Actually i feel really stress. Rather maybe i am stressing myself. Cuz i want to be better than everyone else. My two cousins they r about the same age as me. In fact they always say that the 3 of us are of the same age.
Look at them and then look at me. They already bought a house in Singapore. while i am still in deficit. They already started giving their parents better life. But mine is still working hard. I came to spore way earlier than them but they r already a citizen and a pr. While i am still struggling to get a work pass to work here. Sometimes i ask myself whats wrong with me. What did i or my parents do wrong. Maybe i shouldnt even come here. Maybe things would have been better. And i get really frustrated now when my family at home asks me when am i going back. They miss me, but i miss them alot more too! And i do wana go back and stay for a while to let all these steam off.
I flared up yst when dad keep asking me when m i gg back. Cuz i am irritated with the qns. Just like when my mom ask me whats the plan now. I also brushed her off and said no plan and stop asking me that. Perhaps, ask the one who has grasp of all these. Dont ask me cuz i know nothing!!!
I am waiting aimlessly. I hate all these waiting. But no one understand. Ppl always think that i can just go to MOM ICA and blabber but who cares abt me really, i am just a foreigner, they dont give a damn about whether i have been here for 15 over yrs or just 1 yr. i am just a foreigner to them.
It doesnt matter to the govt agencies whether all the employers who offered me a position in the company all gave me the same remark as of why do i still need a work pass when i have been here for so long. To them i am a sporean. More spore than many sporean.
But does it matter to the relevant parties processing my pass or my pr? Bcuz what matters to them is the money i am getting per mth. What matters to them is how much tax i have paid. And what matters to them is whether i will be of value here. Whether i can contribute much in their so called economic bla bla bla.
I am shifting nx week. As much as i am excited about staying with cousins cuz i will feel more at home. No more waiting for toilet. No more being alone. No more hvg to tolerate outsiders nonsense.
But i feel inferior. Cuz thats their house, not my house.
Sometimes i probably just think wayyy too much. Maybe? But arent all my thoughts real?
Oh and i just got offered another job in another company. Signed the employment offer yst. Applied for pass. The most AWESOME news is, well.. The current status of my pass as of this morning is... "...expected outcome is 2 months" LOL.
Lets just wait and see. What will happen again. I guess history might just repeat itself. Lets clap. somehow those intelligent ppl/ system think that companies CAN wait 2 months to hire someone. Awesome. Brilliant and clever people..
Too much of such talent here.
Their talent and intelligence cost me to lose the job offer at a rather big MNC located at Bugis!!!!! That job i lost, comes With awesome job benefits and awesome prospect. Thank you awesome, talented and intelligent people for taking THAT away from me.
