went back 2 innova this morning.. =)
hmm
d school still looks d same..
the hall is SMELLY...
i miss innova... lol... tho...
kinda glad tt im in sim.. cuz its almost fully air conditioned... =p
where as its super warm at innova... =X


met.. Ms Choo.. Mr Sim... Mr Teo, Mr Chu and a few other teachers...
im so sorry i 4get their names.. =X
Happy Teachers Day to them!! =)
& i met up with mad, mel & mervin.. =)
iTs always nice meeting up with frens... at least i am not so lonely.. =)


super tired.
dont pity me..
dont look at me with that kind of look..
stop saying things as if you know me very well cuz u dont..
i am lily and i am doing normal stuffs that many other people are doing too..
sometimes even those supposedly very sweet words hurts.
sometimes you dont know what you are saying until u get a slap back on your face.
jokes only on the right matter will you?
.sensitivity.


im "home" alone again tonight.
haisss...

why is it always like this?
wishes coming true???
hopefully....
i m i s s h o m e


71 peeps.... class outing is yet to be confirmed... so just keep a lookout for news... =)


bored.
tired.
unhappy.
sick.
sian.
misses.
loves.

someone cheated me of my money again...
my 40 bucks gone...
wth.. its all that stupid school's fault...
stupid school with stupid system!!! blind ppl...
there is a difference between 2009 and 2010!!!!!
how can they make that kind of mistake?????
and THAT mistake caused my $40 to be GONE...
argh!!!! neverminds...
its over.. no point geting mad over it..
but REALLY la... omg... 40 bucks i can buy a lot of things with it...
i can buy clothes... shoes... a lot lot things...
40 bucks can make up my lunch and dinner for about 8 days!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hmph*


i met up with "baby" todae... =)
hahas... dewi la... we went for dinner...
we met up think for onli about 1 hr plus..
tt poor gal waited for me at JP since duno wat time... cuz i was held up at ICA...
so can onli meet he at 6++++
den she gota go home earli.. so we met for that pathetic few hrs to talk...
i miss staying with frens... miss talking to friends..
den i bumped into dear sooyan!!!!
omg!!! it was only a few days ago when i talked to her over msn...
its like... the 1st time in 3 years tt we talk...
since i lost contact with her...
cuz somehow i lost her number and everything...
and today i bumped into her!!!!!! =)))
nice!!! i met her bf also..
he looks nice... and he is handsome.. boyish face... guai guai look... =)
she has found herself a good bf.. =)
btw... sooyan is my... yeah.. mei mei...
as in she calls me jie... she regards me as her sis.. but we seldom address each other as tt la...
just a form of acknowledgement... =)
yeaps... so when her bf asked her who i am...
she says... "she is my jie"...
she is my dear mei... anw... she is my primary school classmate... =)
& i bumped into david on d bus yst..
i really din expect it la...
cuz im gg to work.. and d bus goes to bukit batok..
so i was thinking how come will bump into him 1...
he i sa funny guy la...
he is OLD.. hahas... older than me by 2 years...
and he is from pekanbaru-indonesia...
i have friends older than me now le..=)))


so now... its time to sleep...
im gg for facial tml!!!! =)))
time to relax!! =)

finished watching d campus superstar ald..
was at my cousin hse to watch it just now..
and.. she asked me..
"eh how old are these people arh???"
den i sae.. 15..16..
u serious they are 15, 16 only???
they look like adults...
i also duno...
why nowadays younger people look older than their age.. =X
why must they dress up until they look like they are very old??? *shakes head*


i was on the phone with mama yst night until ard 2 am..
hahas... 1 and a half hr chat with her and dad...
we hang up only when dad scolds..
cuz 2am le.. still talk talk talk... hahas..
but anyways talking to mama is always nice..
i can talk to her about anything under the sun...
den i keep asking her go sleep.. she say.. aiyah.. nvm la.. talk a while more...
hahas.. seeee.. she loves talking to me too.. =))
happiness! chit chat session with mama always so nice... -girls talk!!!-
hehes...
talk to her about lotsa stuffs...
asking her advices for lotsa stuffs...
and yeah..
i feel somewhat more relieved..
i was bothered by certain stuffs...
and i am very worried that somethings that i dont want to happen will happen..
but yeahs... mom reassured me that nth wil happen 1.. stop scaring myself...


