can i have all that too?? i want...
how i hope i can just shop shop shop without any limit...
buy as many shoes n clothes as i want..
[ade! if i've got all d money... then i can go shop shop shop with u liaos!]
is it true that this world is just made up of money??? =X
bleaghx..

my May resolution's still not out yet!!
i have soo many things/events/stuffs to look forward to in May!!! hahas!!! *smiles* =)
1. Labour day!!!
2. My bday dinner with ade & zk!!! =) =)
3. My bday dinner with cousin!!! =) =)
4. Outing with Minz bestie! =) =)
5. Mommy's bdae!!! =) =) =)
6. Election day!!! (cuz it'll b a hols..=X)
7. Vesak day!!
8. Gp summer test!! [cuz it'll b d last day of sch!! & NOT bcuz its GP test! =X]
9. Make a trip back to Jakarta to reunite with daddy & mommy???

its always in every May that im so happy for the year!!! hahas...
of course not forgetting d holidays i have in june n dec..=DDD

smiles!!! it's soo nice to be happy!!!! =D
forget all your troubles and be happy NOW NOW NOW ok???
happiness is contagious...
hope all of u reading this are as happy as i am now...!!! =)))
-peace out- enjoy d long weekend! =D

dian sastro - tentang seseorang

ku lari ke hutan
kemudian menyanyikuku
lari ke pantai
kemudian teriak
kusepi,
sepi dan sendiri
aku benci
ingin bingar
aku mau di pasar
bosan aku dengan penat
enyah saja engkau pekat
seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri
pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
biar mengaduh sampai gadu
hada malaikat
menyulam jaring
laba-laba belang
di tembok keraton gelas
kenapa tidak kau goyangkan saja loncengnya biar terdera ?
atau aku harus lari ke pantai
belok ke hutan ?


ini.. ini.. tau dhe..-diem-

nice!!! =D

okays! im fine.. thx to all those who have shown ur concern..i wont let him ruin anymore of my days okay??? =) he's just another someone whom i get to meet in the road of life...so yea... let it be a blessing in disguise...accept what is coming towards me...=X

prac todae.. i screwed it up! totally screwed up.. i duno wat im doing.. oh wells.. there's a HIGH possibility that i will get ZERO 4 it.. but wells... no use thinking abt it.. its all OVER.. just concentrate on the 90%.. THAT is more impt.. i wanted to redo the whole thg.. i knew it was all wrong.. but there's no time to redo... so forgive me...

...we'll be strong, we'll be happy girls, we'll smile all day long, we'll keep our faith strong, we'll face all that is coming, we know everything is going to be fine...yes we know... =)
love ya bestie! for never failing to be ther for me... =)

p/s: thanks to ade too for gg shopping with me... =) nice chat girl!! =D

First and foremost, i wana thank ade & zk!!!! THANK YOU!!!! reali touched!!! i like d jacket!! yep thanks!! my first bdae prezzie of the year!!! thanks guys!!! thanks for coming all d way here to pass me d prezzie too!! yeap! thanks! =D love it!!! will wear it on that day okays??? =D
we had a nice chat too!!!! =DDDD
tml's a homework cum study day!!! must finish no matter wat...
Gp AQ
Chi pp
maths tutorial
phy tutorial... =X

ITS SOO CHILDISH!!!!!
THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I ENCOUNTER SUCH DUMB HAPPENINGS!!
CHILDISH CHILDISH CHILDISH! BIANGS!
HOW OLD LIAO!?!?!?!?!
WTH!

I can only say that sch.. Its getting really very stressful... n d atmosphere is reali bad since d day we reciv our PW result... hmm... y did i go to IJ and become their "guinea pigs"??? dumb!
that TEACHER.. is practising favoritism.. blame my self for getting poor results... and blame me for being unlucky to have such a teacher who only loves students who get good grades and getting good grades is all that matters to him... wth!!! thank God im left with onli a few mths in sch.. n off i go! Bye BYE FOREVER Innova!

went meet ade n zk on mon n tues.. hmm..nice... got chat chat!! this time no K... haha... ade bought me sth from taiwan! thanks ade... and the message that goes along with it is reali great.. of course i noe without hardwork.. evrythg is simply not possible... i hope it works tho'... =D haha! anyways... thanks ade!! =D




here it is... this is d pic of wat she gave me!! thx ade!! (hw many thks have i said?? =b)

went to get my phone change yst.. with the companion of ade n zk! haha!! thx guys!! even tho we were all really tired! oh thx 4 waiting for me for so so long... im soo sorry too! =b

mayb im gg to change the phone again this sunday! =X haha! see if im free anot.. if im too free i might go! =X

kkx.. enough! study study study time!! bleaghx...

