monday in a few hrs time..
how can i look fwd 2 it.. when im dreading it.. at this very second?
i hate sch soo soo much...
how i wish i can just quit n get out of this **** place... shyt..
evrythg is turning their back against me..
i duno i can hold on till when..
when will i reali break down?? mayb soon...


there goes my happy days...
happiness still possible?
realised tt sometimes when u feel like crying.. just cry it all out..
u'll feel much better..
trust me.. but dun cry too much.. it doesnt solve anythg... it'll onli make ur eyes even more blur.. that it hurts too other than ur heart..
contradicting??? nvm.. i understand...


bleaghx.. dun ask me.. im just pouring out watever im feelin right now..
how am i gg 2 go sch n concentrate tml??
i have too much on my mind..


i hope that "this too, shall pass"..
-still holding on to the faith-

FAMILY = Father And Mother I Love You

okay i miss my family alrites...
went out with bestie n her family todae... quite ok la.. at least get to talk to bestie 4 a while.. hiks..
thx girlie! c our time are fleksible... when we want meet then we will just meet.. hahas!! so i went out the whole day todae... yay!!! a gd way of relaxing.. so shiok!

i have lotsa hwks as usual... sianzation...

heup has his own SSS---- school sucks siaz... haha... lamo...

-homesickness-

its a THURSDAY liaos!!! YAY!!!
tml is a FRIDAY weekend is coming...
im so glad!!! =D
im so tired...
everyday is sch-hwk-eat-slp..
NO LIFE!!!!
sians!!!
when will all these end?
haix...
block test is coming... =(
A'lvl is this yr...
my life is full of BOOKS!!! sianx..
i made d wrong choice by coming here... =(
had STREAMING, PSLE, O'LVL.. now is A'LVL..
nid 2 study hard liaos... sian larhx...

there's so many singing competition coming up leis...
hahas... gt the NUS de.. den still gt 1 more.. i 4got liaos... =X
my brain just cant contain too many thgs alrites..

had pe todae.. NOT bad larhx..
hahas... i improved by 1 min 4 my 2.4km..
n its also the very 1st time that i failed my shuttle run.. 12mins??? so ultra long la..
i NEVER hit 11.5+ b4 in all my nafta la... tis is bad..
but heck... hu cares... eh no! i care...cannot fail shuttle run derhx.. nv fail b4 lei..
i dun want to hav so may 1st times in IJ!!! NOOOO!!!

i sudd change my mind i think i need to make a trip back 2 jkt this hols..erm.. i mean d june "hols" if u call tt a hols.. i cant live w/o seeing my parents for abt a year la... my gosh... i dun tink i can do it!! =X

ohhh... n yea.. cousin is coming back soon.. like so fast she just went back on tues n she's coming back on sunday liaos... the time is FAST!!!

kkx... everythg faster come n faster end.. just like o's.. hahas... hope i wont stress out.. hope all those out there wont too... jia you!!

i miss my family..
i miss indo..
i miss bestie..
i miss my cousin too...

tml cousin is gg back to medan lerhx...
gona miss her..hahas...
i miss gg back too..
well..hv fun there k..
u'll be back in sg on sunday liaos..
but at least u get to go back, while i dont!!! =(

i will miss gg over 2 her place 2 stay too..
its so peaceful here..
unlike d place tt im staying at..
hahas..
i duno y but i reali prefer her place.. tho d place is much smaller than mine...
i reali will miss comin here 2 stay n crap with her over d night..
all our craziness...
when my younger cousin, who is her bro come back sg..
den i cant come ovr stay liaos..sad sad..
definitely will miss tis place la..

we will rent or buy our own house soon okays!!
den can stay wit u!!
thx 4 d care n concern cousin!! hahas... of course ur nice nice cooking..=)

i've finished almost all my homeworks..
at least all those tt nids 2b handed in lo..
but those tt nids 2b done from maths tys..i din do cuz i dun hv d book..
sry ms ng..=p

-sadded- im still coughing!!! bleaghxxx...=(
i wan my parents...='(

09032003

i went simlim tower, d shops arent open..
n so din get the stuffs tt my aunt wanted...
& d weather is SUPER hot...
gt headache after a while..

n im now coughing..
i've got sore throat le..
dont ask me how i got it...
its been long since i hav a good rest..

every single day sleep soo late... =(

n since im out alrdy...
and im staying at clementi todae..
i decided to visit dewi..since she stays nearby...=p
i miss them (my ex-room mate) soo much...
missed d days when we stayed in d same hse...
her new house is nice...
i like it there...
so cozy...
tts wat i call home...
im gona buy my own house very very soon..
hahas...lolx.. my soon is like in 8 yrs time??? wells..
who knows.. c larhx... mayb next yr can get 1 alrdy..
no1 can predict tml ryt??=p

yeapx... now will continue with homeworks le...
sians...

oh yarhx.. my cousin lowie is reali nice.. to me.. hahas..
i like staying over night here too..
n now i hav another hse tt welcomes me.. hahas.. dewi's hse...=X
i am soo glad to have these NICE ppl in my life...
they are as close as my fam le..

sometimes i think back..
i dun hv my fam in sg...
im lucky enuf that i have them [lowie, minz & some of my other2 frens] to love n care for me..
tho some frens i onli talk to them over msn, and smses but i can feel their care n concern 4 me...
thanks a lot guys..
i duno wat i will do w/o u all...
aww...soo mushy..=X
thx a bunch guys..
kkx..hab a great night!


