thanks thanks thanks to all the 71 peeps who came to sentOsa yeaterDAy okie??? Thanks!!! it's been super FUN!!! hehes... i brought so much presents home... oh my... But nvm.. it's memorable.. thanks thanks for letting me have so much fun before i go back ok?? outing with u guys never fail to be CRAZY!!! =)

the dog and bone game... really siao la... i lose out soo soo much... stupid KS!!!! haha... actualli oso not reali his fault.. lol... =X

captain's ball... is always fun!!!! but the guys... please la... nx time play.. put on ur shirt ok??? PLEASE... hahaha... cuz.. d sweats n stuffs... eeeee.... but hahha... nvm la... it's bound to happen in a game... im used to it.. =)

&... stop laughing at everything i do la... so BAD!!!!! especially that ying ying.... hmph!!! im nice... so nvm.. hope u guys have had lotsa fun k??? =)

tireeddd.... another sleepless night... if onli im in d chalet.. den can laugh.. talk... play with bash & mad... how i miss those days..=X

its so quiet outside.. every1 is asleep... i see a very bright star... =) it's a pity that there is only one... =X

yarhs... i uploaded those pics... some of the pics that captures those beautifulll moments... =)

i shall go try to sleep... =)
later shall go shop shop...

i hope Ade will not be stressed out. Jia You k girl... evrythg will end soon too.. =) She is really 1 superwoman.. Oh wells... Jia You!! i hope i can be of some help.. but.. haiz.. i noe nothing about her projects..... =X

i shall now blog abt d past few days & post photos which i coup from bash.. =X

..::20-11-2006---1st day of chalet::..
As usual, as i stays near Gerald, i'll be the 1 who accompanies him 2 get the stuffs. And as usual he will always be late!!! We went shopping like aunties at Sheng Shiong near Tekka Centre (1st time i ever heard of this place..=X) we were shopping for the cheapest, yet best stuffs we could get... Sounds so much like aunties bargaining for food. =X so many bottles of drinks... so many packets and cans of food... luckily our helpful classmates are willing to come over to carry the stuffs... if not... haha.. taxi driver uncle are going to earn quite a sum from us.. =X from little india to aloha loyang... hmm...

tis is our BEAUTIFUL chalet... =) nice from d outside nia... =p *no offence*

tis is wat's inside... =)

Mr Teo & Mr Sim came 4 d 1st night... haiyas... they din bring their kids along!!! so sad.. i was hoping their sons will come... but.. anyways.... hope they had fun playing mahjong.. and i hope they enjoyed d food... =) Thank yOu for cOming!!! =D

We sort of didnt sleep 4 the first night... staying up till ard 4 or 5 plus to play games... until we got really tired and dispersed into our roOms.. oh wells.. i din really sleep 4 d 1st night... well yeah.. not enough space... so i went to find bash & mad... and we were doing stupid stuffs in d room... HAHA!!! i was playing with Bash camera... & zOoming into pictures... playing guessing game.. haha... asking whose eyes is that.. whose mouth is that... haha!!! i still remember how i hard i laughed at 1 pic that bash took with her Malay friends on d last day of school.. =X WAHAHA!!! i was laughing so hard that the whole bed was shaking.. muahaha!! it's just funny la ok... dun blame me... =X

I learnt how to BBQ foOd On d 1st day!!! muahaha!! i noe hOw to bbq foOd now... (tis is an achievement ok???) =)

tis is how i tried to slp... but not successful...=b *LMAO*

..::21-11-2006---2nd day of chalet::..

Things din go as smoothly as d 1st day... every1 is engrossed in doing their own stuffs... playing mahjong... PS2 & stuffs... it took us some time b4 every1 is willing to get their butt off the chairs and play d watermelon & water game... HAHA!! i love the water game... so exciting... It's nice getting urself wet!!! jacuzzi is nice too!!! the captain's ball... (is that be our last captain's ball game as a class???) =(

As i've said things din go smoothly this day... there were communication breakdown... some people no longer talk to each other.. showing each other faces... luckily they din get into any fight.. so i guess things were still quite alright.. =)

we had our own "clique" game on d 2nd night.. hee.. kinda fun.. but my head was super dizzy as we drank.. not every1.. only some of d naughty gals... so i played 1 round onli.. hee... d alcohol content very very very small nia... beliv it or not.. that was my 1st attempt drinking... =b feeling was... kinda OK.. & yea... i slept from 0330 onwards... i succeeded ok... with the nice melodious background music produced by human... =X

wat i learnt: sleep way before that human sleep to avoid experiencing a sleepness night.. =p