yesterday.. i had the whole house to myself...!!!
and i was damn scared la... so i kept myself awake until 4am...
cuz i got really tired ald by tt tm.. and.. haha..i just lay down and sleep... n i woke up at 12 todae...
hahas.
nice.


y is it.. weekends always pass by soo fast???
its sunday ald...
and i onli have onli another day off!!!
haisss.....
and i have to bring my nephew for tuition tml.. and wait for him till he is done...
haissssss......
life is.... blahs!!


算了吧！
还是特别想念家！
特别想念被人陪伴的日子。。
自己一个人真的有时候很孤独。。
我的朋友勒？？？

looks like.. my timetable will not change...
somehow i can't give him up...
at least... even though i am upset by his behavior...
i have to understand that.. he has certain problem...
maybe too hyper active and stuffs...
and his parents are so nice towards me...
which student's parent would drive you home when it is raining???
i believe some parents would just...
"rain ah... take d umbrella..."
which parent would offer you to have your dinner in their house???
they are so nice towards me..
how can i give him up.. just like that???
hais....
at least i should give some credit for his parents bahs...
lily ar lily......
sometimes i think that i am really hopeless...
On Tuesday i just told bestie that i will be giving up my pvt boy... cuz everyday reach home around 10 is really.. tiring...
and now... today... in less than 42 hrs....
i changed my mind again....
oh wells... shall see how thing goes...


I made new friends at sim today... !!!! happiness!!!
hahas... finally.. my friends have increased from 1 to around 10 now...
hahas.. even tho we dont see each other every single day..
but still haha.. i am happy tt i have frens...
i somehow cant live without frens la.... =XX


hope...
my family is doing very well in everythg...
bestie is doing fine with school and everythg...
pig girl is fine with her bla bla bla... and also her exams and.. upcoming attachments....
lh's mom is fine...
mad.. is ok with her probs...
and... hope everyone is fine.. =))

i think i miss days without school and work...
it's true...
somehow...
i guess i would live better without school and work... =((
i miss home so so much...
i know i have friends here..
BUT..
who wouldn't want to go home every single day..
having your family to welcome you back..
asking you how your day was..
and chit chatting about life over the dinner table??
who wouldn't want?
i know i should stop being such a baby...
stop being sooo irritating and keep saying that i misses home and stuffs..
but fact is... is really miss home loads...
especially when i am leading this kind of life now..


i am a very bad person...
i am very sorry..
i am not touching my phone for some time now.
i received all the messages..
i chose not to reply..
i am sorry..
i am saying.. i purposely don't reply 1..
i only reply those which needs my reply...
other than that.. i am sorry... i won't reply...
i received all the concerns... cares... information...
i can only say.. thank you very much...
i am sorry.. don't expect too much from me...


sometimes i dont even reply the overseas missed-calls..
note: overseas missed calls meaning calls from my families in Indonesia...
you know why? sometimes i get too tired to even check the phone...
i am serious...
who wouldn't be tired?
school.. work... den reach home only at 1030 almost every single day??
so yeahs...
don't blame me if i don't reply your messages...
i only reply specific people's messages..
i am sorry.. i have to prioritize..


I'm tired & i miss home.

my house mate is gg to jakarta for business trip on monday...
how i wish i am d 1 gg there...
can i go on his behalf?? *nonsense*
i miss home loads...


anw.. i made 3 new frens today.. including Joyce from BBSS...
they are nice..
it made d lecture no longer so boring and i am not so lonely.. yepsx...
so from next week onwards i'll have extra frens for lectures...
Hopefully, i'll make new frens in PBF lect too...
then it wun be so dead.. and i wont go n "xian mu" other ppl who have frens...


hope d surgery went well...


i miss home.
i miss home.
i miss home.
I REALLY MISS MY HOME.

