counting that i woke up at 10 am today and sat still until 1pm to do my assignments,
read Macro for Econs... i guess i am getting back on track yeahs?
It's a little bit of improvement.
By tomorrow, i have to finish hypothesis testing and estimation assignments tho.
Since i have to return the answers to Shane on Monday. :)
so yeahs. i will finish statistic revision by this week. :D


I went for a job interview at 2.15pm as a florist.
The pay is bad. :(
anw, i dun think i will be able to get the job also.
and i guess it is not worth the time to spend there every weekend just to earn that few dollars.
so wells, shall see how.


then went to find mad girl at Bugis.
Honestly, it was the first time, i see Bugis being so crowded.
as if the things there are all free.
the traffic jam is horrible, and there really is a lot of people in Singapore.
NO way am i going to go to shopping centres during weekends, when it is nearing cny again.
too crowded for me.
IT's nice seeing mad girl, since i haven met her for a very long time already.
went walk walk with her mom , her younger and elder sis.
They are nice people. =D


went dinner with heup at Lot 1 after orchard.
oh, the korean food at the foodcourt is horrible.
they stated it as, korean ramen.
what the hell.
it's MAGGIE MIE!!!
i think i can coook better maggie than them and it costs me 4 bucks.
stupid. i am so not going there to eat maggie mie anymore. -_-'''


and yay! i am going back home on monday night. =D


i was quite pissed with the whoever person who tagged on my board scolding me as bitch, slut and asshole. but then again, i am wasting my time thinking about who you are and stuffs. i don't even know who u are.
people who are MY FRIENDS know very well that i HATE people who speak of vulgarities, moreover when you use it on me. so i guess you are not MY friend.
FREAK! what did i do to u sia?
you don't have to use those language on me right?
I don't care if you are joking or what so ever shiet. It's not funny.
sorry, if those are your language, then sorry, i am so sorry. I don't have a friend like you.

Ohs! i saw JIng Ying in school today.. its been duno how many donkey years since i last saw her.
omg!
and it was her who first recognized me.
which means i really din change much.
been seeing lots of SJAB seniors at SIM.
haha. nice.
and i've been see-ing lots of innovians at SIM too.
some of them changed a lot lehs...
i Was quite surprised also.


oh wells.
go and study bahs lily!
=D

prelims exam time table is out...:(
it will start on the 23rd FEb and will end on the 10th of march.
Bless me bahs...
i am super stressed out.
hais.
and i bet fir the next 2 years, its going to be like this
after cny, it will be prelims, 1 week after my birthday it will be the end sem exam. wth.
how nice.


there is so much to study... :(
sian-ness.
i don't know how on earth am i going to finish revising.
BUT i will try my best to finish.
NO.
I WILL FINISH REVISING.
DEFINITELY.


its a wrong to have made the decision to go back and celebrate cny.
anyways, whats done cannot be undone.
what i can do is.
BRING back all my NOtes & bOoks.
get enough nutrients and whatever vitamins, so that i can handle the prelims when i come back here again. =D
Bless me please.


kadang emank gue harepin banget kalo gue tugh anak org kaya.
tapi. yah... yang namanya manusia. semuanya hidup berbeda.
ga bisa di atur sama kita sendiri.
pokoknya sekarang.
gue harus sekola.
belajr belajr. have fun. gimana aja dhe.
pokoknya gue harus lulus.
harus lulus dalam 3 taon.
ga boleh main lagi bow..

head is very pain, due to i-dont-know-what.
i've slept for like 11 hours.
i turned in at 1130 yesterday.
and i fell asleep instantly.
cuz i was too tired because of i-dont-know-what also.
i only went to sch and cousin hse yst.
yet i was like so damn tired and so damn moody.
i dont know why.


i am very poor now. :(
hopefully daddy will make me more richer when i go back home. :)


i need to find a part time job when i come back here in mid feb.
because without extra cash, i cant do anything. :(


today will be the LAST econs class i will ever have for this month.
yahs.
probably the last, except that we requested for an extra class before our prelims.
yeaps...


arghs.
head pain.


i did sth silly before i slept yesterday.
something very silly.
and i am not going to tell anyone.
that was silly enough.

I am very sian arhs!
Anyways, i am going back to Jakarta next Monday.
will be away for 3 weeks. =D
this is the only thing i am happy about today.


today went to crash stats lecture again.
i saw him from a distance.
i saw him left.
that is all.