yay! i just finished my compo.. which is supposed 2b due yst.. im gg 2 do chinese compo now..

i just realised still gt MLG & GP compre 2 do.. oh my... he's soo nice..
anw.. im HAPPY!!! i bought d phone i want yst!!! i dun care abt 3Gs or watsoever crap... my new phone is sooo nice!! hehes... i love it!!! haha... it soo cheap too.. haha.. tts y im soo happy!!! no way am i gg 2 sell it... haha!!! nice nice phone... with lily.. hahas... =D

oh.. innova jc.. created history.. gosh.. i cant beliv it.. it happened in this sch.. the whole thg is WEIRD tho.. its soo not possible la... we r sooo FAR below national average... blame who??? haha... i duno... haha... heck.. it cannot be undone..

i will learn to keep quiet from now on.. so that they wont laugh at me anymore.. it's Laos new year according to 2t.. sooo happy new yr to 2t... hehes... =D


ade ade.. i bought the phoney!!! =D
im happy happy happy!!!! =D

i tink i have eating disorder..
d food i ate todae.. is actuali MUCH MORE than wat i ate 4 d past 2 and a half days....
[imagine how little i ate d past few days... =X]
oh wells.. i do hope that this doesnt continue...
its a gd thg tt... i no longer have headache when i read books..
otherwise.. its DISASTER...=b

today... i learnt that no matter wat bad thgs befalls us... we just have to face them with courage...
with a positive attitude.. yep... look beyond d surface... God has sth else in store 4 us...
and even if some RIDICULOUS people made negative remarks on u.. turn back to them and give them a BIG SMILE.. this makes u happier.. they will learn their lesson some day... we r not in any position to give them a lecture.. tell them nicely once.. if they repeat it again.. then.. let them be.. they'll realise their mistake 1 day..
by doin so.. it makes u a happier person... hehex.. it's true... i just realised it today.. hope it isnt too late.. =X
[at least this is wat i beliv.. some of u may beg to differ]

i din know ur mouth stinks THAT much.. oh wells.. a little reminder...
I HATE PEOPLE WHO USES VULGARITIES ON ME!!!
I HATE PEOPLE WHO USES VULGARITIES, WORST WHEN U USES IT ON ME...
PLEASE BE MORE CIVILIZED...
it doesnt make u more superior when EVERY SENTENCE that comes out from ur mouth contains VULGARITIES...
u dun have to use vulgarities to convey a msg to others that u r unhappy.... bleaghx...
i hope u will become more civilized... =)

more & more hwks..
more & more distractions..
more & more thoughts..
hope i can concentrate...
Bless me... Bless us.. Bless everyone...=)

im in clementi NOW.. will be staying HERE 4 a couple of mths.. hehes.. im GLAD!! i dont have to face those 2 kiddos...
cousin still working.. haven come back.. but she'll be out tonight too.. guess is patho-ing... =X

he asked me to bring d card..
i brought it and he said.. the sum is too little... oh YES.. i dont deny that the sum is VERY pathetic...
but wat can i do??? we are ONLY allowed to ask from people we know... friends n relatives...
FRIENDS: yes i have a lot!!! BUT they dun wana donate.. wat can i do?? kneel down n beg for money??
RELATIVES: i DONT have any other relatives in singapore except 4 my TWO cousins... what can i do about it??
YOU expect me to fork out money to donate?? hell, NO!!! my sch fees is EXPENSIVE enough... and u still want me to contribute to the sch facilities??? (i tot the sch fees covers all that???) the sch can consider negotiating with MOE to take half of my sch fee and that donation foreign students made every two years to donate to watever it is..

the most impt thg is... i don't have much money left... & i've been saving up.. if im not hungry.. i dont eat!! haha!! a good way to diet.. =p
& for goodness sake... i nid to use my own money to settle my own meal... no spare money for such stuffs anymore... dont blame me.. if i were a billionaire daughter i wud donate as much as i want.. too bad.. im not...

guys.. im sooo sorry.. i cant go taiwan with u all... you guys have been very pursuasive.. but.. i only have 3 options...
1: go back jkt in june
2: stay in sg
3: go taiwan with u all..
& i'd rather go back indo to have reunion with my parents & relatives than go taiwan...
im soo sorry... i noe its not ALWAYS that we can go as a group together overseas.. but thinking that i only get to meet with my parents for TWICE a year...
im just so sorry.. =X

d lower part of my body are aching.. due to NAPFA test this week... im relieved that, finally it's all over.. =)

i miss jakarta.. & most important of all.. i miss my parents..