EVERYTHING doesnt go well today


BAD DAY

back to THAT topic again...
i don't know why i brought it up to LH today.. or maybe she was d one who brought the matter up..
eh.. i duno... 4get... anw...
yah.. silliness and stupidity knows me by name...
she was asking me the question which i also want an answer to...
i guess i dun reallyy have the time to really think about whether i still do or i ald don't...
i don't know if everything is just coincidence or what...
but yeah.. it's happening too frequently, so much so that i think its not coincidence...


ha... ok... stop thinking about ittt...
i misss ............


will ** come back to me again?

life is reallyyy unpredictable..
treasure it..
i don't know how many times i've blogged about this..
but yeah! today i feel like blogging about this once again...
you really wont know what happens next..
maybe when you know it.
everything could have been too late...
you wouldn't know if u wud ever see the person whom you just said good bye to...
you wouldn't know if there really is a tomorrow for u...
it seems that we are living every single day for the sake of living it..
I really don't know what's in store for me tomorrow except school and work...
whatever it is, hope tomorrow will be a better day for you, for me and everyone.. =)

ahduh!!! kangen banget negh sama rumah... sama bonyok... gue pengen banget calling pulang ke rumah lagi... tapi... nyokap kan udah blg ga ush telp mulu... soalnya yah... inget di hati aja udah cukup..
tapi gue kangen berat!!! gmn?? kangen banget negh sama rumah.. beneran kangen!!! GIMANA?!?!?!
malah... gue tahun depan baru bisa plg lagi... AKU MAU PULANG...
kangen banget sama bonyok.. serius.. no joke... gimana dunk.
pala gue sakit banget.... =((((((


kadang gue bisa mikir.. semua orang yg baca blog gue itu untuk apa seh..
mank hidup gue ada yg perlu diceritain tah??
sebenernya gue blog cuman hanya untuk ungkapin perasaan yg ada di hati gue aja...
dan juga penegn cari sesuatu untuk gue curhat ke..
dan kalo misalnya gue ngeblog di bahasa indo.. berarti.. ada banyak sesuatu yg gue ga pengen org tau... tapi... kayanya yg ngerti bahasa gue bakal tau. tapi at least dia org itu counted as the minorities.. so its ok...
gue pengen pulank ke rumah...
gue kangen berat...


tau ga.. sebego begonya... sebenernya gue masih suka ga seh sama dia??? suka ga???
kayanya sih udah enggak dhe...
soalnya... bberapa hari ini kalo qt ngobrok juga nga ngobrol ttg apa2...
normal aja gtu...
haha.. tau nga tempat ngeles gue... ada satu anak namanya sam kaya dia.. sumpeh! gue surprised bangettt... anjirr.. bisa sama gtu... mank iyah seh.. bayak yg namanya gtu.. cuman... ga usah se coincidence gtu dhee... bikin gue penasaran aja...
dan tau ga... pass gue pindah ke sini.. satu ari aja... malam itu.. pass gue mau pergi beli makanan... gue actuali keliatan dia... anjirr... gimana tugh??!??!
bodoh amet dhe.. Tuhan tlg gin g yah... kasih gue kekuatan untu jalanin smeua ini dengan baik...


aku kangen sama rumah...
Kangen sama bonyok! =(

those who have to wait longer , appreciates it more when it comes.

Just got back home at 00:12..
went for S71 class gathering... =)
we were great companions... though its always.. girls girls.. guys guys...
and activities after dinner is always not carried out... =X
but still we had fun...
next time shall have more interactions as a whole class... =)
anw, those who went...
ying, mad, mel, mirna, 2t, mr sim, mervin, yasin, izwan, calvin, jason, shawn & ttc
i hope we could have a class chalet again... =))... possible???


we went to watch fireworks too!!!!
fireworks is always NICE!!! BEAUTIFUL!!
i really love watching them..
it gave me that very different feeling everytime i watched them...
the last time i watched was in indo, at puncak..
with my aunt, uncle & cousins...
we were all lying on the bed watching d beautiful fireworks...
ppl were counting down to 2007...
so haha... there were like 1 hr of fireworks display non-stop..


