Registered for my theory test today...
Bumped into Lester & Heup! :)
Very long never see Lester already. 2 years..?
Hmm.. glad to see him.. Was very surprised!
he didn't change much! :)
didn't get to talk much to him also..
whatever it is, glad to see that he is fine. :)
& Lucky Heup, he passed is BTT!!!
Congrats! Hope i'll pass it in my 1st attempt too. :)
I'm glad i bumped into him, before i go back home. :)
then..
i got news from Ms Choo already...
She is in Europe now.. will be coming back to sg in July. :)
so those who are wondering where she is..
she is there in Europe enjoying herself...
want to know why?
ask me..
haha. :)
weekend is here.
enjoy yourself.
i definitely will. :)
2 more days to home sweet home. :)
yayness!!! :D
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Okays Okays.
Breath in.. Breath out..
Relax...
Those who've read my past entry. relax. i really wasn't shooting at anyone in particular. =x
If I've made anyone unhappy, I sincerely apologize.
I've decided to take it out.. in case i offend more people. :)
Anyways, I went to get my air ticket today.
So it's confirmed that i am going home next Monday (070708).
wanted to postpone it. But then, cannot keep postponing already.
I made up my mind.
I just want to go home fast. :)
Of course, I am lying if I say that I am happily going back.
There is a small part of me, which is actually quite unhappy.
Yeahs, quite.
But that won't stop me for going back.
I will still go back as planned.
I am sorry, I don't want to postpone it anymore.
Actually, am really quite sad.
Very few people know this.
This time I go back, when I come back, he won't be in sg.
So we won't be seeing each other until October.
It's only July now.
October is about 3 months away?
Yeahs.
I don't know to smile or to cry.
So now, I am treasuring every minute that we can spend together.
whatever it is, I promise I will try to be happy. :)
This matter is too trivial compared to what many others out there are facing.
Be happy.
Weekend is coming.
Have a great weekend!!!
Have fun & Enjoy! :)
(: It's been 2 months. :)
Thank you for everything. :)
Breath in.. Breath out..
Relax...
Those who've read my past entry. relax. i really wasn't shooting at anyone in particular. =x
If I've made anyone unhappy, I sincerely apologize.
I've decided to take it out.. in case i offend more people. :)
Anyways, I went to get my air ticket today.
So it's confirmed that i am going home next Monday (070708).
wanted to postpone it. But then, cannot keep postponing already.
I made up my mind.
I just want to go home fast. :)
Of course, I am lying if I say that I am happily going back.
There is a small part of me, which is actually quite unhappy.
Yeahs, quite.
But that won't stop me for going back.
I will still go back as planned.
I am sorry, I don't want to postpone it anymore.
Actually, am really quite sad.
Very few people know this.
This time I go back, when I come back, he won't be in sg.
So we won't be seeing each other until October.
It's only July now.
October is about 3 months away?
Yeahs.
I don't know to smile or to cry.
So now, I am treasuring every minute that we can spend together.
whatever it is, I promise I will try to be happy. :)
This matter is too trivial compared to what many others out there are facing.
Be happy.
Weekend is coming.
Have a great weekend!!!
Have fun & Enjoy! :)
(: It's been 2 months. :)
Thank you for everything. :)
Sunday, June 29, 2008
M2M - Our Song
I’m lying in my bed, all alone
Called you once again, no one is home
It’s raining outside, on saturday night
Turning out the light, again I tried
My friends say I’m too good, too good for you
And maybe that is true, well I don’t care
What do they all know, they got it all wrong
This is so unfair, they’re playing our song
Nobody gets too much heaven no more
It’s much harder to come by
I’m waiting in line
Nobody gets too much love anymore
It’s as high as a mountain
And harder to climb
Something’s going on, what is wrong
I want you to be here, why won’t you come
And spend some time with me, can’t you see
Have we come undone
Is this the end of our song
Bridge
How do I deal
With how I feel
How to reveal
Oooh... what is real love
As another day fades away
So I say
Chorus 2x
I’m lying in my bed, all alone
Called you once again, no one is home
It’s raining outside, on saturday night
Turning out the light, again I tried
My friends say I’m too good, too good for you
And maybe that is true, well I don’t care
What do they all know, they got it all wrong
This is so unfair, they’re playing our song
Nobody gets too much heaven no more
It’s much harder to come by
I’m waiting in line
Nobody gets too much love anymore
It’s as high as a mountain
And harder to climb
Something’s going on, what is wrong
I want you to be here, why won’t you come
And spend some time with me, can’t you see
Have we come undone
Is this the end of our song
Bridge
How do I deal
With how I feel
How to reveal
Oooh... what is real love
As another day fades away
So I say
Chorus 2x
Friday, June 27, 2008
I am closing and opening and locking and unlocking my blog for several times in a month.
Don't ask me why, i just feel like doing so. =p
Last week has been very very bad.
the past few days was pretty fine.
Because i had companion of my Bestie girl, Stan and I meet up with Heup today.
Thank you loads.
I don't know why i thanked.
But yeahs, just, Thank you.
You know, I am really glad that i have these few FRIENDS around me, whom i really trust 100%, whom i really call friends and who really care about me.
They won't say nasty things to me unnecessarily.
I don't know how to describe the FRIENDSHIP between me and these FEW close people around me.