BLAHS!
i have no idea why i feel soo down.
good nights.

a nice Monday. :D
went shopping today with dear Ling Hui. :D
bought a top from Mango.. and bought Ling Hui her 21st bday pressie.
The next time I'm giving her present, will be when she get married. haha! =D
If i am rich enough and clever enough, i would get everyone a birthday pressie every year on their birthday.
BUT, thing is i am not rich enough and not clever enough.
So Birthday presents are only for those turning 21st. Adulthood. =D
and Marriage, BIG day! Once in a life time one. =D


die la...
everyone is making me worried lehs.
seriously, i have not thought about it at all.
Now i am turning 21 only lorhs.
Y u all like make it seems like i am turning 30 already. hais.
hahas.
scared me 嫁不出去. blahs.
i am only turning 21.
the more you guys are worried, the more worried i am too.
Even MY DAD, who used to say that I can only get attached when i go out to work,
NOW tells me that if i can find a right one, then just get attached.
OMG la.
HE the always so down-to-earth 1, even allowed me to get a bf now.
HOW????
whatever it is, wish me luck..
and Ling thanks for wanting to introduce la k?
Thank You.
BUT
For the moment, heart is for my dear crush. haha! :p


Good luck to me. :D

went to watch Body #19 with Heup, Gerald & Jie Sheng.
the show is.. I don't know.Very stupid I should say.
HAHA! because, i don't really get what the whole show is trying to drive at.
Yeah i know the man who murdered everyone has some kind of multiple personality disorder, BUT he is the only one with that illness what. WHY IS IT people around him fail to recognize him? Instead they all see him as THAT man he imagined himself to be?
Its a very gross movie,.
With BLOOD, KNIVES, and all those gross thgy everywhere.
I was closing my eyes almost throughout the whole show. =/
which explains why i don't really understand.
HAHA!
I guess If i am NOT rich enough, I wouldn't pay, to scare myself anymore.
I am those kind who will hallucinate the scenes, after watching horror movies.
plain stupidity. =p


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Dad's asking to go back for CNY, he said that money can be earned 1. No need to think about money.
If I am not going to get any companion for this CNY, then better go back. Haha.
should i use the money meant for air ticket to shop... OR... should i just go back?
Hmmmm........
see how. :)



YAY! tml is MONDAY. :D

I can go back for CNY.
I am happy! :)
But then again, i haven made the decision whether to go back or not.
Because, i just came back here two weeks ago.
So yeahs. kind of very waste money if i go back.
So i shall just see how. :)
when the day comes and i am not here.
It means i have gone back.
and again, for the 1st time S71 have a reunion dinner, i cant be there, if i am going back home.
i am so sorry.


I am starting to believe that i am still just a small little girl.
That kind of girl, who will still cry whenever she wants to, when she doesn't get what she wants.
when her wants are not fulfilled
when yeahs.. a lot..
I still cry a lot.
I am practically crying every single week.
for maybe no apparent reason.


I wanted to go back for cny simply because i miss home a lot and i want to go back.
I want to be like the other children.
Who has a home to go to for reunion dinner for cny.
I want to be like other children who receives red packets during cny.
I don't want to be that extra one out who has to welcome cny alone.
No i am not making myself so pathetic.
I actually don't mind spending it alone.
I actually don't mind, having to face my lappy on cny eve and maybe the next few days of cny.
I actually don't mind.
Do I mind?
Maybe deep inside I do.
(what am i saying?)


Sometimes i really do hope that my family is in M'sia, where i can take a bus and reach home in a few hours or maybe minutes. but i am staying in Indonesia, where I have to take the plane. And, it's kind of quite.. sian.. But, I do love my home. No matter what. Because no matter how far you go, how many place you've been to. Ultimately, in the end you would still be going home. and no other place. :)


people do take care of your health,
cuz the weather has been quite bad.
so yeahs. Do take care! =)

I bumped into him on the bus today!
such a coincidence!
I din expect it!
that makes my third time seeing him this week. :)
even though he didn't manage to c me, today.
because I'm like avoiding him. i got down d bus in a super fast pace, went up the escalator in a super fast pace. and. haha! i kept turning back, to c where he is. but i din c him. :(
oh wells, it's just a crush.
she asked me.
"which part of him attracts him to you, lily? he is not handsome, he is...not"
so what is it that attracts him to me?
I don't know.
I just somehow got attracted to him.
I don't know why.
I shall just treasure the days when i can see him, days left with only 2 more lessons? :(


dad has given me the green light.
haha!
Hopefully that means something good to me. :)