-no matter how hard life is, persevere, stay strong-

[thieves around... please look after your belongings!!!!]

call me petty if u wan.. to bear grudges on a young kid.. when in fact i LOVE childrens.. just by looking at them smile.. they can make me smile too...

BUT not THEM!!!!
THEY ARE TOO RUDE 4 a K2 & nursery kid..
tt's y i dun see them as kids.. but as young adults.. bleaghx..!!!!
[looks can be deceiving]
NO amount of "sorries" u say can erase EVERYTHING... & by the way..
im actually SICK of hearing the two of u saying "sorry" to me..
cuz u always repeat d same mistake again n again...
humans err...??? yes they do... but after realising their mistakes, they dont repeat it.. but u??? after repeating it for infinite times... n after constant reminding... u just keep doing it again n again....
Thank God im moving away for a few months from tml onwards.. THANK YOU!!!!
but i do hope that their attitude will change...

its time to do some serious MUGGING..
yea...
to preapare for summer test, prelim or a'lvl...watever...
its time to start...

n its saving money time for the next few months...
im gg 2 save.. n get myself a gift when i saved a lot liaos... =D

had my LAST napfa test of my life!! YAY!!! hehes...
my LAST 2 years... i end it with a GOLD... wahaha...!!! im happy! =D

i want to go to Mauritius for a holiday...=D

yay!!! im sooo HAPPY on d 1st of April...!!!!!!!
OUTING with BESTIE is ALWAYS FUN!!!
tts y i love her to bits!!! =D
went K todae!!! fun fun fun... tho is more ex la.. but reali FUN!!! =D
i'm so sorry auntie 4 kidnapping ur daughter till 10++ today!!! hahas... =b

2nd of april is a homework day 4 me.. hahas..
i've got tonnes of hwk 2 finish..
tml d hse will be quiet from 3++ onwards..
so i can concentrate liaos.. =D

hehe!!! kkx.. i love my bestie & family loads!!
Thank God 4 her & my GREAT family!!!
and of course those ppl who treat my sincerely n the great ppl surrounding me!! =D
God bless us all!!! =D

im back home since tuesday..
i duno how to open my mouth to tell her tt im not staying here 4 3 mths.. hw hw??

x-country yst..
i din run.. but i reali regretted.. i shud run yst!!
some ppl are just so ungrateful..
i shall not be a 1st aider anymore..
shall let those MORE QUALIFIED person 2 do d job n i enjoy my own private time..

went bowling with [mirna, 2t, gerald, jj, hafiz, saunders, ttc and shawn] yst..
it was my 2nd time bowling.. NOT bad la.. hahas.. im contented.. =D
it was FUN.. took lotsa photos.. and we had fun laughing.. =D

Kbox again this saturday with bestie!! =D
haha.. im frequenting tt place every single week.. haha!
singing is REALI FUN !!!!!!!

i hate PE..
THAT STUPID PE TEACHER REALI SPOILS MY DAY!
i think he dont like me! shyt him...!!

sch's getting more n more BORING..
d time passes real FAST todae.. =D GOOD GOOD!!!!

-Hating me wont make u feel any better!! GET LOST!-

bleaghx..
so fast monday gona end liaos..
tml tuesday liaos..
sians...
sch's still as boring as ever..
hahas..
when will i change this kinda mindset??
when will i blog to say tt.. "SCHOOL'S SOO FUN!!! YAY!!!"
hahas...will tt day come?? =X

went 2 meet ade n zk at west mall just now..
its funny looking at d 2 of them bicker.. =X
hahas...
anw..while waiting 4 them at westmall..

i saw lotsa ppl..
i saw my tuition teacher...
she taught me 4 a yr i think.. when i haven enter pri 3... =X
i lost my mickey mouse anklet somewher near her hse too..
(i rmb crying v badly when i lost it..=X, den my mom bought me another 1...but w/o mickey mouse de..=X)
(im not putting any blame on her alrites..im just merely saying what i rmb..=X)
den saw bbss sch mate...den saw pri sch mate too... i saw qi xuan.. after soo many yrs..
but i din say hi 2 any of them.. =X cuz i scared dey dun recognize me..den i'll be soo paiseh...
but i hope they are doing well tho..=)

i love my bro!!! miss him lotsa too.. i hope he's doing well there... =)
as usual miss my parents too!!! =)
my cousin is nice! =)

NOW.. over here... wana thx those peeps... hu care to read MY blog.. reali.. thx.. u guys took time off ur busy schedule, to read d craps i typed! THANKS LOADS!!! n not forgetting.. thx 4 d concern shown too.. =D thx!