I am just very glad that they understand.
I am just very glad that they know what i am doing.
I am just very glad that they will tell me the reason why i am wrong and why i am right.
I am just very glad that they treat me very very sincerely.
I am just very glad that they gave me very constructive advices.
This is why, even if we don't meet, don't talk for very very long time, we still can somehow talk non-stop when we finally meet again.
I am very glad. Thank You. :)
I still cannot come to terms with certain things.
I still can't accept certain things.
I will try.
Because what Bestie & Heup say is right.
I don't really have to care about what they say, really.
I mean, if their words, hurt my feelings, then why bother to listen.
I once said that i can't please every single one of you around me,
by being the girl that you all want me to be.
I am just me, there are certain things that are beyond my control.
All along, I am fine in being just me.
That girl, who don't really care about anything and everything as long as i feel good and i feel fine.
But the past months, I have been taking in too much of what people say.
I have been listening too much.
I know comments are good.
I know that when people say certain things about me, they want me to be better.
That is IF what they say are true.
That is also IF they are close to me, and that they have weighed the comment they said.
I mean, I am sure my BEST FRIENDS. MY very very close friends, friends who really care about me wouldn't want to hurt my feelings by saying unnecessary things which they knew would hurt me a lot and those words are just for fun and not true.
IF people who knows me very very well, and wants the best for me, said otherwise, then i don't know why that bunch of them, keep saying unnecessary things to hurt me.
I was wondering, if they did reflect on themselves first before putting their message across to me.
lala~
whatever it is, I just want to bring a message across.
I don't know what makes you all say so.
I don't know why you all said so.
If i can't do this, can't do that, then what do you guys want me to do?
Remain, the same? Heck care? Still stay at home during weekends?
TELL ME WHAT TO DO LA.
don't just anyhow anyhow shoot shoot shoot.
say that i have changed this and that, blablabla.
I am sick of listening to the same thing over and over again, yet not knowing why this came out.
Silence is golden.
Don't ask me why, i just feel like doing so. =p
Last week has been very very bad.
the past few days was pretty fine.
Because i had companion of my Bestie girl, Stan and I meet up with Heup today.
Thank you loads.
I don't know why i thanked.
But yeahs, just, Thank you.
You know, I am really glad that i have these few FRIENDS around me, whom i really trust 100%, whom i really call friends and who really care about me.
They won't say nasty things to me unnecessarily.
I don't know how to describe the FRIENDSHIP between me and these FEW close people around me.
I am just very glad that they understand.
I am just very glad that they know what i am doing.
I am just very glad that they will tell me the reason why i am wrong and why i am right.
I am just very glad that they treat me very very sincerely.
I am just very glad that they gave me very constructive advices.
This is why, even if we don't meet, don't talk for very very long time, we still can somehow talk non-stop when we finally meet again.
I am very glad. Thank You. :)
I still cannot come to terms with certain things.
I still can't accept certain things.
I will try.
Because what Bestie & Heup say is right.
I don't really have to care about what they say, really.
I mean, if their words, hurt my feelings, then why bother to listen.
I once said that i can't please every single one of you around me,
by being the girl that you all want me to be.
I am just me, there are certain things that are beyond my control.
All along, I am fine in being just me.
That girl, who don't really care about anything and everything as long as i feel good and i feel fine.
But the past months, I have been taking in too much of what people say.
I have been listening too much.
I know comments are good.
I know that when people say certain things about me, they want me to be better.
That is IF what they say are true.
That is also IF they are close to me, and that they have weighed the comment they said.
I mean, I am sure my BEST FRIENDS. MY very very close friends, friends who really care about me wouldn't want to hurt my feelings by saying unnecessary things which they knew would hurt me a lot and those words are just for fun and not true.
IF people who knows me very very well, and wants the best for me, said otherwise, then i don't know why that bunch of them, keep saying unnecessary things to hurt me.
I was wondering, if they did reflect on themselves first before putting their message across to me.
lala~
whatever it is, I just want to bring a message across.
I don't know what makes you all say so.
I don't know why you all said so.
If i can't do this, can't do that, then what do you guys want me to do?
Remain, the same? Heck care? Still stay at home during weekends?
TELL ME WHAT TO DO LA.
don't just anyhow anyhow shoot shoot shoot.
say that i have changed this and that, blablabla.
I am sick of listening to the same thing over and over again, yet not knowing why this came out.
Silence is golden.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Friday was quite bad for me, because i had to lie down on bed the whole day and make several trips to the toilet. =x
It's the period of the month and i am having it again. :(
I am one of the few of very unlucky people who have to suffer this kind of pain almost every single month.
But then again, compared to my another friend, I am considered quite lucky already.
I only have to suffer one or two days every single month.
Yet my another friend have to suffer the whole month. (this is what i heard)
Considering that she missed ONE whole month of lessons and her A'level paper, just because she had her period and the pain is unbearable.
I guess her condition is very very bad.
I heard she needs to go for operation if she wants to totally get rid of the pain.
BUT i don't think mine is that serious la.
SO BESTIE GIRL.
NO WORRIES. :)
But then again, i want to find a cure for this.
The feeling really sucks.
U will feel like dying.
I mean, sometimes I'd rather die than endure the pain. :(
the pain is, i don't know how to describe.