..::22-11-2006---last day of chalet::..

we packed up & waited 4 d man to come check the place.. seriously & honestly speaking.. his attitude SUCKS.. he just cant wait for us to leave d place.. dun like him!!!

anw after that... most of the guys went to eat at pasir ris food court, some of us went to eat fish & co at dhobby ghaut... Oh my!!! finally we had proper food and drink... the food was superb... super delicious!!! yummy yummy!!!

and then... its.... home SOUR home... =X

I miss the time we spent together.. during the chalet.. outings.. school.. pe lessons.. & everything.. S71 peeps have made my days in Innova worthwhile.. YOU guys are the ones who made my days in Innova... i'll be missing u all!! oh my!! it's really fast!!! please remember our date 10 years later ok??? must come must come... =D & also our sentosa outing... MUST come also..

next week will be filled with outing with the class... (dress shopping... foodies... sentosa... vivocity..) & my other darlings..(foOdies & chattieS) =)

& of course next week will be my last week here... i'll make my last week memorable.. =)

..::24-11-2006---last min outing with dear Ade::..

hee... im so glad she called me.. we went bugis & vivo.. to shop.. we finished walking the whole place in a few hrs.. 5hrs?? haha.. we are pro.. talked a lot.. ate nice food... hee!! thanks 4 d treat girl.. she tricked me tho.. bluff me... anyways.. still thank you!!! thanks 4 introducing me to nice nice foods... =) when u come to Jakarta will treat u nice nice food too.. i'll make sure i make u fat fat... =D i still owe her & zk sth... haha... i din 4get.. i just duno wat to get.. =X

..::25-11-2006::..

Min went Tasmania... hope she'll enjoy herself... & hOpe i'll see her before i fly back HOME...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GObM02S_d-k


---shOw---

--i m|sS thEm--

i miss S71!!!
i miss laughing thrOugh d Night!!!
oH gOsh!!!
I miSs the cOmpanY!!!


i'll blog about Chalet when i feel like it k?
hee... right now.. im just reali missing those days!!!
i super duper love S71!!! it's d onli class that seems like a class... =D


i stilll rmb i haven meet up with lotsa friends...
bestie, ade, zk, yik ping, elson++, e1 gals, e3 gals...
oh my!!!
n im left with duno how many days... and i've reserved most of the days for my beloved S71.. =X
i'll make sure at least i meet the 1st 5 people above b4 i fly back home k???


I miss d cOmpanY & i'm sO gOing 2 miSs all Of u... =D


Let's JusT fOrgivE & fOrget oK???
dun pUt it in Ur hEArt, iT's Over liaos...
just rmb d sweet n happy times we have... & 4get the unhappy 1s... =D

it's been almost 2 days since i finished my last paper.
the feeling is super great.
the feeling of not having to study.
not having to touch those dumb books.
i dont even know why am i studying all that for.
i am never going to take anything related to physics. so why am i studying for it?!?!
honestly, i used to love studying.
That was when i am in Indonesia. I know what i am studying and yea. Studying can really be fun.
but studying over here is not fun at all, because everyone is studying only for the sake of getting A's. Over here. everyone is talking about how many A's each should have and must have. This really makes me sick. makes me feel so stressed. crap. But oh well. I hope it will just come to an end.
I hope i can study something that i love, something i take an interest in in Uni. I hope i will get into a Uni. Here... anywhere... =D

The past few days after exam had been really FUN!
The feeling is super great. REALLY! I love the fun.
I finally get to explore Vivocity. How it looks like and stuffs. but seriously, it's kind of disappointing larhs. =X The place is large, beautifully designed, nice. largest shopping centre in Singapore ryt? is it? but i'd rather go Marina Square or Orchard. seriously. =X
Overall.. still oK.. =D since i went there after my last paper. haha. so yea. the feeling is kinda great.
[ Wana thank Mad & Mel for accompanying me to get my air tix back to HOME. Thanks girls. ]


Yesterday --- Thursday -- went for Hari Raya outing.
.FUN. MEMORABLE. CRAZY.
we went to 5 houses yst. Izwan's, BAshirah's, Hafiz's, Zul's & Zaheerah's.
Super fun k?!?! except for that CAT!!! *SCARY* (im sorry but, that catty is really scary.)
we meet up at 1030 and separated at around 2230 too!!! LOL.
yst. more than 12 hours outside.
next year we go Hari Raya outing again ok? =D


