argh! as the day draws near, im getting more and more nervous.
the good thing is, it means it will all end soon.
and then, when people ask me qns they dun understand, i can explain and do it for them and make them understand.
so that should mean i also know my work right?
bad thing, and i really dont want it to happen.
i really am scared of having cold hands and feet again on the exam day itself and make all the memory go "POOF"
seriously. argh!

enough browsing on FB, it never do me any good.
makes me more sad.
haha.
oh wells, shall go back to studying then.
have a great weekend! great coming holidays to everyone! =)
 
and nope, monday is not my birthday! neither is it my 2nd year in being together with stanley.
oh wells, haha. LAUGH.
its TWO years already. What have i been doing with him.
LOL.
hope everything brightens up. hope everything goes well.
my exam, it had better go well.
as much as i dont agree that, that piece of paper means everything, i also believe that without that piece of paper my future as an independent woman is well gone too.
so no mater what, got to get that piece of paper. by all means.
God Bless me & all taking the exam. =)

and many many big thanks to Heups!
maybe its really silly as to why I am so happy. But really thanks my jie mei! =)
thanks for planning to want to meet me on monday so that you can give me whatever you wana give me. cuz that means you remember that monday is my birthday and you already planned sth for me. Thanks YOU!
it really means a lot to me!
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
I will meet you right after my exam okays!!! its been too long since i last seen or talk to you!!!
still thank you! thank you! Thank you! =)))

i am still the same old t-shirt and jeans girl, Lily. nothing is changed. I am still me.

oh ya! i designed this, for my Dad's bakery shop brochure. haha!

simple and to the point. =)

My brother was super surprised.
he said, when he received this pic, he was like "WOW!"
he couldn't believe i could come out with that. and its a waste that i didnt go on to pursue my designing ambition.
haha. okay. over-rated. exaggerated.


Now.
BACK TO BOOKS. =D

so i talked to mom for 40 minutes just now using Skype! =)
technology kind of save me quite a bit of money.

Dad's buddy bought my 2nd brother a Blackberry 9700. the new one.
haha. ok lah i am envious, cuz that is actually what i wanted compared to iphone.
but now that i've gotten use to using iphone. i am fine with using iphone now. they are of almost the same price anyways.
but its not about the price. haha. e and my brother are of the same type of people. if people buy for us, then okay lor.. we will use it.. we are grateful.. but even if we dun have it, we are fine with using the "can receive call, can receive sms" phone. =)

and.. uncle's son actually said that studying in singapore is damn easy. he meant. its really easy to study in singapore. I really dont knwo how he got into that conclusion. is it because he is doing his Masters? thats why he find it easy?
bcuz to me and many of my friends, studying in singapore is stressful and difficult. =(

I want my dreams to be realised.
The dream about flying. partly its the pay! next is I GET TO TRAVEL. =)

oh well, now.. better concentrate on the 5 modules first and believe that i can do it.
I need to work on that.
=)

Hahah.. I've been really rebelious these past one week and still so till now.. Lol..
I used to be one looking for stan and smsing him every morning every night. Now, I'm no more so! And I am so proud of myself! I am able to do it!
Not that it's sth very li hai or what! But really now I no longer find him nor SMS him unless he do so first. I don't SMS him in d morning anymore.. At night I'll just sleep n of my phone without informing him or saying gd night to him.
I know this is not healthy but I am actually really preparing myself to leave him. Sounds silly right. But yah I am distancing myself. Today is wednesday. I havent seen him since Saturday night. Supposed to go meet him for lunch or whatsoever the past few days but iturned them all down. I just have my reason. Bcuz it's either I just wana stay longer in school to study or I m just lazy thinking about hvgto go home later after meeting him by bus when I can just go home from school in also one straight bus. So y the hassle..
So yeaps! I am proud of myself. The thing about guys is really when u distance urself they just some how will be attracted to u. Believe it or not, they will automatically find u when u distance urself. When u r there with them, they just treat u like a dirt -_-"

Real or just faking it?

I used to be a girl who believes in anything and everything people say..
But now I'm beginning to doubt what humans are saying to each other..
Often when I read ppl's blog..fb..twitter.. I can't help but ask myself this qns.. Are those real or not?
All the hugs! I miss you! I love u comments.. Which is written by people on almost every single day is abit.. I duno I can't help but to think that.. Are they saying it for the sake of saying it? Or Are they trying to prove something?
I really don't know.. Probably because I'm not anywhere like them, that I began to doubt their sincerity.. Because when I miss someone, I love someone.. I really mean it, because I feel that these "words" are "sacred" is sacred the word?! Duno la.. I know what I meant.. I just think that if u dun mean it don't say it... If u say too much of it, it'll become routine and just one of ur expression of words just like hi! And bye!
U get what I mean?!
It's just... Hmm.. Yeahhs.. I think I have typed what I wana type. No one is going to read anyway.. So it doesn't really matter if anyone understands or not.. Heh..