It's best if you can't experience it.
Those who experience it, you know what i am talking about. =p
Thank you loads to my 2 super dearest who are very concerned. :)
Thanks yous!
No worries k?
I'll be fine. It's over for now, at least. :)
Class Outing today with a few of the S71-s people.
Hopefully, it'll be fun.
Don't know where some of the people go la. MIA in progress bahs.
I don't know.
Sometimes, I am super sick and tired of "organising" a class outing for the class.
Not only me, Mad is involved to.
We are sick of thinking of where to go eat, where to meet, what time to meet, who to call.
really super sian 1.
Oh wells, hopefully, it'll be fun later bahs. :)
I heard from auntie that my very super ultra rich Uncle and Auntie and cousins came from Medan yesterday.
They wanted to meet me. *nonsense*
I'll be most willing to meet them since i very long never see them already.
Thing is, they never tell me that they are coming.
They never inform me, nothing.
Then don't bother the fake-ness of asking about this and that when you never had the intention of meeting me.
What's so difficult about picking up the phone to call me, to see if i am free or not?
aiya, whatever.
Hopefully they are doing fine, as usual.
So it's not my fault that i went out in the end right?
so fast.
It's Sunday again.
the days are going by in a super boring and meaningless way.
I miss home.
I want to go home. :(
It's the period of the month and i am having it again. :(
I am one of the few of very unlucky people who have to suffer this kind of pain almost every single month.
But then again, compared to my another friend, I am considered quite lucky already.
I only have to suffer one or two days every single month.
Yet my another friend have to suffer the whole month. (this is what i heard)
Considering that she missed ONE whole month of lessons and her A'level paper, just because she had her period and the pain is unbearable.
I guess her condition is very very bad.
I heard she needs to go for operation if she wants to totally get rid of the pain.
BUT i don't think mine is that serious la.
SO BESTIE GIRL.
NO WORRIES. :)
But then again, i want to find a cure for this.
The feeling really sucks.
U will feel like dying.
I mean, sometimes I'd rather die than endure the pain. :(
the pain is, i don't know how to describe.
It's best if you can't experience it.
Those who experience it, you know what i am talking about. =p
Thank you loads to my 2 super dearest who are very concerned. :)
Thanks yous!
No worries k?
I'll be fine. It's over for now, at least. :)
Class Outing today with a few of the S71-s people.
Hopefully, it'll be fun.
Don't know where some of the people go la. MIA in progress bahs.
I don't know.
Sometimes, I am super sick and tired of "organising" a class outing for the class.
Not only me, Mad is involved to.
We are sick of thinking of where to go eat, where to meet, what time to meet, who to call.
really super sian 1.
Oh wells, hopefully, it'll be fun later bahs. :)
I heard from auntie that my very super ultra rich Uncle and Auntie and cousins came from Medan yesterday.
They wanted to meet me. *nonsense*
I'll be most willing to meet them since i very long never see them already.
Thing is, they never tell me that they are coming.
They never inform me, nothing.
Then don't bother the fake-ness of asking about this and that when you never had the intention of meeting me.
What's so difficult about picking up the phone to call me, to see if i am free or not?
aiya, whatever.
Hopefully they are doing fine, as usual.
So it's not my fault that i went out in the end right?
so fast.
It's Sunday again.
the days are going by in a super boring and meaningless way.
I miss home.
I want to go home. :(
Friday, June 20, 2008
I was thinking of what to blog about.
Then i thought of happy things.
After all, life is short, let make it sweet. :)
So here it is... :)
This Hp "key chain" or what we usually call HP strap??
Was given by my Bestie girl as my 21st Bday pressie! Thanks loads girl!!! :)
Have yet to use it. I'll use it on my new phone. :)
This was given by Mad girl for me. Small small gift from Thailand. :)
Dewi bought this for me. From Singapore i guess. =b.
she just gave it to me today. :)
It's my very belated 21st Birthday pressie. :)
This one. Came as a surprise. :D
Given to me from my Dearest, for i don't know what occasion.
Thank You anyway. :D
I love it!!! It's PINK!! =D
I'm finally putting on a watch now. After 2 years. =b
Thanks love for everything! =D
p/s: Han Bin also bought me something from Taiwan the other day. I kept it in my luggage le. =x I'll take a picture of it when i dig it out. It's very nice also!!! =D
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I am a happier and happy girl today. :)
Sorry if i made anyone worry yesterday. Which i know i did made someone quite angry and worried. *SORRY*
Anyways, yeahs, i felt a lot lot better today.
The gifts & presents were additional things which adds on to me being a happier girl today. :)
I realize that receiving gifts made me happy. =D
HAHA! Actually Just a small note or anything can make me happy. Because, in that way, i know that someone still do care about me. :)
I am really easy to please. =p
Oh ya! I got to eat my favorite cheese prata again today. =)
Thank Yous!!!! =D
Then, I am also happy because 4 of my dearest darlings ( Mad, Stan, Dewi & Bestie girl) called me in 24 hours!!! =D
unexpected! that's y i am sooo happy! Thanks loads!!! =D
Now, it's time to sleep. =b
I hope when i wake up, it'll be another happy day!!!! =D
And, i have another wish.
Please Bless My Family, My Bestie, My Darlings, My Love & Everyone with very very good health. :)
Then i thought of happy things.
