Its a bitter sweet feeling.
This place is full of memories for me.
Best friends, close friends, buddies, boyfriend, friends, colleagues, good times, bad times.
Now that i have to say goodbye, its a bitter sweet feeling.
Im happy im leaving here to finally go home to a place i can call my home.
I have never been really really super happy over here. Simply because i dont have a home of my own and i have to "看人家脸色＂ cuz this is not my home i cannot do anything to my own liking.
Humans are funny people. Sometimes friends are closer to me than relatives. Its somewhat true. Or maybe its just my relatives who r this type of people, ok i cannot say all my relatives are such. At least the one i know is. Whether u mean it or not, it hurts when u say i have to clear my things fast and dont leave anything behind and its better for me to go back and move out fast so that you can use the room fully for yourself. And u want to start redecorating the room as soon as i am gone.
I mean why treat me like that? Its not as if i dont pay rental. Its not as if, i create a lot of trouble for u. Or maybe i do. Now that i am out of the way, i hope u'll live better. Whatever.
I will be single officially once the clock strikes 2215 tml. Very sad. I always hoped that Stan will be the one. Sadded that he is not and we have to break up. Oh wells, i can only hope that both of us will be able to really find THE ONE person who has been paired to us by God. Is there such a thg? Do u believe in it?
Lastly i really hope that, i will be able to love and live well and good things will come to me once i am in Jakarta.
Dear God, please have some mercy on your child, forgive me for all my wrong doings and show me towards the right path.