how i miss those dayss...
anw... today the firework display was great too...
bUT the rubbish left behind by CERTAIN people.. are horrible...
i took photos of them... but its with 2t.. =X
pity those cleaners who wil clean up after them...
i heard a man said... "i tot sg is very clean 1???"
haha... *no comments*


it's nice getting back to the class once again.. i miss my dear gals loads...
2t is still the same... she never fails to tease me n bully me... when will she grow up?? hahas... anw, it's nice seeing you girl!!! meeet up soon again... =)))


mad, mel & ying.. also still d same.. ahem.. it's obvious that somebody has gained wt.. =X
ying always comes with a different hairstyle... hahas..
mel still that crappy... =X
i din get to talk much to mad today... ask us y??? -i dont know..


ahmir... still d same.. but have grown more matured?? haha.. i'm glad she came today... after the phone call in JAkarta... i haven had teh chance to talk to her again... anw, hope thgs will go well b/w her n him... omg.. i tot he was nice... mir says jomblo is better... hahas... i shall enjoy that status now... =)))


as for the guys... ahem.. not much comments... haha.. din talk much to them...


mr sim... i din grow fat lo.. in fact i lost wt. it's the problem with the hairstyle... i always look fatter with short hair... =X and i wont go US or any other country le bahs.. it'll be either sg or indo.. that is all...=X


jason... still d same bahs... always so ON 1... he shall plan d next outing... rock-climbing anyone???


yasin... is in d police force... he so tall.. talk to him v xin ku.. but well, we managed to chit chat a bit.. his pay is not tt gd arh... =X anw... hope to talk more 2u again.. tc!


izwan... in d medic ryt? haha... sounds fun.. 2 days work.. 2 days off... hahs.. kinda good... anw, din get to talk to u much.. but haha.. u din change much also... always c u with that same hair-style.. and yah.. everything.. still d same...


mervin.. hahas... talking to him.. can onli talk crap... =X hahas... thanks for making sure i reached home safely.. at least thanks for even bothering to msg to ask if i reached hm ald not.. =) rmb.. when u gt ur car le... give me free rides please.. =p


shawn, calvin & ttc... still d same la.. nth much.. i din talk to them...
oh i did talk to shawn... asking him to send mir hm...
anw... ttc became so much thinner... hahas.. i think they din feed him.. =X


tts all about the class... =)))
hope the next outing will come by very very soon... guess the next tym round we'll have more ppl??? hopefully!!! =)

just called mama & papa!!!
haha! nice! 2 days in a row!!!
talking to my dear parents!!!
today... all laughters!!!! i din cry!!!!
mama din also... we were all talking so happily...
congratulate me!!!
i miss them loads!!!
i hope they will stop worrying about me...
cuz i noe i will be fine...
anw, mama said...
business today was good... evrythg is sold... =)
good!!! i am happy... everyone is happy... =)
hope every single day is like today...
all sold sold sold!!! hope business will prosper!!!


class today was great too!!!
i managed to survive today..
nothing went wrong...
everything was fine...
hope all the lessons will be like today's... =)
so friday class can be counted a BREEZE... =)))


hope her mom's op will go smoothly...
hope bestie's health will be better...
remain healthy always...
stop giving the docs money...
hope Pa, Ma & Kor will be healthy always... =)
shoo all the sickness....
take care of urself k?!?!
hope people will stop taking my money away from me...


happiness to everyone!!!


i miss home!!!!!!!! i miss my parents!!!!!!!!!!


i love it when my parents said..
"although we cant see each other everyday, talk to each other everyday, care for you everyday.. just remember that we always have u in our heart, we sayang you!"


-a happier Lily today!!!-
!good nitex!

wth wth wth...
its not worth it..
sth is wrong...
wth la...
everyone elses conversation was saved and MY important conversation with Hb wasnt saved... and all the answers to the exam paper is there!!!!!! wat the hell!!! so much for staying up until 130am to try to finish d paper.. YET!!!! some how... someone is playing a TRICK.. and all the conversation wasnt saved... haissssss... so SAD!!!! and i feel so bad towards HB... hais... i made him stay up till 130 am.... to help me do the science qns.. yet... my com 不争气 refuse to save our conversation.. while all the other conversation with other ppl are all saved... and all those conversation are NOT important at all la... hais hais hais!!!!!! wth!!! i am sooo SAD!!!!!!