After all, life is short, let make it sweet. :)
So here it is... :)
This Hp "key chain" or what we usually call HP strap??
Was given by my Bestie girl as my 21st Bday pressie! Thanks loads girl!!! :)
Have yet to use it. I'll use it on my new phone. :)
This was given by Mad girl for me. Small small gift from Thailand. :)
Dewi bought this for me. From Singapore i guess. =b.
she just gave it to me today. :)
It's my very belated 21st Birthday pressie. :)
This one. Came as a surprise. :D
Given to me from my Dearest, for i don't know what occasion.
Thank You anyway. :D
I love it!!! It's PINK!! =D
I'm finally putting on a watch now. After 2 years. =b
Thanks love for everything! =D
p/s: Han Bin also bought me something from Taiwan the other day. I kept it in my luggage le. =x I'll take a picture of it when i dig it out. It's very nice also!!! =D
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I am a happier and happy girl today. :)
Sorry if i made anyone worry yesterday. Which i know i did made someone quite angry and worried. *SORRY*
Anyways, yeahs, i felt a lot lot better today.
The gifts & presents were additional things which adds on to me being a happier girl today. :)
I realize that receiving gifts made me happy. =D
HAHA! Actually Just a small note or anything can make me happy. Because, in that way, i know that someone still do care about me. :)
I am really easy to please. =p
Oh ya! I got to eat my favorite cheese prata again today. =)
Thank Yous!!!! =D
Then, I am also happy because 4 of my dearest darlings ( Mad, Stan, Dewi & Bestie girl) called me in 24 hours!!! =D
unexpected! that's y i am sooo happy! Thanks loads!!! =D
Now, it's time to sleep. =b
I hope when i wake up, it'll be another happy day!!!! =D
And, i have another wish.
Please Bless My Family, My Bestie, My Darlings, My Love & Everyone with very very good health. :)
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
You know there is this small part inside me, which is very very scared.
back to the whole thing again.
It's the exam i took in May.
I don't know.
BUT I always had this very uneasy and negative feeling.
A lot of people has been telling me la. ''THINK POSITIVE! THINK POSITIVE!"
But, somehow, somehow.
I don't know la i can't.
I know i am screwed. I don't need people to tell me that.
I just feel very very stressed up.
I am super scared of the result.
I hope it won't turn out as bad as how i thought it is.
I am scared to the extent of wanting to start studying now again.
After a few weeks of doing nothing.
Now i feel like going back to studying.
yes!
I think i am crazy.
I don't know what have I been doing.
Everything seems to be going wrong.
hmm.
God Bless Me bahs.
I miss home alot.
But, I really want the job.
I want to work.
I need the money.
I also need my parents. :'(
because no one understands.
back to the whole thing again.
It's the exam i took in May.
I don't know.
BUT I always had this very uneasy and negative feeling.
A lot of people has been telling me la. ''THINK POSITIVE! THINK POSITIVE!"
But, somehow, somehow.
I don't know la i can't.
I know i am screwed. I don't need people to tell me that.
I just feel very very stressed up.
I am super scared of the result.
I hope it won't turn out as bad as how i thought it is.
I am scared to the extent of wanting to start studying now again.
After a few weeks of doing nothing.
Now i feel like going back to studying.
yes!
I think i am crazy.
I don't know what have I been doing.
Everything seems to be going wrong.
hmm.
God Bless Me bahs.
I miss home alot.
But, I really want the job.
I want to work.
I need the money.
I also need my parents. :'(
because no one understands.
Monday, June 16, 2008
Happy Father's Day!
I know I am late by few hours. But never minds.
Thanks loads to my dear Papa for everything.
And Happy Father's Day to all Fathers. :)
Didn't do much on a Sunday.
Almost slept through the whole day.
Played game, Watched show and went dinner with their family. :)
Didn't want to join them as i feel kind of very weird, but got invited by his mom and so i went.
So yeahs. It's nice. Didn't turn out bad. Everything went fine.
I guess now she and they, know me better already. Which is good. :)
Thanks for the dinner. :)
I don't know why, but i somehow think that i will be going back home this week bahs.
because i have the feeling that, i won't be able to get the job. =/
so if i don't get the job. then bye bye friends, bye bye sg. =p
Hmm. I don't know why the feeling, but yeahs, somehow i can sense and feel that i will be going home to enjoy life in a few days time.
So when i go back, what will happen to my dearest friend..?
I don't know la. Life goes on. :)
It'll be ard 5 months before i see him? or is it 4 months?
somewhere there bahs.
I will sure miss him loads.
BUT bo bians. I have to go back.
I can't stand the life here of doing nothing and slacking at home everyday.
It's torturing.
So it's decided.
If i don't get the job. I guess the last day I'll be here will be next Monday, 23rd..?
yeahs. or maybe i can't even survive this Monday and Tuesday. then i'll just leave this weds. =p
oh wells. shall see how bahs.. =D
I am definitely looking forward to going back home. =D
In fact i can't wait. =p
okies. now. good nights. time to sleep. :D
I know I am late by few hours. But never minds.
Thanks loads to my dear Papa for everything.
And Happy Father's Day to all Fathers. :)
Didn't do much on a Sunday.
Almost slept through the whole day.
