i am very H A P P Y today.
hehes.
simply because its shopping day today!
I got tix to travel back home!
and I...
haha! secret****
it's just weird larhs. =p


anyway, i am going back home tomorrow.
i will revise.
so don't worry.
i really will revise.
i love my books so much that i am going to bring them all back with me. =D


got to say very very big thanks to Ling Hui..
my dear Mad and Heup and ** yeahs many many more..
these four names are the only name that pops out now. =p
thus their name appears here. =)
I don't know how many THANK YOUS i must say to thank the one above for letting me know u all. :)
days in Singapore without u people would be really un-bearable!


will i miss Singapore?
i definitely won't.
i will miss my friends though. :）


anyway!
Merry advances Christmas and Happy new year!!!
see you guys next year!
enjoy the hols! go party!!! =D

bOO!
went for this NUS thgy.. organised by DonOUts...
its a charity event for the children.. so that they will have a different xmas this year.
hopefully they really will. :)


I went out with how many strangers yesterday? =p
the only person i know well is heup. NO one else.
yeaps. met cj, wt, xy too. sec school friends.
but haven been really in contact with them since sec school.
so things are rather weird.
but i can feel that they are still the same as before..
hmm if not almost the same.
its just that. i felt quite distant to them. :/
its understood bahs.
we haven meet for years. oh wells, glad that they are doing very fine. =)


then went for supper at newton.
with Heup's army friends and his pri school frens.
they are a bunch of rather nice people. and definitely CLEVER bunch of people.
have u ever sat with a bunch of people whom all on average for straight A's and B's for their a'levels?
i had! yesterday.
thanks for the company.
so i went for supper with 8 strangers and 1 fren.
haha! it's an achievement.
maybe i should try more of this next time.
haha! it's quite fun actually.
and! haha!
i must say this. thank you heup! =D


there are things which i heard yst, yet i pretend i din hear.
simply because i too think that it is nonsense. =p
and. haha! it's very true that it's no longer la ok.
lily do grow up and become wiser.
there is no point in lingering to the past when you know that there will be no outcome.
it's time to love myself more and fight for my own happiness. :)

so fast.
its december.
its the last month of the year ald.
which is really fasttt.. =X


i realise i'm leading a very unhealthy life here. =X
no i am not on diet.
i am just lazy okies.
my laziness.. can help me save money and let me go on diet.
which is not bad. =D
but unhealthy la.
that is why i must go back home to earn all my healthiness back. =D


so me confirmed.
next Tuesday am flying back home. =D


i want to travel to a place where it is snowing.
really snowing.
when will it be?

earn big bucks.
all that is in my mind now is..
how to earn big bucks..
to satisfy my needs and wants and make everyone around me happy!
yay!
who says money isn't evrything?
i think money really is everything.
at least now.
maybe i will change my mind later on. =p
i need to receive some love.


hais.
my another dear girl, just met with some super suay thingy yst.
she is such a nice girl.
don't understand why the stupid guy wants to get another girl to satisfy his stupid pleasure.
why cant he be good to my dear girl.
stupid u!
grrrrrr!!! idiot!
it hurts to hear her cry while talking.
and i don;t know what to say.
what should i say?
just forget about the stupid bastart?? he is not worth your tears?
easy to say arh... hard to carry out...
hopefully she will get better soon.
time do heal.


army guys.. hmm...
there is this trend that they will go chiong when they book out in d weekends.
is it true?
whatever you guys do, please think about your girlfriends out there who have been waiting for u to book out during the weekends.
how can you say what, girls.. pretty or ugly are all the same in - - -
Gosh! what did you guys take us girls as??
hmph!

I don't know why, but i hate. dislike. detest. ill mannered brats.
those people who are RUDE to their parents.
Taking their parents for granted.
really.
you think its a must for them to serve you?
you think its a must for them to please you?
you think its a must for them to provide for everything you wanted?
you think its a must for them to ask you if you want to have your diner now or later, a must for them to call you out for meals?
why can't you automatically get your ass off your room and move towards the dining table?
why can't you answer them politely when they asked you for questions?
shiet.
i tell you.
its NOT a must for them to do so.
appreciate their efforts when they do such things for you.
don't take them for granted.
you know who is the TWO people whom you should love the most?
ITS YOUR PARENTS!
not ur gf or bfs, wives or husbands.
I know i am not a perfect child for my parents.
I know i sometimes throw my tantrum. BUT i don't do this every single day.
It's VERY annoying to see people using THAT kind of tone to speak to their parents.
As if they owe them something and deserved such treatment.
Think about it!
who is the one who has been providing for your needs all these time?
most importantly.
WHO IS THE ONE WHO GAVE BIRTH TO YOU?
WHERE DID YOU COME FROM?
you din come out from a rock or rubbish bin or whatever.
be grateful to your parents.
ITS NOT EASY TO BRING UP A CHILD UP.
not that i have experienced it.
BUT at the age of 20, I've seen quite a lot. I've experienced quite a bit.
it's not easy.
you say working is hard? is tiring? you'd rather stay home waiting for your aged parents to go out to work and provide for you? think again!
then what about your parents who have been doing so for the past don't know how many years to bring you up?? The one who created them didn't give them billions of dollars to fund u. to bring you up. they din get their money from the santa or whatsoever. they worked for it!
think about it.
If you have called you parents busssstartttsss, beettcheesss.... or whatsoever names you gave them..
THINK again! are u right? are they wrong?
you wouldn't have anything without your parents!
Your parents are there for you to love.
they are to be loved and still to be loved.



.peace.

there are many things in life which we really can't understand.
or rather it is better for us not to understand.
like at this point in time, and actually honestly, many a times i don't really care anymore.
i have decided to let go now.
let everything take its own path.
after all, what is the use of worrying so much.
when the other party don't even care.
i don;t understand why some people can be so fake.
whatever.


i am very gullible.
i admit this.
everyone who knows me knows about this.
despite being reminded time and again.
i just can't put a guard against people.
i believe there is no reason for them to betray me.
there i no reason for them to hurt me.
what is to their benefit anyway.
i choose my friends.
those friends i made with.
if i trust u fully i will tell you everything.
we will click when we first meet.
but if u decide on taking advantage of me.
then just take it that i am stupid.
my stupidity is to your advantage.
yeahs.
God Bless those people.


no no.. dun misunderstand me k?
i'm not sad. i am not emo-ing.
i'm just.
yeahs stating what i felt.
do i sound sad?
hmm..
not really. =p


i can't wait to go back home.
to leave this place which is full of fake-ness.
back at home i can be with my dearest family who wants everything best for me and they will not hurt me.

why can't people treat each other the right way?