i think i wana tell her i dun want this class...
i remember telling her i want maths and chinese nia!!!
cuz these are d subj which i am confident at...
science and english is out of the qns la.... haissssssss
i cant remember anythg about science... how do u expect me to teach...
YES la... previously in SEC 2 i got A or duno B for science... but that was YEARS ago...
It's a totally different thg now... haisssssssssss..........
i dont want to neglect my school studies to do such stupid thg which is not at all useful to me...
once bitten twice shy... i dun wan to repeat d same mistake again...


i think i met someone... just now... haha... yesh!!
i know he is their relative...
BUT i am SHY... dun dare say hi...
and towards the whole journey to SIM he was standing beside me la...
he must be thinking... "wth la this girl... so unfriendly... y dun wan to say hi..."
lolx... but y cant he say hi 1st ryt???
anw, so qiao.. he is also studying at SIM...


life is really unpredictable...
i miss home! =((((
and yes...
有一个秘密藏在心里很久了， 我想应该都不会说出来了。。。
如果不抱任何希望， 就不会失望了。。。

I called mama today.. telling her iwont be gg back this yr.. and told her sth else...
dumbo me...
i knew she would worry if i *****.. but somehow... sth refused to listen to me..
thus.. as a result.. for the whole half an hour talking.. i just *** as i talk...
how useless..


I miss home loads la... !!! =((((
i dun like to workkkk...
i realy don't...
i hope i can just sit back and relax like what the other indo girllsss my age are doing...
but me... i have to slog like... haix.. watever...


i must apologize to mad and yah.. everyone... i am so sorry but.. i dun think i am gg for the outing... i might not go... yah... so sorry... will meet up with u guys... soon??? yah... although i know its the super not easy to organize an outing.. making all the ppl free on the same day..
but yeah... i am so sorry.. i cant come this time round... i know the next outing wont be anytime soon but... argh... just so so sorry~~~~~

I made a new friend today.... FINALLY... =)
Finally someone is willing to talk to me..
willing to start a conversation with me..
and continue with the conversation... =)
thanks Jasmine! =)
so now.. i have frens for PBF...
not so lonely anymore...
hope nx week will get to know her more... and cont with the friendship...=)


Bryan's mom said.. i lost wt instead of gaining wt aft coming back from indo..
and u noe y...
reason being... i lost TWO KG just last saturday.... =X


i miss home a lot today...
for many times todayy.... i *****...
stupid sim.. keep asking me for money... when i ald have no extras...
i keep thinking that i might not be able to continue with this shyt...
for 3 yrs long..
maybe like what my mom and i agreed on...
after 1 yr.. if i really cannot cope with everything...
i will just give up and go back...
this is an agreement we made and decided upon...
honestly, i am here now bcuz of the payment i ald made for school..
rental.. and stuffs... so i am giving this yr a try...
nx yr if i cant cope... den GOODBYE sg...


it has onli been 2+++ weeks tt i am in singapore...
and i cannot stand the kind of life i am leading now..
i am sick of thinking about money and money...
i am sick of thinking about if i have enough for the rest of the month..
i am sick of thinking.. if i have extras to pay for this n that...
i am only 20 yrs old... whoever you are... please spare me from all these...
how am i supposed to live with this kinda life for 3 yrs???


y the toot must all intl students have 15 hrs of lesson every week?? CRAP!!!
and just to filll up that STUPID 3 extra hrs.. every week...
they throw us with STUPID enrichments which i ald had since sec sch... and jcs...
cheat my money!!!! =((((


i know there is no use thinking abt such stuffs... shall just look fwd...
see what else is coming... see if its sweet smelling or is it smelly....
i still miss home... i miss mama.. i miss papa...
good nitex!

i finally end my day at 10pm... i reached home at TEN pm sharp...
gosh! the streets are ald soo deserted... *scaries*
and really thanks sooo sooo much..
i have 5 days out of 7 days in which i have to reach home at this time.. thanks!!! =(((
and today is the starting of the month...
haix.... neverminds...
if only....