Played game, Watched show and went dinner with their family. :)
Didn't want to join them as i feel kind of very weird, but got invited by his mom and so i went.
So yeahs. It's nice. Didn't turn out bad. Everything went fine.
I guess now she and they, know me better already. Which is good. :)
Thanks for the dinner. :)
I don't know why, but i somehow think that i will be going back home this week bahs.
because i have the feeling that, i won't be able to get the job. =/
so if i don't get the job. then bye bye friends, bye bye sg. =p
Hmm. I don't know why the feeling, but yeahs, somehow i can sense and feel that i will be going home to enjoy life in a few days time.
So when i go back, what will happen to my dearest friend..?
I don't know la. Life goes on. :)
It'll be ard 5 months before i see him? or is it 4 months?
somewhere there bahs.
I will sure miss him loads.
BUT bo bians. I have to go back.
I can't stand the life here of doing nothing and slacking at home everyday.
It's torturing.
So it's decided.
If i don't get the job. I guess the last day I'll be here will be next Monday, 23rd..?
yeahs. or maybe i can't even survive this Monday and Tuesday. then i'll just leave this weds. =p
oh wells. shall see how bahs.. =D
I am definitely looking forward to going back home. =D
In fact i can't wait. =p
okies. now. good nights. time to sleep. :D
Sunday, June 15, 2008
I can only say that i am pretty tired about almost everything now.
I am beginning to think of more and more negative things.
these few days has been very very saddening.
She said some nasty things which are not pleasant to my ear.
It hurts when it comes out from one of your supposedly, i guess, close friend.
Have I changed?
I don't know la.
I want to find a place to escape.
and the best place is home.
but avoiding doesn't help.
It's not a good solution.
I want to solve problem.
I don't want things to become worse.
I really really want you to be happy.
I don't want to add on to your problems and worries.
I admit that i am such a retard.
what am i doing?
i am very very sorry.
is it inborn or...?
I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO ENJOY LIFE
I am beginning to think of more and more negative things.
these few days has been very very saddening.
She said some nasty things which are not pleasant to my ear.
It hurts when it comes out from one of your supposedly, i guess, close friend.
Have I changed?
I don't know la.
I want to find a place to escape.
and the best place is home.
but avoiding doesn't help.
It's not a good solution.
I want to solve problem.
I don't want things to become worse.
I really really want you to be happy.
I don't want to add on to your problems and worries.
I admit that i am such a retard.
what am i doing?
i am very very sorry.
is it inborn or...?
I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO ENJOY LIFE
Friday, June 13, 2008
yesterday 12th June is a rather happy day. :)
met up with Bestie & got to know her friend Chimpang..
If i spelt it correctly. :)
great company. great food. great chats. happy laughters. :)
有些事情想不通，
就别去想了，
反正会过去的。
或许过了一些时间，
便会想明白。
then i got my pressie from Taiwan bought by HB.
a mini Minnie Mouse blanket!!! :)
It's nice!!! I love it!!!! Thank YOU very much!!!
He should see how i was smiling and smiling when i opened up the pressie to see. =D
Thank you HB!!!!
then Ling Hui is back from Hokkaido!!!! =D
My dear friend is back!!!
She din get any mickey mouse for me.
She got halo kitty for me.
neverminds! good enough!!!
Thank You to you too!!!! =D
lastly, of course thanks to my dearest for accompanying me till 11+,
even though you are super tired ald.
Thank Yous!!! =DDD
I really hope i can get the job.
I really wish i can get the job.
If i really do get the job.
Then I won't have to rely on my parents anymore.
I hope THE ONE ABOVE can feel my filial piety towards my parents and let me get the job.
Please please please.. pretty pretty please.. Let me get the job.
Thank You very much.
Please grant me my wish. =)
Please please please.
met up with Bestie & got to know her friend Chimpang..
If i spelt it correctly. :)
great company. great food. great chats. happy laughters. :)
有些事情想不通，
就别去想了，
反正会过去的。
或许过了一些时间，
便会想明白。
then i got my pressie from Taiwan bought by HB.
a mini Minnie Mouse blanket!!! :)
It's nice!!! I love it!!!! Thank YOU very much!!!
He should see how i was smiling and smiling when i opened up the pressie to see. =D
Thank you HB!!!!
then Ling Hui is back from Hokkaido!!!! =D
My dear friend is back!!!
She din get any mickey mouse for me.
She got halo kitty for me.
neverminds! good enough!!!
Thank You to you too!!!! =D
lastly, of course thanks to my dearest for accompanying me till 11+,
even though you are super tired ald.
Thank Yous!!! =DDD
I really hope i can get the job.
I really wish i can get the job.
If i really do get the job.
Then I won't have to rely on my parents anymore.
I hope THE ONE ABOVE can feel my filial piety towards my parents and let me get the job.
Please please please.. pretty pretty please.. Let me get the job.
Thank You very much.
Please grant me my wish. =)
Please please please.
Friday, June 6, 2008
i want to go out and meet people up.
Mad girl, i want to meet u. :(
I don't know why.
these few days i have been missing a lot of people.
I want to meet the 71s.
i want to meet mad girl.
i want to meet bestie girl.
i want to meet cousin up.
i am getting very unhealthy.
i have been staying at home for a few days now.
and i suddenly realise that my life is so boring.
my dear got me sth yesterday. thank yous.
i got the message across. thanks! =)
got to coup this from the website itself, because poor girl here doesn't have a camera. =p
LH & Ade's fam are off to Hokkaido this morning.
