as the days are getting nearer. of course i am getting more n more scared, obviously. and everyday i am just trying to squeeze in any tiny timing to revise sth. yeahs, it was difficult.
also in the preparation to make my resume. its actually done. to be honest, i really cannot be bothered with job finding. if its not because i have to get a job and pay my debts. i really cant be bothered. if i dont have to pay off debts, i really would pack up everything and leave sg for good once i finish exams. and then go back home to do sth i like. learn some skills for myself. making my own clothes sounds good! =D or be a cake decorator sounds okay too. lol. but maybe i prefer making clothes. learning from scratch! or maybe i would go learn a new language. =D
and laziness really got me. I didn't go to meet mad, mel, shawn n mervin on friday, because. i was partly, lazy plus i really wasnt in the mood to. i've been really down with stress. i am really very stressed up. sometimes i really dont want to do anything. i just want to sit in my room, do my readings or just, sleep. or just study. i just don't want to go out. I don't even want to meet Stanley. cuz i was lazy and not in the mood to. so i only meet him up when i have no dinner or when i end school late, and he picks me up. so its basically, i won't purposely go out and meet him for no specific reason.
gona send in one resume today. for Cathay Pacific. hopefully i will be granted an interview. if i get in, i will be relocated to Hong Kong. SO, i will be staying in Hong Kong instead. All alone again. not a good idea, but i will embrace the change, since i don't really like being in sg anyway. so yeah, it doesn't matter where i go. i'll be fine.. who knows i will experience a whole new world and a good change hopefully. =D
and i am kind of anti social lately. i just dont wana talk to anyone or be in contact with anyone. hated this uncertainty.
oh wells, 12:45pm now. sent resume. checked mail. so got to shut this down and go get the books. yups.
hopefully days after exam will be a whole new change and i will be in for a better life. =)