Have a happy saturday n sunday everyone!
Today's the eve of bestie bday! I hope she will be happy today and tomorrow N of course everyday. Yups. Enjoy urself girl! :)
happy advanced birthday! :)

finally realised.

I was browsing through fb. and then. suddenly i realised something.

I am not a fan of fb, I don't post comments on other people's wall, except for birthday comments. in short, i just don't frequent fb as much as others do.

while browsing...

it made me realize something, i should stop all the assumptions i have made to make myself feel better.

seriously.

I should stop thinking about..

1) I think I know, but in actual fact, I don't know a shit about what is going on EXACTLY.

2) I feel that they r important to me and i think they are really important to me and it goes the same way.

(but in actual fact, I am not even close to important to them, so I should stop being such a nuisance and go disturb them again and again.)

Everyone has moved on from that stage, currently, they have their own circle of friends and I shouldn't even try so hard to try to fit into that circle of friends. As long as they are happy, I should just extend my 祝福 to them.

sometimes, its really difficult to differentiate what is real and what is not.

Its really sometimes difficult to even think about whether all the things we have talked about together are real or not.

are u just trying to make me feel better?

then in the end letting me realize, all that you've said are opposite of what you've done.

all that we've talked about together are just bull. =(

I should have realized it last year around this time. I should have realised and come to my senses then.

that we have drifted apart and accept the fact that, the "belief" we have been trying to hold are just nonsense. =(

It's not easy reaching to this conclusion. but oh wells, i'm letting go.

U've found your happiness long time ago..

u've a lot of loved ones with you. 

One less me will not cause any damage. will still be here when u need me =)

I wish you all the very best. =)

oh wells, have a great weekend everyone! =)

and!! i din get to meet ade this week! =(
and! i need to regain back my straight standing and sitting posture! I've been slouching so much lately! =(
and! i also need to lose some weights! 
apparently, I didn't go to the gym last week and this week, because i think its a waste of money.. =S
i might just ask my friends who are staying in condos if i can just sneak in into their condo gyms and do my work out. :D
and! I need to get back to studying now. friday, saturday, sunday! supposedly playing and have fun days have turned into a stay home days! =(

Sunday 42 more days!

I meet up with Ahmir on Friday night for dinner and we talked! :) I miss her! Yes we may not be the best of friends but I really treasure and admire her alot:)) thanks for meeting me up dear girl! I wish u all d best too!

She said I look very stressed up and tired! :( a lot of people have been saying that. Yes I m I m really feeling v stressed up n tired! And all that has been happening is not helping to decrease the stress level.. :(
but meeting up with dear friends do help! I love them so so much! :) next week! I'll meet up with Ade girl! I just need to arrange a time! :)

I have 42 more days to my birthday! Haha! Yeah! I just realised d counting down thgy I did on my wall was counting down to my birthday! Hahaha! But my first paper is 2 days after my bday! So it doesn't really matter.. :p

I did something wrong yst! I was pissed off by my Dad and expressed it in a rather unhappy toned SMS! :( then I woke up feeling guilty! :( well yeah.. I did wrong! Sorry Dad!

I m still happy I got my license ald! But I realised it's no big deal now..
Then I m still happy for my dearest silly girl! U see la, now its all postponed! But nvm! Just. A few hours more they'll be here! :) I m feeling excited! I hope u r too! I really m admitting that he is really nice! I hope he remains nice always! :))
I may not have seen him but I'm ald saying how nice he is! Haha! So he had better be really nice! :D don't disappoint us!! :)

alright! Sunday is studying day! Have a great Sunday everyone! :))

no flaws doesn't mean perfection;
flaws doesn't mean imperfection!

perfect weather! perfect day! =)

I GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE!
TODAY! =)

1stly!
Thank you God for blessing me today! I am now believing in You and believing in myself.
I'm glad my prayers was heard! Thanks! =)
I'll try to be more devoted by praying more. =)

next..
Thank you all for those who wished me good luck!
Im glad i didn't disappoint you all!
really! the first thing i was worried about is disappointing people who believed in me!
but! phew~~ I got it already!
Thanks to Stan for waiting for me through out my whole driving practise and the whole practical test today! =)))
Thanks thanks all for all the good luck wishes! =)

next! 5 more papers to go!
=)
I'll pass them all too! =))

