im back from my dearest HOME...
back to THIS place AGAIN... =(
--SADDEDD--
& i CANT slp...

to bestie, ade & mad: i'm sorrry i dun sound a single bit enthu when i was talking to you girls... sorry girls... cuz i just reached... i think u girls will understand... =)

thanks to my family, my uncles & aunt for making my trip back so fruitful, so fun, so memorable! d stars there are NICE!! d weather there is cooling!!! i miss sleeping along d way back in between my 2 cousins... love you guys!!! thanks for the laughters!! =) i'll be back to indo in ard how many days??? 150 i guess... yups.. im missing JAKARTA so much already... :'(

-family love is what it is all about-

b4 i forget, bestie good luck 4 d upcoming audition ok!! for all of u!! u guys can do it!!! =)

Ade girl just called me... haha!! i will study for GP ok!!! hehes....
thanks for the nice chat girlie!!!
and haha.. ALL THE VERY BEST FOR UR UPCOMING term exam.. i duno wat u call it la... haha! =p
& dun work so hard la... hahas... work till soo lethargic... i also din ask u work 4 me... haha!!!=p
ok enuf crapping!!! enjoy the hols... n the exams.. =p

see you!!

yay!! tml is a Friday!! LAST day of sch... last day of the term..!!! NICE!!! im loving it!! i'll do my very best in Gp k? i just hope i will do better than a pass... yepx...

since i might not be able to blog for the next few weeks... so i shall wish everyone a happy holidays!!! have fun guys!! & do rmb 2 do revision ok?? in abt 180 days to FREEDOM!!! woohooo!!!

bestie: im sure gona miss u!!! dont wori & dun get sad... cuz i'll be back real soon... yepx.. and d next time i go back... u'll be coming with me alrites?? =) love ya girl!!! =D in d mean time... muzz take extra care & God Bless u!!!

cousin lowie: i duno if u'll read this, but anyways.. thx loads for taking care of me during this period of time!! =) May all be well for u!!! =)

my other friends: yeaps... d break is here... do make full use of it.. hehes... & take extra care too!!! =p

-peace out- God Bless you all!! =)

meeting with bestie!!!!! NICE NICE NICE!!! we always get crazy.. crap ard.. joke ard... everything!!! she's always d best!!! nice outing!!!! NICE!!! i mean it!!! wells... gona miss her when im back in indo too!!! bleaghs... how i wish she's coming with me!!! nvms.. a'lvl coming soon.. we'll get our freedom in ard 180days!!! we'll get crazy again.. have fun without any restrictions!!! wahaha!!! bestie you are great k!!! have more confidence!!! =D

get to noe her bandmates too!!! nice!! good... i admire them can!! =p GOOD!! GREAT!! keep on rocking guys!! =) jia yous!!! you guys can do it!!! =p

n soo... i just reached home a while ago...=p

yay!! friday is coming.. i hope i dont screw GP!!! bless me to pass d pp... =p

BASHIRAH!!! ur cookie is SOOO NICE!! oh man.. NICE!! thnkx!! =)

hehes... evrythg look kinda ok todae... hehes... "kind of" haha... hope will always be fine n turn out 4 d better... hehes... hope hope hope that ALL our sad & memories will all be erased overnight!!! =)... God Bless us... =)
forgive & forget... i beliv in giving 2nd chances... =p but dont abuse it... =)
sometimes to keep urself happy.... u hav to close one of ur eyes... please try!! haha... =p

i hate it when teachers nag!!! cuz its like they are singing lullaby... =X
erms... lullaby is nicer...=p
but anyways, ppl's nagging can reallly make me sleep!!!! =X & it spoils my mood too!!!

oh haha!! yay!!!! friday is coming soon...my food hunt in jakarta starts on friday!!! i'll grow FATTER!! =X nvm.. i'll slim down... i'll control myself..=p

ZUL!!! im not agnes, im not krisdayanti, im not monkey!!! u stupid orang utan!! calling me monkey!! *no offence Faiz*

kkx..im outa here...
FRIDAY is coming!!! YAY! basketball today is GREAT!!! thx 4 d great game gals!!!! =p FUN!!!