HAHA.
when i got back home. everyone is asleep. SUPER GOOD. NO noise pollution.
i'm going to stay out for the next two weeks too. stay as far away from here as possible. i really wana go shopping. but the stuffs here are super EX!!!! nvm.. i shall go shopping in Jakarta since i'll be using Mama's $$ instead of my own. =X HAHA! =D


today. i shall go out too. haha. most probably. haha! I'm physically tired. BUT i really wana enjoy the last 2 weeks here with my beloved friends. I wont get to see them for the next few months. i'll be absent for most of the outings. still i hope they will have as many outings as possible k?


05S71 is a class that i will NEVER forget for i've made many great girlfriends & boyfriends here. Really. Thank You so much for the memories. Let's continue to collect as many memories as possible as the years come by k? Remember our date 10 years later. =b


Ade: i'll soon go over to stay k? After u hand in ur project. Which is next next week. That week that i fly back. i no nid stay for Xmas la.. too long le. hee... now also got xmas tress le... we can go take photos also... =D
Bash & Izwan: I want the pics pics... =D


i want buy a digi cam. BUT Mama dun allow. =(

hee.
i had a very NICE BEAUTIFUL dream yst.
LOL.
*happy* never had a dream like this b4.
was so happy that the moment i woke up, i penned it down in my diary. =)


yay! 4 more days! 1 more subject. 3 more papers to take. =D


i'm still thinking if i shud stay here for Xmas. =X
cuz it's been sth i feel like doing since long2 time ago.
but then. there's nth i can do here.
duno la.
mayb i'll just get out of here as planned. =D


Ade. dun scold me. i 4got that actuali my ticket back is on the 25th not 26th. =X
but then. after a's i'll call to chaneg the date la. =X mayb might extend my stay here too.
duno la. see how.


i miss talking to Bestie so much.
i duno wat i'll chat with her abt.
im so looking fwd to 24th nov.


back to boOks.
.P H Y S I C S.


1 more thg: can i have SpeShow album?!?!?! It's Show's NEW album!!!

maths turned out to be quite OK.
hope can at least get a B.
i hope those TOP sch students dont do that well.
so they wont pull up the grades & make it even harder for me to achieve an A.
i noe it's bad to think tis way.
BUT hey. spare a thought for the others. for people like me. =D



anw.
I am Happy! i Called my MOMMY todae. Love u mom!
i really miss home.
BUT... in ard 3 WEEKS time.. i'll be gone... =D


Poor him. HA! i pity u la k. BUT sometimes certain thgs. hmm. dont think too much is the best. dun get jealous unnecessarily. I totally understand how u feel. =) *cheer up* =D


3 more days of exam. in ard 1 week everythg will end! just mug mug mug k??!?!?
JIA YOU LILY!


i was thinking just now... Is it possible for the 4E3 ppl to gather again... =D
another outing? which i, cfm, chop, plus guarantee!! will go this time round???
*Ade is so gg to scold me*


i hope i wont fall sick! oh man! i cant afford to fall sick..!!! =(
Flu... Shoo shOo shOo...

Buat Aku Tersenyum
by Sheila On 7


Datanglah sayang dan biarkan ku berbaring
Di pelukanmu walaupun tuk sejenak
Usaplah dahiku dan kan kukatakan semua


Bila kulelah tetaplah disini
Jangan tinggalkan aku sendiri
Bila kumarah biarkanku bersandar
Jangan kau pergi untuk menghindar


Rasakan resahku dan buat aku tersenyum
Dengan canda tawamu walaupun tuk sekejap
Karna hanya engkaulah yang sanggup meredakan aku


Karna engkaulah satu-satunya untukku
Dan pastikan kita selalu bersama
Karna dirimulah yang sanggup mengerti aku
Dalam susah ataupun senang


Dapatkah engkau s'lalu menjagaku
Dan mampukah engkau mempertahankanku


Bila kulelah tetaplah disini
Jangan tinggalkan aku sendiri
Bila kumarah biarkanku bersandar
Jangan kau pergi untuk menghindar

cannot cannot i cant take it anymore.
this really shucks.


i wish i can just get a ticket n leave here tml.


crap crap crap.


a level is crap.
exam is crap.
everythg that bothers me is crap.


thanks 4 d wishes ppl.
thanks.