Jia you  to me! =)

Ok! I've been posting a lot. I just needed to spit it out! :)
I've always wanted to move into a small island or a peaceful and quiet place and build my own family there! Of course when I've settled down I would have my whole family come over! :) so according to Elson, New Zealand is the place suitable for mr to lead my simple and peaceful life! And I think I've heard about it before do now I wana go into NZ!
Then I realised instead of hvg to rely on finding a rich hubby! Strike toto lottery 4d or anythg of the sort! It's better if I depend on myself! :D so first and foremost what I must fo is.. Get my freaking degree first! Then.. Find myself a job! Then hopefully I can get transfered there or I can just straightaway get a job there and start my so called plan to moving over!
Or rather better still if i could have a few try outs at a few places and see which place is the best place for me :)
sounds good? I finally found my purpose in life! At 22yrs 10 mths and 11 days old! But at least I found this purpose before I m 23!
Alright nothing is too late!
So yah! I've always wanted to faster get my degree to show the adults! But now I'm doing it for myself! It founds slot better and it makes more sense and motivates me more! So yeaps!!! Go all the way! :)))

have a great week ahead! :)

revision - exam period!

I don't know why but during this exam and revision period, I just tend to want to blog and type whatever I want. Maybe its a way of de-stressing! I guess so.
I've come to one simple conclusion that I cannot study with people at the wrong place.
I can study and get things done when i am studying with people at NTU or at some study place area!
but not at inappropriate place like people's house or sth like that. because i have done it once, and its super ineffective!
I just need a proper environment to study.
away from tv away from computers away from all those distracting stuff! FOOD! one of them! =D
but then I seem to be able to handle it well in my own room!
maybe because I have "divided" my room into "relaxing" area and "studying" area!
yups! my room is basically "divided" into half! according to yours truly! =))

yay yay! a new week is coming! hahaha! they are coming! okay!
I honestly don't know why i am so excited! i really don't know! Maybe i can't express it in words! but I am really excited, happy and everything!
maybe I am excited to see the three of them standing together as a family!
maybe I am excited to meet the big, nice, matured man and the small little girl!
maybe I am excited to see what's coming next, all i can imagine is happy days after another happy days and (ok la! lets be true to ourself and acknowledge that life is not all that perfect, maybe a little bit of arguments here n there! little girl throwing tantrums! just a little okay! they are very understanding people! so, arguments and tantrums wont stay long! )
and more more more more!!! There is alot running through my mind! i just can't express them in words!
In short! I am just HAPPY! EXCITED! (okay! lack of vocab! happy and excited should say it all!)

okay now! tomorrow is Monday! that makes Tuesday my driving practical test date! and
I AM hmm... not really nervous in a sense! I just hope everything goes well that day! =)
I MUST PASS THIS TIME ROUND! =)
like what my dear Yik said "i'm sure u will pass, provided you are not nervous!"
yah! I am sure to pass EVERYTHING if i am NOT NERVOUS!
so i am taking away all these "nervous nonsense" in me! =D
just be confidence!!! =D

next week! I also am going to go visit the Chinese doc! to cure my "weird" illness! =(
I hope she can cure it! I don't want any more pains during my 1st day of period!
no more! i am not in labour every month! so i dont need all the vomitting and lying down on the bed one whole day! =)
So dear doctor, I have 100% confidence in you to cure my illness! please cure it! =D

okay now! a few minutes has passed! now its time for dating time! =D

all my LOVERS! I am coming coming coming! I shall dedicate all of my 49 days! to you! =D
just so that we can have a PERFECT date on the 5th, 7th, 13th, 15th and 20th of MAY! =D

Have a great Sunday everyone~~ =))

=))

okay! call me crazy or whatever! but I am really happy that they are coming over next week! =)
It would mean a lot for my dear girl. =)))
how many around us have guys who is willing to go to this extent for a girl.. i think none. even those right beside us isn't even that sweet or rather that nice towards us. Bestie is right! even those with perfect histories cant do things right! so we shouldn't think badly on guys who has had flaws on their history! this is one thing i learnt! and it is so super and very TRUE! =)

sometimes i really wonder why am i in this relationship. i really wonder.. and when i wonder... it spells trouble. because even I am not sure why am i in this relationship, in this mess. arghs! nvm whatever.
when people ask me.. "why leh? what did he do?" in my mind, there will be a string of flashbacks! but i just dont know how to say it out. cuz its not always that he is the one at fault. bcuz i can be bitchy at times too! or maybe i am at fault at times too! but i am pissed off bcuz he triggered it!
anyways, i  really hate hate hate guys who shout and play rough at their girl! i honestly hate such guys. I really do.. and i mean it in any kind of circumstances, guys shouldn't do that.. haha.. okay! girls shouldn't too!

