i've been living life like a lifeless human, pretty much.
everyday is the same old thing. still worried about exam results.
things to settle between me and Stan.
should i let him go?
actually this qns has always been on my mind for quite a long time already. maybe the sooner i settle it, the better it will be.
what will my future with him be like.
I really don't know.
so should i let him go?
i hope i pass every single of my exam subj. please. i need to pass everything.
its sad hearing all my friends already working, having pretty much a bright future ahead.
me? still thinking on what is in store for me? what will happen. tell me.. what will happen.
hais.
life. please give me a break. I need to know something. I need to know. give me just a little bit of clue.
hope Bestie girl n family is doing great in Brisbane. =)
Friday, June 25, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
actually i really dont know what to do with my life.
i always go back to the same thing again and again.
its not that i want to be like this. its more of.. it seems like i have to be like this. and i really dont like it.
i wake up every morning. shower, breakfast and start and end the day with helping out at the bakery shop. really nothing much. i feel really lifeless.
ok shouldnt compare whose life is more sucky. there r bound to be other's life who is suckier than mine.
everytime, i try to want to reconnect myself with my friends, i feel sad after being updated.
ok im updated through twitter, Facebook, blogs.
yah.. i am sad. cuz, everyone's updates is about being offered this job, bla bla bla...
going where for holidays..
or they are more or less aware of what is in store for them in the future.
where as me?
i am no where... not even in the middle.
honestly, i am still worried, every single day. i just get worried. i really dont know what is going to happen to know..
what my future will be like..
and i get pissed off over even small small stuffs. what they call PMS?
i get really impatient these few days. really impatient. i cannot stand a single mistake nor a single long winded conversation.
just get to the main point. full stop. as easy as abc.
ok.. im thinking too much.. pointless blog...
i feel like writing a long email to bestie girl..
but then.. nvm.. i'll just do it for another day...
not that i dont want to type.. not that i am lazy.. but i dont know.. i just have a very weird feeling about everything.
and silly me, even have the thought of not wanting to even be present.
because we all always have the same thoughts, she has all her other friends le, one less me wont make any difference.
but i guess a friend's presence is always important in bad times and good times...
in bad times, you really know who your friend really is, who is the one who complains, who listens, who really can go through all these nonsense with you.
in these tough times.. you really know who your friends are.
i miss my friends. =(
good nights world.
i shant think too much.
pointless blog.
i just wana rant.
i always go back to the same thing again and again.
its not that i want to be like this. its more of.. it seems like i have to be like this. and i really dont like it.
i wake up every morning. shower, breakfast and start and end the day with helping out at the bakery shop. really nothing much. i feel really lifeless.
ok shouldnt compare whose life is more sucky. there r bound to be other's life who is suckier than mine.
everytime, i try to want to reconnect myself with my friends, i feel sad after being updated.
ok im updated through twitter, Facebook, blogs.
yah.. i am sad. cuz, everyone's updates is about being offered this job, bla bla bla...
going where for holidays..
or they are more or less aware of what is in store for them in the future.
where as me?
i am no where... not even in the middle.
honestly, i am still worried, every single day. i just get worried. i really dont know what is going to happen to know..
what my future will be like..
and i get pissed off over even small small stuffs. what they call PMS?
i get really impatient these few days. really impatient. i cannot stand a single mistake nor a single long winded conversation.
just get to the main point. full stop. as easy as abc.
ok.. im thinking too much.. pointless blog...
i feel like writing a long email to bestie girl..
but then.. nvm.. i'll just do it for another day...
not that i dont want to type.. not that i am lazy.. but i dont know.. i just have a very weird feeling about everything.
and silly me, even have the thought of not wanting to even be present.
because we all always have the same thoughts, she has all her other friends le, one less me wont make any difference.
but i guess a friend's presence is always important in bad times and good times...
in bad times, you really know who your friend really is, who is the one who complains, who listens, who really can go through all these nonsense with you.
in these tough times.. you really know who your friends are.
i miss my friends. =(
good nights world.
i shant think too much.
pointless blog.
i just wana rant.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
random!
I've been back for almost 3 weeks till now. nothing much changed. still looking after shop. Sometimes dealing with retarded-unreasonable customers who think they can cheat me off my money just because they think they are rich and so they can do anything.
that is one of the most hated thing about doing business.
u have to take in all the nonsense from your customers.
u have to THINK they are right.
u have to swallow in all the unreasonable "wants" they have.
and one thing i have pretty much come to terms with about some rich people is, they are all very stingy. hmm.. maybe stingy is not really the correct word, if you know what i mean.
it's like.. they are already so rich, but they still want to cheat people off their five bucks.
its FIVE BUCKS not FIFTY BUCKS!
(converted the currency for easy understanding sake)
maybe they just want to feel that they can become five bucks richer. i dont know. whatever it is, rich people should stop being so.
and i have been emphasising this so much.
IF U WANT ME TO RESPECT YOU, NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE, THEN JOLLY WELL, SHOW ME THAT YOU CAN BE RESPECTED.
I've stopped having bad dreams for few days now.
i still havent stop worrying though. still very worried and everything.
but i am sure i will do just fine. people have been telling me, believe and you'll get what you believe.
yes i will believe this time round. and please, don't, don't disappoint me! =)
i am a 23 year old girl who is pretty much not like any other girl who puts on make up bla bla bla, before we go out to meet someone. sometimes i dont feel like a girl. =p
watever, i'm going to learn some basics one, since i'll be attending dearest Bestie girl Big Day in December.
haha! December, seems so far away, but actually, its quite near. trust me, the day will just come very very soon! without us realizing it. just like how 10 years "poofed-by" just like that!
have a nice holiday! enjoy it! =)
that is one of the most hated thing about doing business.
u have to take in all the nonsense from your customers.
u have to THINK they are right.
u have to swallow in all the unreasonable "wants" they have.
and one thing i have pretty much come to terms with about some rich people is, they are all very stingy. hmm.. maybe stingy is not really the correct word, if you know what i mean.
it's like.. they are already so rich, but they still want to cheat people off their five bucks.
its FIVE BUCKS not FIFTY BUCKS!
(converted the currency for easy understanding sake)
maybe they just want to feel that they can become five bucks richer. i dont know. whatever it is, rich people should stop being so.
and i have been emphasising this so much.
IF U WANT ME TO RESPECT YOU, NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE, THEN JOLLY WELL, SHOW ME THAT YOU CAN BE RESPECTED.
I've stopped having bad dreams for few days now.
i still havent stop worrying though. still very worried and everything.
but i am sure i will do just fine. people have been telling me, believe and you'll get what you believe.
yes i will believe this time round. and please, don't, don't disappoint me! =)
i am a 23 year old girl who is pretty much not like any other girl who puts on make up bla bla bla, before we go out to meet someone. sometimes i dont feel like a girl. =p
watever, i'm going to learn some basics one, since i'll be attending dearest Bestie girl Big Day in December.
haha! December, seems so far away, but actually, its quite near. trust me, the day will just come very very soon! without us realizing it. just like how 10 years "poofed-by" just like that!
have a nice holiday! enjoy it! =)