was counting how many friends i had in Uni..
oh my... the counting stopped at FIVE..
haha..
is that good or bad..?
i guess it's good in a way bahs.. =p


I am now learning to be responsible for my own words and actions.
Must grow up ald. am already 21+++...
cannot be so kiddy anymore.
How to get matured?
teach me..?

Happy Birthday Ade girl & Stan! :)


I'll be having a full week this week. :(
Lucky it's all just 3 hrs of lesson.
Jia you bahs! :)
I changed quite a bit after failing. =x
More hardworking than before bahs. Yeahs. which is good right? :)


There has been a lot of unhappiness.
I don't like it. :(
Hopefully, there'll be less quarrels from now on bahs.


He told me yesterday that he MIGHT need to stay back there for another TWO MORE WEEKS!
TWO more weeks would mean. exactly ONE MONTH later from now! :(
He better not. Or else. I really don't know what i'll do.
Nothing good i guess. He better not...!
It's bad enough that we haven't seen each other for TWO AND A HALF MONTHS.
Now he tell me he might need to stay back for another TWO MORE WEEKS.
Please Please. Don't.


Things back at home wasn't very good.
But i know Dad & Mom could handle it.
Hais.
3 of our female workers left at 1 go. Which means, now we are only left with 1 female worker.
Hais. Hopefully we'll be able to get another few workers who will stay and stand by us for as long as our bakery shop still exist. Please please. :(


Met the 71s last Saturday. :)
(Mad girl, Mirna, Touty, Jason & Mervin)
Nice chats and food at our favourite hang out place. FISH & CO.
lols. Hope to meet up with them again soon! :)


And Please get well soon! :)

I am not asking for a lot.
I just hope that my econs lecturer wun be the same 1 anymore, and therefore, i chose very very carefully so that i won't get that lecturer anymore.
YET
that stupid institute of money. anyhow change MY chosen lecturer into that same 1 again.
This is bad. :(
I hate it.
I really hate it. :(

there's a lot of things on my mind now.
i can't help it.
i really don't want to think about them.
but they are somehow there bugging me. :(
ah wells, i am good today.
I finished revising yesterday's POA lesson. :)
Shall start on Econs later. :)
Bless me. :)


we didn't really talk much.
much disappointments.
not only yours towards me, but also mine towards you.
I haven't really voiced out mine, cause i think certain things should be voiced when the time is right.
I didn't know things could go on like that.
whatever it is.
up till now.
everything is good.
everyone's been saying this and this and this.
but i still continue to stand by.
i still hope things will change for the better.


I need to finish what i started.

I'm back in SG now.
No longer at Home.
No longer at ease. :(
I miss Dad & Mom and almost everyone at home.
School starts today.
which means I need to start mugging from today.
no more silly nothings.
no more complaints.
just do it.
because life goes on no matter what.


It's nice seeing my dearest friends again.
Met up with Heup & LH ald.
more to come. I miss the company.
at least when i am with them, i don't feel empty.
Yesterday, when i got down he plane, i got the same feeling again.
It never changes.
I know i need to study and study and study, get through the exam, then go back home again.
Its a routine. there's nothing special.
Just studying and studying and when the time comes.
I go back home again.
I can't wait to go home again....:(


there is a lot of things on my mind.
I don't know where to start and what to do.
I'll just take one step at a time.
cash is limited.
time is limited.
haha.
Bless me.

it's great isn't it.
My life is just too great.
at this point in time when i have so many problems, financial, family,debts, etc....
there is another problem for me again, my studies.. and i have to settle it.
my life is just too great. i always have to go through the hard way to get things.
when others who goes clubbing, party all day long can pass ALL the subjects.
me miss nerdy who almost always study all day long, have to fail.
it's great isn't it?


now... i guess for the next 2 years... my life will be like.. hell...
who in d right mind would cram all 6 subj in 1 sem..
i have to..
bless me..
hopefully..
i can survive..