today wasnt very bad... at least it was better than last week's...
haix... i am so very hopeless can...
scold ppl also can scold till i am so shaky and feel lyk crying...
mind u... i am the one scolding ppl, not the other way round larhs..
HAHAHA... i'll try to improve on this... =p


it's been a very long time since i met nice ppl...
so hopefully... tml i will.. =)


i still have so many things to do...=(
haiz...
must i end with this note every single day.... =/


at least i have sth to look fwd to... this weekend...
class outing... fireworks... talks... gossips... photoss....
=P =))) =DDDD

THANKS ALL!!!
I am feeling so much better ald...
i slept for 13hours... and vomitted 6 times...
how can i not feel better???
so yeaps... i am better and probably well!
and i had porridge today...
nope.. not from my mom...
but from me... =)


Went to have dinner with dear cousin and her cousins and cousin in laws...
and her aunt and uncle and her nephews.... (complicated)...
thanks thanks!
it's been a long time since i have had such a dinner, with so many people sitting around this big big round round table..
nice!! Thanks!!! =)


girls and guys who are married are so so much different from those who aren't yet...
can u imagine urself, married in a few years time???
bringing your kids out for dinner???
I can't imagine that kind of situation... =X

i dun like this kind of feeling.
i dun like being ****.
i dun like this kind of helpless feeling.
i miss home.
i actually vOmitted 5 times..
i din eat anythg..
n vomitted d cup of milo for breakfast.
it was until my dear cousin called that i woke up and cooked maggie.
maggie without anythg.. i din even put in the ingredients.
i just noe that i need to eat sth..
i need to get some energy.
i shall go out and get some fresh air.
get some food.
i want mommy to cook porridge for me..
i miss home.
i miss home.
i miss home.


bestie gurll, am so sry.. have to pangseh u at the very last min..
cuz i noe i will just spoil everything if i were to go out just now..
cuz reali no mood, no strength..
we'll go out nx tym round when i am all fine.
for now.. enjoy ur weekend with him.. =)

ok... i suddenly have seconds thoughts about "his" behaviour..
I dont wana make frens with him..
our relationship.. should just stop at "house-mate"...
i find it idiotic to keep smiling at each other as a sign of courtesy... =X
it gets kinda scary.. and yea.. i dun feel at all secure...
in fact, i'm very worried and scared..
i must be mad to have moved over..
but then... there is no point thinking about this and regretting now..
what is done IS done.. and i cant change anythg..
what i should do now is just...
Really pray hard...
hope these few years of stay here will be a blessing ....
I hope i din make a wrong choice..


why cant human minds be more simpler...
why cant we just trust each other???
believing that no matter what ...
the other party will never do anythg to hurt one..

someone did sth nice to me today..
am very grateful..
i noe its just a small teeny weenny thgy...
but... yes!
i am really touched...
counting that i have never talked to u before...
and i dun even noe u..
n i dun even noe ur name...
and u offered me sth..
it's really nice of u...
=)))
so a big thank you to u... =D
hopefully, we'll throw away that shy-ness in us...
and we'll get to be friends some day...
anw, we are house mates... =)
thank you for offering me the fruit... cut it for me... placed it on a plate and serving it to me...
THANK YOU...
I really din expect it..
Thanks!


it's these teenyy wenny thing that happens once in a while every single day which makes my day better... no longer that gloomy... no longer that boring... no longer that unhappy...

I have so so so many many things to do at hand...
but i feel like doing NONE of them...
and there is sth wrong with my lappy...
this weekend i hafta go to SIM LIM to exchange to a brand new 1..
i have to go for med check up..
i have to re-arrange my timetable...
at least for now...
my room is ald sparkling clean.. so tt is OFF my list...
i just need to touch up a bit on the walls and furnitures...
after that.. tada... my room wiill really becomes LILY'S room... =)))


Chatted with my youngest uncle yst over the net..
haha... he is funny... asking me so many stuffs..
actually by right i am not supposed to divulge so much..
but oh wells... watever... what's already said can never be taken back..
my dumb elder brother is really finding trouble for himself...
stupidity!!
i have nth to say..
hais..
i just hope this kind of news won't get over to my parents ear..
they have enough troubles at hand...
i want them to be free of troubles... =)))


i wnet for his very first lesson yst..
he was fine..
at least he is able to cheer me up..
compared to the ones on monday..
seriously, i'd rather have himm... =)


went shopping for tissues and maggies yst.. =X
its really HARD to stay outside ALONE..
but in exchange of the peace i have.
hmm everything is quite ok... =)
i will survive this okays.. =)


do i have a holiday on friday??? !!!
i want hols.. oh ya.. i took a look at my BOOTIFOOL timetable yst..
THANKS mannn... i have NO holidays until NEXT YEAR!!! =((((
nExt year seems so so far away larhx.. haisss...