ade's gg taiwan tml liaos.. have a safe journey.. n get back here soon! enjoy urself... which i noe u will!! =D

kkx.. im off to homeworks...!!!! =X

it's BESTIE'S BDAE TML!!!
HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY BESTIE!!!!!!!!!!!!
=) =) =) =) =) =) =)

i "ran away" from home again to stay in my cousin's place... =X
NICE!! change of environment!

watched a HK serial at home yst..
learnt about how FRAGILE life is..
how anything can change within seconds..
must be contented with what we have & just accept life as it is..
be nice to urself..
try to be as happy as u can... =)

i cant beliv it.. im gg 2 have 3 consecutive days of RUNNING... wth..
PE on tuesday, x-country on weds & PE on thurs...
how nice!
but lucki.. im onli a first aider 4 x-country..
hahas.. but u all trust my 1st aid skill?? =X

i miss my family.. i wana go back! =X
i hope i can earn some cash soon..
is money really everything????

dumb!
its sch sgain tml!

its so STUPID of me 2 actuali break down in sch!
dumb!
[thx mad, mel & jj 4 d concern]

afternoon:
bestie came over 2 my hse todae..
she bought kiddy snack.. =X
thx bestie!!
loved d chat!!
i talked non stop.. =X
im talkative..
but talking reali keeps my mind OFF lotsa thgs!!!
thx bestie!!!!! =D
~OUR OWN LAND ; OUR OWN CAFE!!! =D
BEST SISTERS EVER!!
im reali reali sooo BLESSED 2 have such a great bestie!

night:
went 2 find cousin at clementi..
went to eat in a Thai restaurant..
she treated me!
so nice of her..
then after dinner..
walked from tt place back to clementi..
we walked across d expressway..
d feeling is so nice...
when i was waiting for bus..
a police car drove past..
dey kept looking at me.. hahas!!
im not under age la!
i walked back home alone todae..
reached at 1130..
its not tt bad...
some time spent alone..
nice!

ade's gg taiwan nx tues.. so nice!
hope she'll have fun!!! I KNOW SHE WILL!!! hiks..
pig girl: u'll find urs soon too k!! =D

its time 4 serious talks with my parents..
so tt i can reach to a solution FAST..

hahaha!
lalalala!
i must be happy!
im not gg 2 get affected!
its onli block test!
not a'lvl!

i had 8 rounds of running 4 pe todae..=D

anyways,
went K yst!!!
it was FUN...
had fun singing..
SINGING is ALWAYS fun..
BUT i cant open my mouth most of d time..
BUT..
its reali FUN..
[& thx 4 d treat zk]

more n more K gathering liao..
haha..
im gg broke liaos...
i think i might go there almost everyweek..
looking at the ppl ard me..
hahas..

my cousin so gd..
he's gt hols till AUGUST..
cuz uni starts their term onli in august..
biangs..
i cant wait 4 A's 2 faster come..
den everything will be done..
no more doing things i dont like..

~certain things in life~
~once its gone~
~its gone~
~no point grieving~
~or regretting~
~treasure it while u still have it~

y d entry sudd soo sad... hahas..
but it's reali true la.. d abv... =X
we are happy girls!!!
happy happy happy!!!! =D

guess wat!!!!
IM VERY SUPER HAPPY TODAY!!!
SIMPLY BECAUSE IM FREE!!!
EXAM'S OVER...

I DONT HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!

i continue again ltr ok...
hahas...
im off to tv till 11pm... =D

*bestie!!! ur pp will finish soon too k...*
*& we will go out n go crazy.. have fun... yak or just do anythg..
except studying!!!* hahhas!!!!
*we'll meet up soon soon soon!!!*

wet wet wet... test test test... sians...

i just reached home..
after sitting down doing papers since morniing 8.15++ till 4.45++
did 3 papers in all..
i think i onli had ard 1 and a half hr break altogether..
so im havin a bad headache now..
& im drenched..
wat a nice day..
[thx 4 d umbrella heup]..

todays pp...
GP??
was quite ok..
i hope i can pass..
but if i dont.. its okays..
Chinese paper 1??
i din study at all 4 it..
it turned out that i've much more positive feelings towards it than d other 2 papers..
Physics??
hell..
my head was hurting before i even start d pp...
so wat do u think??
wells..
i'll be glad to even just get a pass..
at least an improvement from last year will be good..

oh well..
heck its onli a block test..
its not A'lvl..
dun sooo stress out..

tml will b d LAST 2 pp..
maths n chinese pp 2..
ms ng says d pp is harder than last yr's..
hmm..
hahas... i shall study chinese ltr... =X
chinese need memorise all d poems, etc..
all those *crap* again..
i hope my head fast fast dun pain..
so i can absorb faster k..
how i wish i have a twin sister..