Hope they will have loads of fun. :)
LH i got ur message. I will heed ur advice. :)
I am thinking of where to go for a short holiday.
any suggestions?
I can't stand the atmosphere here anymore. :(
I super duper miss home.
I need my parents now.
女朋友想知道男朋友的过去是很正常的吧。。。
Mad girl, i want to meet u. :(
I don't know why.
these few days i have been missing a lot of people.
I want to meet the 71s.
i want to meet mad girl.
i want to meet bestie girl.
i want to meet cousin up.
i am getting very unhealthy.
i have been staying at home for a few days now.
and i suddenly realise that my life is so boring.
my dear got me sth yesterday. thank yous.
i got the message across. thanks! =)
got to coup this from the website itself, because poor girl here doesn't have a camera. =pLH & Ade's fam are off to Hokkaido this morning.
Hope they will have loads of fun. :)
LH i got ur message. I will heed ur advice. :)
I am thinking of where to go for a short holiday.
any suggestions?
I can't stand the atmosphere here anymore. :(
I super duper miss home.
I need my parents now.
女朋友想知道男朋友的过去是很正常的吧。。。
Thursday, June 5, 2008
I am very irritated.
i want to go work.
i need to work.
i really need to work.
i need money.
i need money.
i need to work.
i want to work.
but i also want to go home.
i miss my parents.
i miss home a lot. :(
blahs.
forget it.
no one will ever understand.
at least i hope some people would understand.
but no one understood.
its a sad life.
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I wanted so much to tell you
that i waited the whole day for you to reach home so i can finally talk to you.
that i appreciate everything.
that i love the special delivery today.
yet, your behavior just somehow made me keep everything to myself.
whatever it is. thank you.
i want to go work.
i need to work.
i really need to work.
i need money.
i need money.
i need to work.
i want to work.
but i also want to go home.
i miss my parents.
i miss home a lot. :(
blahs.
forget it.
no one will ever understand.
at least i hope some people would understand.
but no one understood.
its a sad life.
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I wanted so much to tell you
that i waited the whole day for you to reach home so i can finally talk to you.
that i appreciate everything.
that i love the special delivery today.
yet, your behavior just somehow made me keep everything to myself.
whatever it is. thank you.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
out of so many many things which i hated in the world.
the one i really really hated most are liars.
i don't like it when people lie to me.
no matter who you are.
once you lie to me.
you lost that trust i have in you.
there will always be this wall between me and you.
why cant people just be honest about everything.
what is there to lie about?
once you came up with a lie, you'll have to come up with another lie to cover the lie you made and and the cycle continues.
aren't you tired of it?
i just want promises to be carried out.
i just want you to be honest.
is it very difficult??
the one i really really hated most are liars.
i don't like it when people lie to me.
no matter who you are.
once you lie to me.
you lost that trust i have in you.
there will always be this wall between me and you.
why cant people just be honest about everything.
what is there to lie about?
once you came up with a lie, you'll have to come up with another lie to cover the lie you made and and the cycle continues.
aren't you tired of it?
i just want promises to be carried out.
i just want you to be honest.
is it very difficult??
Monday, June 2, 2008
If promises are meant to be broken, then why make promises?
out of so many days in the month. why does it have to be this day?
remembered for life.
i don't want things to change.
i don't want everything to be just words.
i believe.
i trusted.
should i continue to believe?
should i continue to trust?
it hurts.
out of so many days in the month. why does it have to be this day?
remembered for life.
i don't want things to change.
i don't want everything to be just words.
i believe.
i trusted.
should i continue to believe?
should i continue to trust?
it hurts.
Friday, May 30, 2008
I was feeling very lousy yesterday and i did a lot of silly things.
and they are not worth mentioning so neverminds.
shall let what's over be over.
now i feel very weird, when my own feeling can be felt by someone else. :)
i don't want him to worry about me and i try to be happy all the time.
i hope i can do it la.
there are times when we get really tired and don't feel like appearing strong and fine in front of others.
you know the feeling of wanting to cry, yet nothing comes out?
i tried a lot of times to cry. but somehow, i just can't.
the feeling hurts a lot.
yahs. that small little part there hurts a lot.
but whatever it is, life goes on.
whatever it is, the time won't stop just because i feel sad or whatever.
i still have a lot of things on my mind.
i don't know when will they all get out from there altogether. =x
job hunting is still in progress.
i am getting irritated by the whole thing ald.
now my biggest wish is, i hope i passed all my exam papers.
i hope i will be offered PR status soon.
because the fact that i am not a SG-an and not a PR makes the whole job hunting shit difficult. :(
you know, i feel like going out to find people.
I know i need to find Bestie girl.
yet, i don't know la.
the time is not right yet.
i will find the correct time.