I am a little bit more attentive in stats class today.
which is something to be proud about, counting that, i usually only sat for half of the lesson and went home. :/
school is left with less than 20 lessons more.
ha.
i don't know to be happy or sad.
whatever it is.
hope all the bad luck will shoo away and.
all the goodies will come towards me. :)
Bless me. :)


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It's been very long since i talked to my long lost friend, yet not really friend also.
I saw him on the bus too last Friday, with dearest cousin.
but i din sms him, nor did i call him.
I'll just let it be.
Because maybe i have let go.
Humans should look forward instead of keep looking back to the past.
I had a very memorable past. which i really miss a lot now.
I know i can't turn back the time.
so i shall just continue to look forward to see what is actually in store for me.


I was talking to Shane just now, telling him that i might be going back to work.
And he just say, " you siao arh, work work work, 2 years later u will working for the rest of ur life ald, why not enjoy now? "
yeaps, true enough, i still don't know, haven't made decision, i have just msg-ed her my schedule. i have yet to say yes, what so ever.


I am not going back for Chinese New Year this year.
Which means, NO reunion dinner, no red packets, nothing.
yeahs. a different way of celebrating new year.
I don't feel like going to "cousin" house because i can't feel the warmth of the family.
So why bother?
This point i made, i guess no one understand.
Anyway, I do wonder how will Chinese New Year be like for me this year.
I guess i will remember this year's new year for life.
I will.


Let this year be an eventful year.
A year full of goody things.
I made a wish last year.
It has yet to come true.
I told 1 or 2 of my bf-s and gf-s what that wish is.
Will it come true?

because smoking causes cancer.
and cancer kills.
so please DON'T smoke and cause people around you to worry.
smoking should be banned!!!
arghs!


i hope he will be strong, look on the bright side and pull himself together, we will all pray for your health.
He is 64 years old, its the time for him to retire and enjoy himself.
Its not the time for him to lie down in bed.
Receiving injections.
Preparing for chemotherapy.
Throwing up everything that has been taken in.
Its NOT the time for him to do so.
Its tile for him to enjoy the fruit of his own labour.
Please Bless Him.
Please let him recover.
Please give him strength.
Give him more.
Please.
I don't want to lose anymore of my close ones.
It' NOT even 100 days that Akong left me.
Not another 1.
PLease recover, be strong.

because not everything can be bought by money

Miss Quek is right. I don't know what i really want.
Okies.
Shoo all those rubbish thoughts.
Put some effort to my studies. =)
I'm getting back on track already. =)
went to ask for the job as a part timer at BP flower shop.
Haha. Hopefully the pay is good.
Hopefully, i'll be able to earn a little bit more cash.
Bumped into Weeteng & xiu Ling just now. =)







Tuhan Kirimkanlah aku kekasih yang bae hati.. =)

i have been thinking far too much.
I have been think a lot.
And there is still no outcome.
I don't know what HE wants.
I don't know what is really planned for me.
i don't know what lies ahead of me.
i don't know what i am waiting for.


I regretted many of my doings.
I want you back.
its been how many years?
five years?
i don't even know if u remembered.
I only know i remembered.
i am that silly girl, who rejected you not once but many times.
i am that silly girl, who told you that you are very foolish and you will regret for sure.
and i am now that silly girl who regretted every word i said, and every action i did.


just like a tattoo,
i'll always have you

EFFECTS OF COLD WATER

Please be a true friend and send this article to all your friends you care about

For those who like to drink cold water, this article is applicable to you. It is nice to have a cup of cold drink after a meal. However, the cold water will solidify the oily stuff that you have just consumed. It will slow down the digestion. Once this "sludge" reacts with the acid, it will break down and be absorbed by the intestine faster than the solid food. It will line the intestine. Very soon, this will turn into fats and lead to cancer. It is best to drink hot soup or warm water after a meal.
A serious note about heart attacks - You should know that not every heart attack symptom is going to be the left arm hurting. Be aware of intense pain in the jaw line.
You may never have the first chest pain during the course of a heart attack. Nausea and intense sweating are also common symptoms. 60% of people who have a heart attack while they are asleep do not wake up. Pain in the jaw can wake you from a sound sleep. Let's be careful and be aware. The more we know the better chance we could survive.