okay! not a very good post to put up on a mid evening saturday! whatever! whatever! have a great weekend everyone! =)

Mitch Albom !!!

okay.. this was taken.. I dont know when.. quite sometime ago. Stan got his book. and i persisted to queue up to get his signature! okay! stan bought his book and got his signature! I got to take the picture!

okay! people who know me, will know that I almost never buy books or cds or vcds or dvds unless i really have to. and reason behind is simple. I think the money can be use for other usage. =)

What will be, will be... =)

I have mixed feelings right now..
I've just blogged.. i dont know when.. but i know i did a few days ago.. or was it yesterday..? oh wells.. i dont know.. i just feel like blogging today..

I have been. I don't know.
Last week was bad. these few days when i am looking at the mirror. I look at my skin. I just feel. "gosh! what have i turn into.."
sleeping late at 2, 3am has been the current trend in my life cycle now. and its doing damages to my skin and of course my life! =( even Yiks knows that i used to sleep very early and she really ask me to go back to "last time" that kind of life... thanks Yiks!
I went to the gym today to work out! i spent one and a half hour there.. but i think i worked out for only 40 minutes. bcuz as usual, i just cant take the work out. be it jogging.. slow jog of 3 minutes makes me difficult to breathe! now i m thinking how did i actually manage to finish 2.4km in JC.. =/ so i just stop everytime my heart is beating very fast and when i got chest pain and cant catch my breathe. whatever it is.. i just slow down..
den did quite a number of things. all i hope for is.. tomorrow.. I hope my body dont ache. =D

And people I am not really close with are asking me weird qns like...
"are u still a virgin?"
"have u ever had a fling?"
1st, i know what is a virgin.. 2nd, i really dont know the exact definition of a fling..
I mean.. these kind of qns.. once u hear it.. I don't know.. I was quite ok when answering them.. it was until i told Stan about it that he got a bit pissed off bcuz he thinks that they are very rude to ask that. and then.. i also thought, if they are really my friend, without asking, they should know the answer already, wouldn't they? and to a certain extent, yes, i feel that they are kind of rude.. but okay lah. wasn't really bothered by it.
as the years go by, i kind of grow up as the minute and seconds go by. now i don't want to be ignorant anymore. even though i still do think that ignorance is bliss. but sometimes ignorance can turn into stupidity. so yeah! I've decided to wisen up and not be so stupid.. =)

I am happy for my few girls who have i think at this moment found their "the one" in their life. =)
I really hope things will work out for them. 

First pair! MY DEAREST BESTIE & Mitch..=)
since the day I've decided to stand by her and support this relationship she is in.. I am very happy over the little things He did for the two of them, I hope things will work out. Don't take me as crazy ok? but I somehow think that one day my dear girl will just pop by my place and pass me a wedding invitation card!  
And NO! its definitely not shot gun, whatever, I just think that, they both will probably decide to settle down when they have think through things properly =) I know some of u will give me the reaction of.. "SO fast? shot gun ar?" please don't be silly and jump into this kind of conclusions.. thanks! but even if it is.. also none of our problem right? don't make other people's problem, your problem. =)
I just want to see my dear girl lead a happy life. =)

Second pair! my dear pig girl! Ade & Shark! haha! I can see and feel that she is doing great with shark! I hope u two will settle down soon! ok lah.. i know not so soon! haha! but who knows a surprise maybe??  but I really hope things will work out for the two of you too! very long never see my pig girl le! i shall book her for a lunch soon! =)

Third pair! Irene & Harry! these 2 are now separated by distance! my Irene girl is now in China pursuing some Chinese degree while Harry is in Jakarta waiting for her to return.. Take this one year as a test to your relationship ba. If things works out then its good. If its not, then I really hope she will meet a better one.. =)

Fouth pair! Ahmir and her new bf! =D okay! i still don't know who is this lucky boy boy! I will dig the information from her when i meet her on the 19th! Hope this relationship of hers will work out too! =D