-090303-

im so not into homeworks..
bleaghx..
they r reali irritating... =X
i want holidays!!!

just called my mama, daddy & my aunt...
i miss them so much...
how i wish i can go back..
i duno how im gg 2 do it..
but im not gg back tis yr..
at least until A's is over..
so it'll be d 1st time tt im not gg 2 c my family for a whoe yr..
hope i can survive k..

im broke..
ok..
i will try to spend less..
when im alrdy spending v less less more..
kkx.. back 2 hwks...

i love my family loads..
i miss them..

im gg over to my cousin hse to stay over till tuesday..
cuz she's gg back to indo on tues..
yeapz...
so im gg away from bt panjang again... =x

i just sudd felt d urge 2 blog.
nth in particular.
i've a test tml.
i hope i wun flunk it.
yeapx.

all d feelings sudd all came back 2 me.
it just happened yst.
i will keep it in me.

i DONT LIKE that PE teacher.
i feel that im being "threatened"! =X
he's a THREAT 2 me.
i HATE gg 4 PE on EVERY THURS.
he made me feel like this.
it's his fault NOT mine.
WHO call him pick on me!!!
from starting of lesson till end of lesson la!!!
DONT COME & IRRITATE ME!!!
I CAN PASS NAFA WITH GOLD AWARD CAN LIAO..

i think im getting "blurrer" & blurrer each day!!
i accidentally deleted d hwk that was half done...
when i took almost an hr doing it..
wth...
todae is reali just not my day..
im so tireddddd!!! ='(

kkx back 2 hwks n wateverrrr else...
sianx...

*2 those havin probs... hope u guys will resolve d matter soon!!!*
*& jia you ppl... a'lvl in 8 mths time??? yea!!! let's work together!!*


-im a happy gurllll.... =b-----

its v-day todae...
like so duh!...
hahas...
thx 4 all d flowers, chocs, gift & balloon!
d sch is full of LOVE todae...
or shud i say singapore... hahas...
or mayb d whole world... =b

d sch gt lotsa flowers.. balloons & gifts... hahas...

kkx... i still owe some ppl gifts.. =X
lolx..
im tired...
its hwk time...
sianx..... wat a day!!!

its valentines day in a few mins time..
hehes... shall wish all my friends out there hu r reading my blog...
A VERY HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY...
dont care if u have a bf or gf... wat matters most is u have ur frens...
of course to those attached... may tml be a very happy day 4 all of u!!!
to some tml will just be... "just another day"...
hahas... just enjoy it k... it'll be a great day...
bleaghx.. i have a LONG day tml... sob sob... ='(

sudd tot of d days in sec sch during v-day...
still can rmb so clearly wat happened...
thx 4 d memorable "happenings"...
kkx shant elaborate... i shall keep it to myself... =)
its most memorable... all d days in sec 3 & 4s..
be it my bdae or v-dae or *** bdae.... =D

oh yea.. to some of my classmates reading...
hahas.. i hope u guys appreciate d small gift i gave... =P
i took time doing it worx... dont care MUST like... =b
kkx.. tek cer... im sleeping... =P

i lovey my family loads!!!
i miss them loads too....

LIFE

-.Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take
but by the moments that take our breath away.-

-.Mistakes r painful when they happen,
but years later a collection of mistakes is what we call experience.-

yay!! i din go out todae...
im gg temple tml...=)
shud be lah..
if gt time.. shud b gg..
yeapx...

still gt lotsa hwk... =(
can i finish them???

its v-day on tues...
yet another yr...
its friendship day i gues... =b
need buy things 4 ppl lerhx...
mayb i'll just buy few packets of chocs n give them eat... =b
dun blame me...
im busy.. =X

i miss my parents...
i miss my brothers...
i miss my indo...
[mom msg me todae cuz she missed me... aww... how sweet of her.. i miss her too!]
i wana go back!!!

misunderstandings cleared.
cleared up d stuffs abt yst, felt much better.
i've got lotsa stuffs 2 do.
piles of hwks.
i have to stay at home this weekend.
i've to go sch on my own alrdy.
from tml onwards.
have to start buying consessions liaos.
have to wake up earli n walk to sch liaos.
sians.
discovered sth too.. todae.
im not reali affected.
i saw sth i shouldnt see.
hahas.
but seeing it has enlightened me.
im too naive.
shall not think abt such dumb thgs anymore.
tireddd.

im supposed 2b in my land now.. but im here blogging cuz i cant slp..
lets talk abt jz nw..
my nephew's grandpa's bdae party..
its NOT FUN 4 me..
im supposed 2 do my hwk in my room..
cuz i gt tonnes of them...
n till nw i still haven finish 1/4 of it...
cuz they keep coming in2 d room n ask me 2 eat..
n they were unhappy bcuz i din go out eat after some time..
its not their fault tt i dun wana eat.. so i shall not blame them...