Take care of your health yeahs? =)

I ran away from my place for about 3 days and 2 nights!!
cuz i don't want to be alone.
i want to find some companion.
so.. hehe! thanks loads my dear cousins! =)
without the two of them in Singapore.
I really will be very lonely! no one to really turn to, except for that few of my girlfriends.
hopefully they won't find me a nuisance. hehe! =p
still thank you to you all.
I haven't really told anyone.
I don't want to tell, maybe.
I just seek help from my handsome kor kor in US.
Made him make a call home.
hais.
I felt like going back home for CNY this year.
BUT i guess, i can't bahs. =(
I still miss home a lot.
I have been crying a lot.
and i have been eating a lot also. =X
FAT FAT FAT.
but who cares.
i will eventually lose weight after 1 to 2 weeks later.
sorry to my house mate if i have done anything wrong these few days?? yeaps. sorry.
i just miss home.
that is all.


I want my wish to come true.


last but not least.


HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY COUSIN LOWIE!!! =D

I somehow felt better today.
and my eyes as usual was swollen this morning.
don't like.
anyway, i experienced some good happenings in the morning.
diff to be put into words.
anyways. thank yous to you. =)


poa test is finally over.
tml gota pay another thousands for the examination fee...
from now till june.
i'll be mugging and mugging bahs... =(
i am working towards my goal.
i know i can do it.
i just need to find back that lily i used to be. =D
jia you bahs lily! =D
exams are coming pretty soon.
got to be prepared. =)
jia you!
jia you! =D


p/s: whoever that person is who tagged. if my blog is very not nice then u shouldn't have visited in d 1st place, dun have 2 leave some stupid comment. which i dun welcome. why even take the time to tag and stayed even longer than u want to? -_-'''

i miss home a lot. how?
i am back to that girl who will cry each time she needs to leave home.
and i hate it a lot.
it's been a long time since i last cried.
i thought i've grown up.
no longer mommy & daddy's little girl.
i don't want to cry.
yet the tears just keep flowing.
i didn't want to call home, cuz i know i will cry.
but i still call, because i miss my parents a lot.
there is no point in thinking so much huh?
its better for me to concentrate on my studies huh?
but i can't seem to do it. how?
exams for the sem are coming soon.
prelims in march and the real one around end of may to june.
i am not very prepared.


all i know is i miss my Papa & Mama lots.
i miss them.
i cannot be bothered with anyone else anymore.
don't have the heart and the energy to.
i miss home.

i miss home, papa & mama loads.
i hate being here.
who invented aeroplanes?
hmph!

i am very H A P P Y today.
hehes.
simply because its shopping day today!
I got tix to travel back home!
and I...
haha! secret****
it's just weird larhs. =p


anyway, i am going back home tomorrow.
i will revise.
so don't worry.
i really will revise.
i love my books so much that i am going to bring them all back with me. =D


got to say very very big thanks to Ling Hui..
my dear Mad and Heup and ** yeahs many many more..
these four names are the only name that pops out now. =p
thus their name appears here. =)
I don't know how many THANK YOUS i must say to thank the one above for letting me know u all. :)
days in Singapore without u people would be really un-bearable!


will i miss Singapore?
i definitely won't.
i will miss my friends though. :）


anyway!
Merry advances Christmas and Happy new year!!!
see you guys next year!
enjoy the hols! go party!!! =D

bOO!
went for this NUS thgy.. organised by DonOUts...
its a charity event for the children.. so that they will have a different xmas this year.
hopefully they really will. :)


I went out with how many strangers yesterday? =p
the only person i know well is heup. NO one else.
yeaps. met cj, wt, xy too. sec school friends.
but haven been really in contact with them since sec school.
so things are rather weird.
but i can feel that they are still the same as before..
hmm if not almost the same.
its just that. i felt quite distant to them. :/
its understood bahs.
we haven meet for years. oh wells, glad that they are doing very fine. =)


then went for supper at newton.
with Heup's army friends and his pri school frens.
they are a bunch of rather nice people. and definitely CLEVER bunch of people.
have u ever sat with a bunch of people whom all on average for straight A's and B's for their a'levels?
i had! yesterday.
thanks for the company.
so i went for supper with 8 strangers and 1 fren.
haha! it's an achievement.
maybe i should try more of this next time.
haha! it's quite fun actually.
and! haha!
i must say this. thank you heup! =D


there are things which i heard yst, yet i pretend i din hear.
simply because i too think that it is nonsense. =p
and. haha! it's very true that it's no longer la ok.
lily do grow up and become wiser.
there is no point in lingering to the past when you know that there will be no outcome.
it's time to love myself more and fight for my own happiness. :)