=( =( =(

02112006 ---->>> GP
It marks d start of the 2006 GCE A'level Examinations. :D
Phy paper 3 <---- 15112006
It marks the END of my GCE A'vl Examination. =DDDDD


I am NOT that scared anymore.
CALMED myself down yesterday.
I'll just do it and MOVE ON.


I wana really thank that girl who talked to me yesterday over the phone.
LOL.
It's been days since i laughed and talked to anyone THAT much.
Thank You.


yay! Jia You LILY!!! =D

memorising is still not my cup of tea.


im tired of memorising.


yay! A'lvl starts in ONE day time.


GREAT! =D

大部分的事情并不像表面看起来那么单纯，
而人活着， 也不一定总是能够自由自在地选择自己喜爱的。。。


我就是哪个为别人而活着的人， 真的很辛苦。
我已经有好几次想就这样离开。



.SUPER SUPER DUPER WORRIED.



Ade: hey girl! hope u doing fine yea. read ur blog. duno if u r okay not. from wat i c is, u r not fine. pls take care of urself yea? will get back 2u asap! hang on there! u can do it.

i just emailed my 2 brothers some important stuffs. important for my future. for theirs and our family's too! If it can work, gosh! I duno what will become of me in future!!! =D


left hw many days now? i am still super stress. super worried. i duno if i could do it. but! heck! im gona do it n i have to do it.


i dreamt abt doing GP paper yst. from d dream. from my expression, i can sense the "what the hell does the examinor wants from us?" gosh! i dun wan this dream to come true. some ppl say if u share ur dream with ppl den it will never come true. n since i've shared it. i think it will never come true. =D


what will my future be like? i hate guessing. the feeling is getting stronger as d days passes by. i am more and more certain that im going to go back.


.super worried abt this stupid exam.

lol. i cant beliv it. to keep herself up-to-date with d world n surrounding news. Miss Lily has been surfing channelnewsasia, bbc, zaobao... for a few months now. =p


Im so glad zaobao changed their page layout. so much clearer. so much easier to read. or is it bcuz i use firefox?


ha! watever. chinese wordings still dont seem to interest me. prefer english still. for my future. bleh! i shud just bear with it. 1 more week. =D


make the imposibble - possible! =D
nothing is imposibble anw...!! =D

Went to have lunch at PIZZA HUT todae. I realised its cheaper to have lunch there than having it at swens. So there were me, bash, mad mel & saun. Had some fun talking, crapping n stuffs. The next time we meet up will be on the day when we take our FIRST a'level paper. 3 weeks will soon pass & it'll be over & i'll move on.


It's really FAST. 2 years have passed. I'm going to miss some of them so much. Most of those from S71. The best gift God gave me in Innova is letting me made friends with such wonderful poeple. =)


These few days Mama & Papa have been sms-ing me. Thank You Mom & Dad! I'll be fine. No worries. I can take care of myself. I love YOU!


I went to temple to pray today.
I hope everything will move on smoothly.


1 mth later where will i be?!?!? *happy* =D

Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri! Mohon Maaf Lahir & Batin.
To all my Muslim mates!!! =)
enjoy d day k?!?!?!


I wana eat!!! Lontong!!! Rendang!!! Sambel Kentang!!! & many many more!!! argh! cant wait to get back to Indo!!! nvm.. few more weeks...


9 more days to A'lvl. 1 week +++ . like what i've said. im excited-worried. argh! i hate this feeling. Mama tell me to do my best. Pahit sekarang Manis di belakang. yep yep.
sebenernya gue rada happy. soalnya, bokap bilang sekarang keadaan, udah membaik. semoga kita bisa balik kaya dulu lagi. gue seneng. at least gue ga perlu stress ttg uang lagi.
tapi sekarang yang paling gua butuhin adalah, konsentrasi belajar. beneran memerlukan ini. Tuhan tolong bantuin aku yah. Aku minta maaf atas semua dosa dosa ku. tolong berikan aku petunjuk untuk menjalankan hidup ini.


seriously what i need now is. good health-enuf sleep-concentration.
Then on the day, walk into d exam hall, sit for it and at the end of the whole thing, smile and say "it is over, move on." =)


oh ya! i made myself a promise a few days ago. This time round when i go back HOME. I promise not to irritate my parents. Not to throw tantrum. NOt to make them angry. NOt to be a wilful girl. I WILL try my very best to be NICE. =) Sometimes when i think abt it, i am not that very goody goody girl at all. I still make my parents angry, cuz i just cant get used to my parents asking me this n that. asking me abt every nitty gritty detail. cuz i dun stay at home most of the time and no one cares where i go when i am in singapore. so when i go back n papa, mama, started asking this n that. i kind of get irritated. Oh well, this time round, i will be good try to understand myself and the situation i am in. =) i shall grow up.

