it's been very long since i last talked to Mad girl.
and she made me smile when she talked to me yesterday.
i miss her a lot.
but i din really talk much. haha. sorry la.
I've been keeping a lot to myself recently.
probably because i am always in school alone.
and after school when i come home, i face the four walls, locked myself in the room.
and again i am alone.
when i am having dinner, i eat dinner on my own,
again i am alone.
when i go to school.
i travel alone.
what else?
maybe this is why, i don't really know how to communicate and talk to people now.
i am weird.
let's accept it.
i really think i am weird.
i want to talk to my friends, but i just can't get the topic to talk about.
i want to be the bubbly, talkative, lame, crappy and cheerful lily again.
but i can't.
i know he is really sick and irritated of me now.
i don't know what to say.
it's not that i don't want to take in what he said.
it's not that i don't want to heed his advise.
it's really not that. i did try.
i want to be happy too.
i hate to cry.
i want to smile.
he is really nice to me.
but me, always so emo emo. always make him angry, worried, frustrated, etc..
i know i can't be pardoned.
oh wells,
wait till i find back that girl..
i don't know where is she hiding..
i don't know who is she hiding from..
i don't know why is she isolating herself..
let's just wait for her to come back again..
i hope it won't be too long..