I don't know when.
wells, hopefully she is doing very very fine out there.
i want to find a job.
i need money.
wish me all the best kays?
thanks.
p/s: to those who read my blog post yesterday.
just treat it as if you read nothing okies?
i am not emo-ing. (i hate that emo word),
anyways, i am not emo-ing i am just typing out what i felt. yeahs.
ok people, enjoy the holis, working life, whatever.
or rather enjoy this shitty life. =x
I went to meet up Mad girl on Weds, she now look so tai-tai. =x
anw, nice meeting her. hopefully she had at least a little bit of fun meeting me.
whatever it is, still i must apologise for what happened that very day. sorry girl.
i guess there will never be a next time anymore.
and they are not worth mentioning so neverminds.
shall let what's over be over.
now i feel very weird, when my own feeling can be felt by someone else. :)
i don't want him to worry about me and i try to be happy all the time.
i hope i can do it la.
there are times when we get really tired and don't feel like appearing strong and fine in front of others.
you know the feeling of wanting to cry, yet nothing comes out?
i tried a lot of times to cry. but somehow, i just can't.
the feeling hurts a lot.
yahs. that small little part there hurts a lot.
but whatever it is, life goes on.
whatever it is, the time won't stop just because i feel sad or whatever.
i still have a lot of things on my mind.
i don't know when will they all get out from there altogether. =x
job hunting is still in progress.
i am getting irritated by the whole thing ald.
now my biggest wish is, i hope i passed all my exam papers.
i hope i will be offered PR status soon.
because the fact that i am not a SG-an and not a PR makes the whole job hunting shit difficult. :(
you know, i feel like going out to find people.
I know i need to find Bestie girl.
yet, i don't know la.
the time is not right yet.
i will find the correct time.
I don't know when.
wells, hopefully she is doing very very fine out there.
i want to find a job.
i need money.
wish me all the best kays?
thanks.
p/s: to those who read my blog post yesterday.
just treat it as if you read nothing okies?
i am not emo-ing. (i hate that emo word),
anyways, i am not emo-ing i am just typing out what i felt. yeahs.
ok people, enjoy the holis, working life, whatever.
or rather enjoy this shitty life. =x
I went to meet up Mad girl on Weds, she now look so tai-tai. =x
anw, nice meeting her. hopefully she had at least a little bit of fun meeting me.
whatever it is, still i must apologise for what happened that very day. sorry girl.
i guess there will never be a next time anymore.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
I am not as fortunate as some people are.
I am not as fortunate as she is.
she has a very rich aunt who is able to finance her life in Singapore.
I don't.
she has parents who are able to finance her education here.
I don't.
what do i have?
parents and brothers and aunts and uncles who continuously give me pressure.
what else do i have?
problems after problems.
and it's all related to money.
And what, i need to finance my own life here.
pay for my own food.
pay for my own expenses.
pay for my own living.
craps.
who told me that money is not everything?
when i am trying my very best to scrimp and save, there are people out there who are just squandering their money away like nobody's business.
you think i don't want to be like other people who can shop and shop and shop and get the latest fashion. put on the nicest accessories. put on the nicest clothes.
I WANT but I CANT.
i am tired of letting people know that i am fine.
i am tired of letting people think that everything is fine.
i am tired of putting on the fake smile.
i am tired of reassuring my parents, telling them that i am ok on my own.
i am tired of thinking that everything will go well one day.
i am tired of listening to all the stupid and illogical nonsense.
i am tired of everything.
who can help me?
no one.
no one can.
no one is able to help.
you think i am shaking my leg at home.
doing nothing?
i am doing things.
i am looking for a job.
but most of the jobs only want singaporeans and PRS.
i am neither.
so what job can i get?
i don't know.
i am sick and tired of finding the jobs.
i am very very tired.
i am really very tired.
i am about to break down anytime soon.
you know that kind of feeling of wanting to cry out so much yet you can't shed even a single tear?
it hurts, a lot.
is there anyone out there who hates me to the core..?
now i am giving you the opportunity to kill me.
you have my permission.
kill me.
i want to die so much.
i feel like killing myself.
but i can't.
i want to die.
i hope i will get bang down by the car or someone would accidentally pushed me down the building or i will just die from some food poisoning or whatever.
i just want to die.
because all i give to people is troubles.
so stay away from me.
don't come anywhere near me, because all i can give is nothing but troubles.
i am tired, he is tired, everyone is tired of my so-called problems.
when it means nothing to you, it means a lot to me.
no one will understand. no one will be able to feel what i feel. because you are not me.
so.
just stay away from me and leave me alone. i am giving everyone a break.
I am not as fortunate as she is.
she has a very rich aunt who is able to finance her life in Singapore.
I don't.
she has parents who are able to finance her education here.
I don't.
what do i have?
parents and brothers and aunts and uncles who continuously give me pressure.
what else do i have?
problems after problems.
and it's all related to money.
And what, i need to finance my own life here.
pay for my own food.
pay for my own expenses.
pay for my own living.
craps.
who told me that money is not everything?
when i am trying my very best to scrimp and save, there are people out there who are just squandering their money away like nobody's business.
you think i don't want to be like other people who can shop and shop and shop and get the latest fashion. put on the nicest accessories. put on the nicest clothes.