Fifth pair! Me & Stan! okay. I don't know where our relationship will go until. So far so good. I hope things will look good. Someone told me that we have to try to make things work. But oh wells! I don't know. See how. I don't have the mood to even think about it! Let's just see what God has in store for us. Back to the same saying.. What will be, will be.. =)

and the rest of my dearest! we will all meet our partner one find day! NO RUSH! the most important thing is,
If you can't commit, then stay single!
If u are ready to be loved and love someone, then go for it! =)

okay! last prelim paper on..
12th, Friday! Management mathematics!
16th, Tuesday! Driving Practical on 16th March!
Let me pass both with ease! =D

and I haven't talked to a lot of people recently!
I hope my dearest Cousin Lowie is doing good! oh ya! do support her blogshop at

www.the-fashion-olshop.blogspot.com

help me spread the word! thanks! if forget the link! please text me and i will let you know! =D
I hope Heup has been doing good too! its been very very long since i had a proper talk with him! oh wells, wait till he is ready to talk to me again then see how bah.. I miss "talking" to him! =)
I also hope that SzeHong has been doing good too! haven't had the time to text him! still! hope he is doing great! =)

I miss having companion to sleep in my room! :( I miss my mommy! I miss talking to her before I sleep.. I miss alking to someone till I fell asleep. Te doctor has actually ask me why is it I don't sleep early. Yah.. I don't know why I just can't sleep and I don't call anyone at all because even if I do call, I don't even know what to talk about.. So let's just forget about the whole talking chit chatting thingy.

I miss talking to my friends but I don't make the effort to go talk to them. It's a Saturday and here cones Sunday.. I'm not going anywhere though.. It's a stay at home weekend. No Stanley, no friends, just me on my own. I have a feeling I am losing my close friends.. But I don't know what to do with it.. Ok la.. Maybe I am thinking too much.

Blessed are those people who have found people they loved and loved them. Treasure that relationship. Appreciate ur one another. This doesn't happen all the time so yah. Appreciate them.

Alright.. Gd nights. I miss having companion. :(

monthly thgy..

Whenever I am having my period. That kind of feeling always visit me. I just tell whoever is listening that I'd rather die than having to endure the pain :( yah every single month!

It's only during certain months when I-don't-know who decided to be good to me then I have no pain nothing. Just losing blood. And I love those days! I'll tell God, thank you so much.

Yesterday was bad! As usual, vomitting everything i ate. It doesn't even want to let go of the water I drank -__-" so it's really basically vomitting till everything inside is empty.

I don't know what's wrong also! So I went to see the Chinese doctor yesterday. And she bring me good news!

THIS CAN BE CURED! 

but I have to be diligent and determined enough to cure it. She even ask me. 

How on earth did I manage to endure this kind of pain every month. Why didn't I come earlier to seek help. "....Because the other doctors said that it can't be cured!" 

she said RUBBISH! which doctor said that..

She said I need to get rid of this illness fast! Else it'll just continue to bother me till she don't even know when. The kind of pain I am experiencing, I think no 5th person will ever know/feel/understand.. Only my dearest Dad and Mom and 2 of my cousins have seen it. 

it's a sight no one will ever want to see.. but i also because I don't want anyone else to see la.. things will turn really ugly when i am having that..  :p

So how to cure? The process?

I have to visit her TWICE every week to toa pa yoh! From bp! I really don't know how I am going to do it.. :( I haven't decide to go for it or not.. Hmmm.. Should I?? Should I not?

oh wells, whatever it is.. its just a msg going out to anyone you know who is having the same problem as i am.. that it can be cured.

as to how to cure. will update when i am in the "curing" process already okay? 

good news is.. i am feeling ok now.. except that i still feel restless.. stomach still feels bloated and head stills feels dizzy every now and then.. and i love the doc's medicine. it really put me to sleep within an hour! and its the kind of sleep I've haven't had for a very long time since i came back here. =)

another good news is... i can go get my pay at EB already... =))

another....

good news is my birthday is coming in 8 weeks time! I'll turn 23 then! old~~~~~~

and that also mean that exams is in 8 weeks time too! 5th of May! 

God Bless me! I'm doing good with revision. Its progressing very well. =)

That special bond :)

Last day of Chinese new year! Time really flies! And I don't like the way things r progressing! It's just too fast! too scary to be true!