keep smiling...stay cheerful!! God bless u all!!! =)

yay!! hahas...i'm finally gg back!!! to reunite with my dear family..=)
GOOD family... GOOD companion... GOOD food... everything is nice! =)
hahas!.. im really happy...=))) my mom is gg to supervise my revision... =)

to my friend ****... im sorry im keeping my mouth shut regarding THAT matter... cuz it's NOT me to let out anything that my friend told me.. especially this is a sensitive matter.. im sorry... oh wells... i hope evrything will turn out fine... =)

forgive and forget..=)
forgive d unforgiven..=)
let go of what we should let go..=)
live well & live without troubles...=)

so many smiley faces today!!! i hope all of you will continue to smile & be happy k?? life is short...=p
esp bestie... i hope that altho i could not be of any help to u... i sincerely hope that whatever problems u r facing now.. it'll be solved soon..
God will bless you.. Grant you grace & i hope that you'll keep holding on to the Faith...im here if u nid me bestie.. =) *love you dear girl*

it's a GOOD day without books!! =)
it's a GODD day when i can shout & scream out!! =)
it's a GOOD day when i can go sing... =)

had my LAST sports day today (i suppose) in Innova...
Taurus is d CHAMP 4 cheerleading...*clap clap*
but.. this yr sports day...(cannot make it la) *no offence*
it's not s sucessful as last yr's, but Taurus's new capt is GOOD... hahas...
she's funny & all.. hahas... continue to rock on.. all d best!! =)
Miss Lee is funny too!! =)

went eat pizza with some of the S71's after sports day...
eat till very nice. VERY FULL!!! =) pizza is nice...

afetr lunch.. went Kbox... hmm... Honestly.. i was enjoying myself shouting & singing most of d time... but then... hmm.. nvms..

sorry 4 forcing mad to go.. its such a waste of her money.. she din sing tt much..
mel oso din reali sing.. hmm... duno y also la..
most of the time onli me n ying r singing.. hmm... this outing not as sucessful as i hope it wud be.. but nvms.. guess it'll be d last..=X *no offence*

im broke now...
NO more entertainment until mid-june i guess... =X
or rather until prelim 1 is over.. yeaps...

-peace out-

"tian wai fei xian" is NICE... it's funny, sad & lots more... =p

sch work is geting heavier n heavier...
getting stressful n stressful...

thks 2 Bash 4 willing to help me in maths... thx girl.. haha..

im getting over-sensitive as d days pass by... & i duno y...
i hope all my feelings are wrong.. wrong...

im still holding on to the faith that everything will be fine...
EVERYTHING will be alright..
everything will go back to normal again..
im sure everything will be WILL be alright... yea...

God will bless everyone.. =)

yea! im back from my nice & beautiful place tt i shud call HOME in s'pore.. =)
nice change, nice environment.. Gosh! i realise that i DO miss tt place...or rather.. I miss my ROOM... its sooo comfy can? Tv, com, fan, air con, bed & all la... haha.. nice food...& all... but 1 thg i dont miss is d noise from my nephew n niece... oh wells, i'd put up with all that noises if not for a'lvl & money... =X hahas.. Thinking about the money i saved from staying out.. all the work, i've done is WORTH it.. =b

i seriously miss talking with bestie! serious... even tho' i just met her on friday.. duno y.. sth seems 2 be out... oh wells, i promised her tt i wud stay over one of these days, to have a day or 2 OFF from studies & mayb study at her place... yeap yeap...sleep over is ON...

nid go ade hse one of these days too, to drink red wine.. is it red??? den take photos of our RED faces... haha.. n return her, her stuffs & fetch chang jin to my hse... *wakaka*

ok im out to continue my undone hwks... btw, i finished most of them alrdy...
*sense of achievement* =b

Bestie, jia you k!! we'll go thru this together, like how we did during o's!!! =D
Ade, jia you too!! dun stress out & dun tire urself out!! =)

chocolates helps in destressing... =p *it's fattening* but i dont care!! =X
bestie came over yst... talk talked... laugh laugh... fun!!! i'll look fwd 2 d nx meeting.. =p in d mean time take care bestie!! =)

yay!!! days without school is coming real real soon!!! i think im gg to get crazy after tt.. =X haha!!! quick come quick come!! i cant wait!!! =X

*stressed*

it's Mommy's bday yst!!! hehes... i love you mom!!! she called me instead of me calling her.. =X happy happy!! hahas... its been so so long since i heard mama's voice la...=p den...she tot my bdae is on d same date as hers.. oh wells.. since she's sooo busy.. i forgive her.. anyways, its not in our family's tradition to celebrate bdays.. soo normally i get ang paos from them... haha... gud enuf!!! =) anyways... i wish my mama happiness & good health always!!! =DDDD it's bash's mom's bdae too yst!!! coincidence!!! =D happy bdae to her mom too!! =)

Mr teo wants me to make a revision planner... [onli selected & special students nid 2 do it..=x] hahas.. anyways, i wanted to do so by this week even if he dont ask me to do so... =X
[told u all i become more sensible since the day i turned 19..=p]