I WANT but I CANT.
i am tired of letting people know that i am fine.
i am tired of letting people think that everything is fine.
i am tired of putting on the fake smile.
i am tired of reassuring my parents, telling them that i am ok on my own.
i am tired of thinking that everything will go well one day.
i am tired of listening to all the stupid and illogical nonsense.
i am tired of everything.
who can help me?
no one.
no one can.
no one is able to help.
you think i am shaking my leg at home.
doing nothing?
i am doing things.
i am looking for a job.
but most of the jobs only want singaporeans and PRS.
i am neither.
so what job can i get?
i don't know.
i am sick and tired of finding the jobs.
i am very very tired.
i am really very tired.
i am about to break down anytime soon.
you know that kind of feeling of wanting to cry out so much yet you can't shed even a single tear?
it hurts, a lot.
is there anyone out there who hates me to the core..?
now i am giving you the opportunity to kill me.
you have my permission.
kill me.
i want to die so much.
i feel like killing myself.
but i can't.
i want to die.
i hope i will get bang down by the car or someone would accidentally pushed me down the building or i will just die from some food poisoning or whatever.
i just want to die.
because all i give to people is troubles.
so stay away from me.
don't come anywhere near me, because all i can give is nothing but troubles.
i am tired, he is tired, everyone is tired of my so-called problems.
when it means nothing to you, it means a lot to me.
no one will understand. no one will be able to feel what i feel. because you are not me.
so.
just stay away from me and leave me alone. i am giving everyone a break.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
i'm so bored but i am happy. :)
no need to study.
the feeling is so nice. :D
everyday is just..
playing.
watch shows.
eat.
sleep.
go out.
shop.
hahas!
such nice life! :)
i love this kind of life.
but a bit sian also.
now i am finding a job.
need to get a work soon.
i really need to work.
i want money.
i need money.
everyday sit at home and slack also not good.
anyone wants to intro any job to me..??
give me a call or tag me okies...?
thank yous! :D
no need to study.
the feeling is so nice. :D
everyday is just..
playing.
watch shows.
eat.
sleep.
go out.
shop.
hahas!
such nice life! :)
i love this kind of life.
but a bit sian also.
now i am finding a job.
need to get a work soon.
i really need to work.
i want money.
i need money.
everyday sit at home and slack also not good.
anyone wants to intro any job to me..??
give me a call or tag me okies...?
thank yous! :D
Sunday, May 25, 2008
mornings! :)
I still feel like sleeping, but..
cannot everyday sleep until so late. =x
not good not good.
if this is my own house. i'll sleep until i am happy. =p
but now,
i need to wake up and find things to do ald.
but actually also nothing much to do. =x
except that my cupboard is very very messy,
i didn't bother to rearrange all the notes and books after i finish each exam paper. =x
there is a lot of things on my mind now.
but i don't want to think about anything yet.
because i am very tired.
i am really very very tired. =(
i need to rest.
i need to take a break from everything.
and i need to sort my thoughts up.
i need to sort myself up also.
i don't know what am i doing recently.
i don't know if i am doing right things or wrong things.
hopefully what i have been doing are rights and not wrongs. =)
a lot of why-s a lot of what-ifs.
i don't know how can you be so sure of everything you said.
when i am not sure about whatever is happening in this life.
i don't know if i can trust and believe every word you said.
because i don't want to get hurt.
i don't know what i am supposed to do now.
because i can feel something yesterday.
i don't know la.
it's very very sian if i have to think about all these now.
studies.
work.
money.
life.
family.
us.
friends.
=(
super sian.
i am so going to meet up with girlfriends next week.
i must meet Mad & Bestie.
I want to talk to Mad girl. very long din talk ald.
that day, i feel so bad. have to hang up the phone. =/
I want to meet Bestie girl, i miss the feeling of slacking together with her. =p
then, i will meet the other close ones very very soon too. =D
I don't want anything to change, i hope nothing will change. so i need all your help. =)
and now.
i need to get a job.
because i super need money!
i want money.
so i can finance myself.
am i smiling more or frowning and crying more now?
I still feel like sleeping, but..
cannot everyday sleep until so late. =x
not good not good.
if this is my own house. i'll sleep until i am happy. =p
but now,
i need to wake up and find things to do ald.
but actually also nothing much to do. =x
except that my cupboard is very very messy,
i didn't bother to rearrange all the notes and books after i finish each exam paper. =x
there is a lot of things on my mind now.
but i don't want to think about anything yet.
because i am very tired.
i am really very very tired. =(
i need to rest.
i need to take a break from everything.
and i need to sort my thoughts up.
i need to sort myself up also.
i don't know what am i doing recently.
i don't know if i am doing right things or wrong things.
hopefully what i have been doing are rights and not wrongs. =)
a lot of why-s a lot of what-ifs.
i don't know how can you be so sure of everything you said.
when i am not sure about whatever is happening in this life.
i don't know if i can trust and believe every word you said.
because i don't want to get hurt.
i don't know what i am supposed to do now.
because i can feel something yesterday.
i don't know la.
it's very very sian if i have to think about all these now.
studies.
work.
money.
life.
family.
us.
friends.
=(
super sian.
i am so going to meet up with girlfriends next week.
i must meet Mad & Bestie.
I want to talk to Mad girl. very long din talk ald.
that day, i feel so bad. have to hang up the phone. =/
I want to meet Bestie girl, i miss the feeling of slacking together with her. =p
then, i will meet the other close ones very very soon too. =D
I don't want anything to change, i hope nothing will change. so i need all your help. =)
and now.
i need to get a job.
because i super need money!
i want money.
so i can finance myself.
am i smiling more or frowning and crying more now?