-time to do some serious work now... =p

girl...
i just wana say...
JUST BE YOURSELF...
HECK WHAT PEOPLE SAY...
THEY ARE NOT U, THEY ARE NOT HIM..
THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT THE TWO OF YOU ARE GOING THROUGH..
TO HIM YOU ARE THE BEST AND TO HIM THEY ARE NO ONE..
PLEASE DONT EVER BELITTLE YOURSELF..
AND TO ME DEFINITELY, I AM VERY FORTUNATE TO HAVE MADE A FRIEND LIKE YOU..
Please Cheer up yea...
Always rmb that there are ALWAYS US near you... =)


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It was my first day there today...
i screwed it up... 1 out of 3 lesssons..
i really screwed up..
omg..
i never imagined things would turn out this way..
i hope i din bring any trouble to anyone...
to Ms Chua and also the kids...
like wth..
i wasn't prepared at all..
i was shocked when i look at the paper...
i reached there half an hr earli...
but still NO USE!!!
the first lesson was PHEW!
done...
den the second...
omg.. im so helpless.. i feel like crying for HELP...
the onli thg i can feel is.. my face is burning.. it became so warm...
i don't even know what i am saying...
super stress...
and the thing is..
it's like a big bomb dropping on me...
"Ms Tio, our Exams is next monday..."
wth...
i feel so bad... i shouldnt have taken over..
i feel like im bringing them disaster...
i promise i'll do a good job on d coming monday..
its a promise..


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it's been more than a week since i started my uni life in sim...
hmm...
everythg went on smoothly for the first day..
like hello!!! who doesnt want to have onli a two day week of school...
BUT shit them...
they hafta change me to a 4 week days...
i was super pissed...
anw.. the whole system sucks...
so now i need to like have lessons A L O N E for two days..
and they threw me in for all the late afternoon classes...
THANKS a lot mannn... SHYTT!!!!
i think they are trying to kill me...
do it sooner and the fastest way please...

... I M I S S S 7 1 ...


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Its the beginning of sth new..
sth i've never tried before...
i dont know if i will survive.....
hopefully i will...
this is the reason why towards the last few days in Indo...
i kept tellling Mama that...
"Ma, i dont wana go back there.. i really dont. Can i dont go over?"
and as expected, my mom only smiled and patted me.. n here i am...

... I M I S S H O M E ...


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not so much of comfort
not so much of blessings
not so much of happiness
BUT
much of unhappiness
much of worries
much of tears

i officially moved in to my new place liaos...
Finally after so many days of postponing...
and i bought my new lappy le...
haha!!! Nice!!! It's PINK!!!


All thanks to Uncle and Auntie for helping me make phone calls, browsing through net and newspapers and all.. and FINALLY i got it!!! Thanks loads!!! =)))
All thanks to my dear Bestie and her parents!!! =))
Bestie helped me in cleaning up this room of mine...
and whenever i am in this room i will always get reminded..
it was my BESTIE who helped in cleaning this room... =)))
Thanks to Bestie and her Parents tt i managed to move house in such a short time!!
Thanks!!!


Thanks so much... without them i really won't know what to do in Singapore..
Thanks for putting me up for a week!!! =)))


Its really nice to stay over at bestie's house...
I feel as if i'm in my own house.... yah..
it sounds weird.. but.. hey it's true!!!
I'm HAPPY for bestie for having such a great bf, such a great family...
Please stay cheerful and always remain this happy always..
dun get stressed up bcuz of sch work or watever...
just rmb tt there is always a bunch of us behind u... =)))


shall blog abt sch... later...
another new day...
hope i will survive this!!! =)