Ade: Dewi, my ex-room mate keep asking why sudd me & u & zk become soo close...to the extent that u guys celebrate my bdae with me with a special dinner..hahas!! please answer this qns!!! =X

went eat lunch with mad & ying2!! had a great time laughing, crapping.. haha.. im such an entertainer... next time must pay me when i make u all laugh!! hahas... but bullying me is not under the category of entertaining you.. hahas... =X [TOUTY pls take note..!!!] haha..

i think i've become richer.. haha.. keep going out to eat!!! next week.. must must must save liaos... u all must help me!!! dun allow me to step into restaurants n eat!! *haha*

it's soo nice being a happy person.. hehes... so EVERYONE, as long as u r my friends u must be happy ok?? =p
how i hope i am half as intelligent as ying ying... hais... oh wells.. dreams do come true ryt?? =b
i think im such a nice person!!! =) [dont u all agree??] =p

i haven been able to contact minz since yst.. hmm.. hope she's fine..

*watermelon is soo nice!!!*
*be happy!!! lalalalalala~*

eeeeeEEkkss!! d fried noodle tt i fried is NOT nice..=( *i ate it anw*

haha! i now find it kinda dumb 2 ask ppl 2 tag if they pass by here...!! THANK YOU FAIZ 4 willing to tag!! =)

oh wells, the little favour that i ask from u guys still continues k???
PLEASE TAG WHENEVER YOU PASS BY HERE... JUST A SIMPLE HI WILL DO!!
HAHA!! THANK YOUS!!! =)

oh great!! hahas!! we were dismissed TWO HOURS earlier today!! i hope every monday is like this!!! like how great, how shiok, how nice to be dismissed soo soo much earlier!!! =)

no special events today.. except that i was a bit moody in d morning.. haha.. but i din offend anyone..

i still dun understand why the teachers have to compliment us or scold us for arriving in d assembly area earli or late... like.. HELLO?!?! we are in JC not primary sch... *no offence* its just FUNNY when u r treated like PRIMARY school kiddos...u dun have to repeat the same thing again and again evry single day... from what i rmb, i dun think my pri sch does what you guys are doing now.. HAHA!! luckily, our neighbour is not any primary sch..=X

shucks!!! d MP3 workshop in this com is not working anymore!! i cant cut songs liaos!!*sadded*=(

i dun see a reason why i am gg to sch... *ahem* honestly...without offending ANYONE...after schooling in different schools for so so many years... like thruout my duno how many yrs of education... i think d sch im in now... is reali... *haha*.. like im gg 2 sch for attendance sake, with every school morning waking up asking myself,"should i go sch today??".. i dont realli learn anything in school... in other words gg 2 sch is just a waste of time... is it my sch or is it JC life is like that??? *i duno*

i borrowed a book todae... i think it shud be nice.. =) "THE ROAD LESS TRAVELLED by M.SCOTT PECK"

ok here are d replies for my dear taggies...=)
auds: my outings are always with ade & zk onli..=p hahas.. oh wells.. we can have a gathering soon.. after A's u can ask me out everyday!! =p
ade: okok will tell u when i want it.. hahas!! it shud be soon... haha.. this week maybe!! =)
izwan: thank yous!!! hope this yr will be fine & enjoyable for u!!! =)
bb: hey stupid girl!! haha... i tot i wrote that i become more hardworking since i turned 19?? hahas... i become more sensible that is...=p
zhong kai: hahas... u shud thank me for mentioning ur name so many times...=X oh wells.. i will try not to mention it too much...=X

p/s: Dear peeps who pass by my blog to read or watever..(like u can onli read, wat else can u do??) please tag me okies... hahas... i wana know who actuali pass by here...=b

----do i sound like an attitude problem girl here?? OoOpPsSss! paiseh!----

since i turned 19, i've become more sensible, more hardworking & more others... =)
[this is a good sign ok?]
the feeling just isnt there, im so sorry!
thank you cousin for listening to my craps and helping me analyse d stupid situation im in..
but well, i noe what i am doing. That's what is impt! =)
A's is just a few months away! & im sooo happy... i hope it will come faster.. then i can be out of this place faster! call me selfish or watever, but yea.. i cant wait to get out of here.. =X
I'm looking forward to all the great happenings after A's tho... =)
I must thank Zhong Kai for all the great shows he placed in my cousin's external hard disk...=) cousin is enjoying all the shows, next i must go get Jewel in the palace from Ade for cousin liaos..=)
I feel bad for not knowing that bestie is down, but what's impt is, i hope she's fine now..
It's a FOUR day week again next week!! hahas! GREAT!! =)
ok.. back to hwks now... =(

