Sometimes i hate myself for thinking too much, for listening too much, for caring too much to what friends are saying.

Im such a total idiot really!

Why care so much about their opinion? Cuz i've become friends with them and i love them as a friend and their thoughts matter to me.

I have always believed, if you dont mean what u say then dont say it. There r certain thgs we dont joke about. Certain things when its funny, its funny. When its not, its not.

Next thg i need to learn, is to shut my mouth & ears when im not supposed to say anythg and hear anything.

I just dont want to care about what they think anymore.

Joking or not, it no longer matters to me.

Marriage!

My very close friends are getting married, ONE by ONE.

Really close friends!

Bestie is married.

Touts getting married on 21 Jan 2012.

Mir is getting married in April 2012.

I am happy!

at the same time. 

I am getting worried about myself.

I mean. YES, my very very close friends are getting married one by one. 

I am really happy for them to have found their Soul mate. 

But I am getting worried, so when's my turn..? 

And also friends i know are also getting married one by one.

Cindy is married and already has a baby.

Kengie is getting married in April 2012.

Cheryl bf just Proposed to her on 1st Jan 2012.

Angel is getting married in Sept 2012.

Sherry is getting married/engaged in August 2012.

alright, i shall stop thinking.

I probably should close this book first, so another book can be read. 

Blessed Year ahead! 2012!

First post of the year! :)

have been working for almost 3 months now. 3rd January will make it the THIRD month.
Working life has been awesomely an eye opener to the disgusting side of human.
its a struggle to just be myself and never change.

they say, 
"if you don't like the situation and you cant change it, then you have to change yourself."

how true?
change yourself to be more like them so that you can handle the situation?
changing my mindset would be true.

getting used to working life already. and setting bigger goals to a happier life ahead.

new year resolutions in the making.
this year, I shall reveal one.

No matter what happens, JUST SMILE! 
It makes every bad situations better, forget about the pain and everything else.

.....

lets divert a little.
its been so so long since i blogged.
i actually dont know what to say anymore. =/

so i shall end it off.

Let's have a Blessed new year ahead.
Forget all the pains of 2011!
and be grateful for all the happier things that happened in 2011!

Let's Laugh, Love, Sweat, Share & Be Happy! 

Much love
Lily :)