But I am happy for sth though. I am happy for my Bestie Girl! People might not approve people might not agree with what she is doing. People ask qns. People gets worried. Yes I used to be one of those people. I used to really worry over her relationships. Because I Dont want to see her sad. Yah. That's the word the feelng. I don't want her to get hurt. But thing is, if she
don't try.. How would she know if this will work out. True enough we never know what will happen in the future. But I guess we should all just live for this moment. The present is what is important the rest no longer matters. We all just want to be happy, don't we? (ok I think im digressing!)
so whatever it is I just want to say, I m happy to see my bestie happy, not only me, I guess all the people who cares n loves her are happy for her too :)

back and unhappy

well well. i am back here again. sometimes i really feel weird. really weird. i really hated being alone here. yet i know i have to be here to finish my education and to work here.
its like i really hated being alone here. i would probably love here more, if my whole family is here to accompany me. or my dad or mom or brother comes to visit me a few times in a few months!
i know, that is so impossible, but oh wells, just let me dream.


Chinese New Year this year meant a lot to me. It's really special. Believe it or not, I haven't sat on the table to eat any meals with both my parents and my kor kor ALTOGETHER, all in one table!
not even during chinese new year! so we are all always here and there and not always together. So this CNY really meant a lot to me.
Me sitting around the dinner table with Dad, Mom and Brother! it really meant a lot. I hope to have such sessions more~~~!!!

and again. not to mention! i am missing home a real lot now! =((
I am back to sleep alone in my room!
I am back to be a loner again here to fight war war war on my own.
I made some promises to myself. i will do it. i will try my very best. even though i am really not sure if i can do it or not. but then.. i just have to tell myself that i can do it! i can do it! and then yesh! i can do it and i will do it!

I miss my mom! I miss my Dad! I miss my kor kor!

HOPE TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY FOR EVERYONE!
Dear God,
Please Bless my Parents and my grandma with good health. I want to see them healthy and happy.
And of course bless all of us too. =)

alright! good night world!
I m going to lead a helthy lifestyle, by sleeping early and waking up early!
so good nights! =)

wedding dress

this vid is soo awesome!

where is the respect?

this is an out-of-the-blue feeling!
but seriously, where is the respect. where is it...
Just tell me straight if you don't want to make use of what I have done!
just tell me straight!
you don't have to totally disregard it and then tuck it one side!
especially when YOU know that i have spent hours and hours and hours and days doing it! 
I am so sad!
hais!
neverminds, I just have to come to terms with this, that some humans are just simply, LIKE THAT...
that there is really no such things, such as, 好心有好报... =((
Oh wells, what to do right!!!! =((

If it's not right, It's probably left..

life has been.. rather fine..
engine is starting again.
back to studies and all.. exams coming in about 107 days?
dang! it's time to STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!

and i am really grateful for everything that has happened.
and i really thank you for being there for me, really.
I never expect you to be heer, after so so long.
getting angry for me.
getting pissed off for me.
i can feel it.
Thanks. =)
and big big thanks for yesterday!

apparently, I am just one super timid girl!
I really don't dare to take cab home on my own, late at night!
so really! thanks for giving me a ride home, whether you did it willingly or you've been asked to!
thanks a lot! =)

more and more memories to be collected..

okays!
now..
back to ACCOUNTING =D

I quit

yeah! I am quitting from EB.
today might be my last day... or maybe next Saturday is my last day, if i want to be responsible and fulfill my duty..
OR maybe, i might just decided to be irresponsible and just quit and let today be my very last day.
oh wells, lets see how today goes. =)

Thanks Heup & Thanks SH for the long talk! =)

Too much unnecessary cryings!
Too much unnecessary heart-breaking moments!
Too much unnecessary nonsense to take in!

I don't know man. My dad may not own a very big business or whatever, but we have our own 2 bakery shops to attend to..
and no matter what I am still a Boss's daughter..
So thing is, even me as a Boss daughter don't do horrible things and play stupid "games" with my workers.
I keep a very good relationship with them, I respect them for their work and they respect me as the Boss daughter.. 
So I don't see why, someone who is not even the Boss of the company has to treat his subordinates like a dirt, playing them around... bossing them around..  when he is not even the one giving out our pay. -_-''
ok lah. he is the manager, so what say me right? so the best thing is to just. Q.U.I.T.

it's just too much to take in.
I am done.
I'm going to concentrate on studying.
It's all for the better.=)

Study Study!
Do well for this year!

I learned a lot at EB!
Met some really nice people, whom I won't forget. =)
Met some really nice customers whom, I never thought I will meet..=)

We really can be nice beings, its about whether we want to be nice or not...
YEAPS.
So..
YEAH! I think I am done!

God will watch over the rest of the crew! =)