-misunderstooded-
i think they tot i have ap..
call so many times still dun wan go out...
i've eaten alrites... tts y i din go out.. im still full..
how to eat when u r full???
but wells..
i duno...
its jz tt i cant mix ard wit ppl im not close with..
tt's all.. it's just me.. its like sooo obvious..
nvm.. i din quarrel with them.. cuz i still respect them..
they can use tt kinda tone n talk 2 me..
i understand y.. they just duno me.. i dun blame them...
was very pissed...
but mayb i shud find a day n clarify thgs...
i will move out sooner or later...
they get on with their life while i get on with mine...

i shall go slp... i hate sch... sians... there's pe in d 1st period!!!

i shall not care so much n let my self be unhappy...
probing n worrying abt the problem wun make me any happier...
wont do me any good...
i shall heck it... =p

-forgiving & forgetting-

i have lotsa hwk...
i must do... =(

thx 2 mad, mel, ying, mir, 2t & others... 4 making my day in sch...
hahas... we reali crap a lot sometimes... =b
thk God i have my fam, bestie n them in my life... =D

i have found d NEW motivation 2 go to sch... =b
tho i still HATE d sch a lot lot lot... =X

hahas.. i sudd tot of sth...
we must smile n laugh in sch thruout d day k...
let no unhappiness affect us... =D
-we must be happy girlssssss-

ITS FINALLY a FRIDAY.. YAY!!!!
went eat lunch with ying, mad, bash & saunders at swensens...
it's nice.. BUT im soo FUll...plus..im TIREEEDDD.....
haven been sleeping well since cny...

tml go to go hse visiting.. hmm..
i still duno how to be in a different place at different times.. =X
sunday nid go dad's fren's hse.. hmm...
& GREAT!!!! i have tonnes of hwks waiting 4 me to do...

i 4got wat mr sim ask us 2 do 4 hwk... =X hahas...

hmm... den toae i realise d teachers are reali gg ard reading d students blog...
hmm... hahas... cannot write anythg bad abt sch liao..
lolx.. can no longer complain... =X
haha... if any teacher happen 2 read my blog..
do leave ur "msg-print" kays... =b

i miss home...
i miss sleeping...
i miss days without sch...
i miss shopping...
i wana buy a top & jeans from Esprit... but it's so ex..
i wana get a new phone too...
any1 wants 2 sponsor me??????

d t-shirt tt mirna designed is NICE!!!!!!! i LOVE it...

im gg 2 slp..

yeapx.. minx came to sch todae...
how i reali wish that we were in d same sch.. hmm...
but wells... am glad tt she came todae... *smiles*
& yay!! we werent caught!!! wahahax...=D

im sorry i was quite moody in d morning..
sorry...
i wana apologise 2 mad, mel & gerald too..
im reali sorry... im reali soooo sorry....
i think u guys should noe y i apologise..
i reali feel bad.. im sorry..=(

n sry bestie.. cant go ur hse todae..
tho i wanted to..
next time kays.. =D

i've millions of hwks waiting 4 me...
hmm...

i noe everythg will be fine & most importantly HE will watch over us..

yay!!! tml is a FRIDAY!!! i LOVE fridays!!!!!!!!!!

haix.. i reali duno how i can help..
reali lost liaox.. dun wana c always soo unhappy over it...
i duno how i can help..
let's reali hope tt TIME REALLY HEALS...
but nevertheless im still thinkin of means & ways to help..


d truth reali hurts...
but that is d time that we have to pluck up d courage to face it..
no matter how deep we have fallen.. we have to stand up once again...
i hope we will hv d courage to brave through all this..

what is d truth really????

dere r ppl hu r willing to give up everythg for just tt 1 person...
but y r there also ppl hu always have their ways in hurting others???
dots......

this song is NICE!!!

- all or nothing -
I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older, older

You know I'd fight for you
But how can I fight someone who isn't even there?
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
I don't care if that's not fair

Cause I want it all
or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends with a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe its right I know it, know it

Don't make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
It's time to show and tell

Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends with a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing.....

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside for me in your life

Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall it's now or never

Is it all or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends with a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all..
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends with a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

At All...

hahas... 3 posts in a day!!! lolx..
i am too happy.. tt's y i wana post sth...
i am happy that i finally get in touch AGAIN after so many yrs...
with my pri sch dear teacher!!
so glad!!! this time i din add d wrong person on msn.. =X hahas
& am gg 2 her hse to visit this saturday...
NO matter what i'll make sure i turn up...
so long din have gathering with the 6/1 peeps lerhx... =D
good place for gathering lei... =D
YAY!!!!

kkx.. im off 2 slp... nitex!!! i HATE sch!!! =(