argh! as the day draws near, im getting more and more nervous.
the good thing is, it means it will all end soon.
and then, when people ask me qns they dun understand, i can explain and do it for them and make them understand.
so that should mean i also know my work right?
bad thing, and i really dont want it to happen.
i really am scared of having cold hands and feet again on the exam day itself and make all the memory go "POOF"
seriously. argh!

enough browsing on FB, it never do me any good.
makes me more sad.
haha.
oh wells, shall go back to studying then.
have a great weekend! great coming holidays to everyone! =)
 
and nope, monday is not my birthday! neither is it my 2nd year in being together with stanley.
oh wells, haha. LAUGH.
its TWO years already. What have i been doing with him.
LOL.
hope everything brightens up. hope everything goes well.
my exam, it had better go well.
as much as i dont agree that, that piece of paper means everything, i also believe that without that piece of paper my future as an independent woman is well gone too.
so no mater what, got to get that piece of paper. by all means.
God Bless me & all taking the exam. =)

and many many big thanks to Heups!
maybe its really silly as to why I am so happy. But really thanks my jie mei! =)
thanks for planning to want to meet me on monday so that you can give me whatever you wana give me. cuz that means you remember that monday is my birthday and you already planned sth for me. Thanks YOU!
it really means a lot to me!
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
I will meet you right after my exam okays!!! its been too long since i last seen or talk to you!!!
still thank you! thank you! Thank you! =)))

i am still the same old t-shirt and jeans girl, Lily. nothing is changed. I am still me.

oh ya! i designed this, for my Dad's bakery shop brochure. haha!

simple and to the point. =)

My brother was super surprised.
he said, when he received this pic, he was like "WOW!"
he couldn't believe i could come out with that. and its a waste that i didnt go on to pursue my designing ambition.
haha. okay. over-rated. exaggerated.


Now.
BACK TO BOOKS. =D

so i talked to mom for 40 minutes just now using Skype! =)
technology kind of save me quite a bit of money.

Dad's buddy bought my 2nd brother a Blackberry 9700. the new one.
haha. ok lah i am envious, cuz that is actually what i wanted compared to iphone.
but now that i've gotten use to using iphone. i am fine with using iphone now. they are of almost the same price anyways.
but its not about the price. haha. e and my brother are of the same type of people. if people buy for us, then okay lor.. we will use it.. we are grateful.. but even if we dun have it, we are fine with using the "can receive call, can receive sms" phone. =)

and.. uncle's son actually said that studying in singapore is damn easy. he meant. its really easy to study in singapore. I really dont knwo how he got into that conclusion. is it because he is doing his Masters? thats why he find it easy?
bcuz to me and many of my friends, studying in singapore is stressful and difficult. =(

I want my dreams to be realised.
The dream about flying. partly its the pay! next is I GET TO TRAVEL. =)

oh well, now.. better concentrate on the 5 modules first and believe that i can do it.
I need to work on that.
=)

Hahah.. I've been really rebelious these past one week and still so till now.. Lol..
I used to be one looking for stan and smsing him every morning every night. Now, I'm no more so! And I am so proud of myself! I am able to do it!
Not that it's sth very li hai or what! But really now I no longer find him nor SMS him unless he do so first. I don't SMS him in d morning anymore.. At night I'll just sleep n of my phone without informing him or saying gd night to him.
I know this is not healthy but I am actually really preparing myself to leave him. Sounds silly right. But yah I am distancing myself. Today is wednesday. I havent seen him since Saturday night. Supposed to go meet him for lunch or whatsoever the past few days but iturned them all down. I just have my reason. Bcuz it's either I just wana stay longer in school to study or I m just lazy thinking about hvgto go home later after meeting him by bus when I can just go home from school in also one straight bus. So y the hassle..
So yeaps! I am proud of myself. The thing about guys is really when u distance urself they just some how will be attracted to u. Believe it or not, they will automatically find u when u distance urself. When u r there with them, they just treat u like a dirt -_-"