BIG BIG THANKS TO ADE & ZHONG KAI FOR THE WONDERFUL DINNER TREAT!!! MEMORABLE!!
The tiramisu is SUPERB!! NICE!!! =) *its a pity that we din take pics of teh food and of ourselves!! haha!* oh anyway i really enjoyed myself!!! =D
Thank you soo much for willing to come out even after having a long day in sch!!! thank you guys!!! =) im reali touched!!! its really memorable!!! =)
y did the time passes soo fast.. hmm... how i wish everyday is like today!!! happy happy happy... haha... oh well...just be happy!!!
Thanks to all for the gREAT day today!!! really THANK YOU!!! =D
love you guys for remembering!! that is impt!!! =D

oh yas... i wear the necklace to my bday dinner liaos!! =D thanks lester & wing!! its nice!! =)
and btw, i managed to save the LILY flower.. its still surviving...just like the owner LILY!! =) hahas!!! =D

Presents i received today!! thanks loads guys!!! =D

Thank You Mr & Mrs Husen ( my uncle & auntie) 4 d red packet!! =D

Thank You Cousin Lowie for the surprise mini bday cake & the funny bday song!!! =D




Thanks Ade & zhong kai 4 d Esprit jacket!! =)

Thank You 2t, Bashirah, Mirna, Mad, Mel, Ying2, Zaheerah, Gerald, Idhzuan, Izwan & Saunders, for the body shop stuffs & the LILY flower!! =D

Thank You Faiz for the Famous Amos smiley cookie!! it's CUTE!! =)

Thank you Zul for passing it 2 me! =b

Thank You Lester for the nice necklace & bday card!!

Thank you Wing Sze 4 choosing it & passing it to me!! =)

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Thank you loads to those people for remembering my bday, for all the wishes & d messages & the presents too!! =)

2nd may!! =)
today's d last day that i will be 18... hehe.. old liao.. so many ppl say me..
but i dun mind.. hahas... cuz i want to faster grow up!!! =D

sth sth sth...
i think im not at all that excite abt my bdae?!?!?!? weird eh?? hahas!!
hope tml will be MY DAY!!!!
hope tml will be FUN!!!!
hope from tml onwards i will be happy!!!!
hope from tml onwards all d people ard me will be happy too!!! =D
hope from tml onwards no one will bully me anymore...!!! =)

ok enough abt this... im not tt excited anw... contradicting sia...
oh wells.. hope tml will be diff..=)

ade: im kind of excited!! haha! can meet up again!! haha! somemore zk treating!! but he BETTER dont suan me!!! hahas!! he reali better not spoil my day!! =b

liyana: haha!! im just happy!! =)

Z1: i think i got the song.. but i duno where is d file... =X

1st of May!!!

im sooo happy...!!! i had a very memorable 1st of May!!! =)
FUN!!! its a pity that many of them went back..
ppl must be thinking that we are supposed 2 study instead of gg out for outings..
but sometimes we need a break from all those books right? =p

hahas!! thanks S71!!! you guys are great!! i hope the class bonded back again!! tho the programme wasnt reallly fantastic... entertaining... but they are indeed memorable!
haha... i cant beliv i din sleep the whole night until 7.30am...=p

anw, all i want to say is, you guys are great! thanks for the successful outing yst!!! im glad that those ppl who are not present for past outings came yst!! thanks for making my 1st of May memorable!!! =) hope those ppl present enjoyed themselves like i do! =)

I'm excited about the many more events coming out this May!!! =)))) *smiles*

can i have all that too?? i want...
how i hope i can just shop shop shop without any limit...
buy as many shoes n clothes as i want..
[ade! if i've got all d money... then i can go shop shop shop with u liaos!]
is it true that this world is just made up of money??? =X
bleaghx..

my May resolution's still not out yet!!
i have soo many things/events/stuffs to look forward to in May!!! hahas!!! *smiles* =)
1. Labour day!!!
2. My bday dinner with ade & zk!!! =) =)
3. My bday dinner with cousin!!! =) =)
4. Outing with Minz bestie! =) =)
5. Mommy's bdae!!! =) =) =)
6. Election day!!! (cuz it'll b a hols..=X)
7. Vesak day!!
8. Gp summer test!! [cuz it'll b d last day of sch!! & NOT bcuz its GP test! =X]
9. Make a trip back to Jakarta to reunite with daddy & mommy???

its always in every May that im so happy for the year!!! hahas...
of course not forgetting d holidays i have in june n dec..=DDD

smiles!!! it's soo nice to be happy!!!! =D
forget all your troubles and be happy NOW NOW NOW ok???
happiness is contagious...
hope all of u reading this are as happy as i am now...!!! =)))
-peace out- enjoy d long weekend! =D

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