Putting my studies aside, i went to meet up with my relatives just now.


Oh my, i realised i've got so many relatives. So many cousins. I went to meet some of my relatives who came from Indonesia. And i just reached home. *tired* but, i am happy. Even though i am not very close to my cousins (those from dad's side), but i still love their company. We seldom meet, cuz they stay in Medan with my Grandma, while me n my family stays in Jakarta with most of Mom's family. So i wasnt very close to those cousins of mine from dad's side. I cried when i left them just now. It's like very sad, my cousin said, "the next time i see u will be d time when i come to Singapore again." Then my aunt, holds me and asks me to take care, do my best in my studies. It's really sad. Then my 7th uncle, he is d super quiet type, seldom interact with people and i was the one who started conversing with him just now!!! Somehow, even though i don't see them frequently, i feel that i am very close to dad's brothers and sisters, i don't know why, mayb it's because i rmb they used to dote on me when i was still a small girl girl. carrying me around and play with me. =) not that they no longer dote on me now, it's just that the way they show their love towards me is different. ah! i love them to bits! =D


Anyway, while we were chatting just now, my cousin showed me her brother's picture, then i told her, ''if i were to bump into him one day, i don't think we even know that we are cousins." Lols. We seldom meet each other and even if we meet up, we arent very close to each other cause we seldom talk, this is why i treasure everyone of my family a lot, treasure the time i spend with them. They are all so envious of me, cuz i get to study here. Fact is, i hate being here. =X


Anyway, they are leaving for Hong Kong den to China tomorrow. Hope they will have loads of fun! i will miss them! and..suddenly i find myself getting older. My cousin is getting married next week. So sad! i cant attend her wedding!!! *sobs* next week, on her wedding, everyone from my BIG family will be there!!!! I missed out so much! Next yr and the year after next, my another 2 cousin getting married too! Whoa! one by one getting married!!! Soon, it'll be my turn.. HAHA!! =D


kk... enough of happiness. I should get back to serious business. I am still very very happy! I hope they will enjoy themselves tomorrow. Have fun shopping! while i have fun mugging! =)
Love YOU!!! :D


Good Night! I can't wait to party! =D


-Excited yet worried-

I can no longer stand all this. As much as i really wanted to assure them that i will do my best and as much as i want to assure myself that i can do it. I just can't seem to convince myself, so how could i convince them? I've been thinking a lot. I don't know why, I don't want all this to happen either. I was hoping everything could go on as smoothly as planned. I no longer tell people about it. Because i think it was useless, i can only pour out everything, at the same time wasting their time. I don't wana waste their time. And that is most important reason. What i get in the end is still the same sentences, the same words. Maybe some people can find comfort in all those, but i cant. It's not good for me to keep things to myself, i know. Especially at this time when i am supposed to devote 100% of my time to revision and preparing myself for next few weeks. I really want to concentrate, but time and again. People been whispering to my ears about all these. Everything keep ringing in my ear. I cant stand it. I am scared, worried, frustrated, depressed, stressed, i am not ok.


Tuhan, aku udah pasrah akan semua ini. Aku mau berdiri tegar menghadapi semuanya. Aku mau dan aku mohon agar Tuhan akan memberi aku kekuatan untuk menyelesaikan ini. Aku tau setiap apa pun yang terjadi pasti ada hikmahnya, aku tau. Tapi aku beneran takut bakal mengecewain orang tua aku. Kalo misalnya gagal, aku beneran ga tau mau gimana. Tuhan tolong beri aku petunjuk.

i read some magazine just now.. and.. yup... there are certain stuffs written there that i strongly believe!!!... =)
shall share...


"i've always liked the hard way, because you learn so much more from it even if you don't succeed."


"life is always peaks and valleys, there's gona be good times and bad times and when all the other things are there, the biggest thing for me is having someone that makes you laugh and that you have a friendship and a TRUSTwith."


"when you are younger, you have priorities in a different place, but as you get older, i think that friendship becomes most important to you."