Selamat Hari Raya to all those celebrating. =)
there are certain things i haven't come to terms with.
money is not easy to earn.
just to earn the 15 dollars, i have to put up with so much nonsense.
I have to bear with all the facial expressions of those unreasonable parents, who think that tuition teachers are fairies sent from heaven. who will be able to improve their child's result after one time meeting. very good. It's not east being a teacher.
Should i go back indo in December or February?
i want to go back on both months. can?
December cuz I miss home and i want to see my parents asap.
February cuz I want to celebrate CNY with MY family, i don't want to spend it with them.
I can't feel that i am being loved. yeahs. i have a cousin who don't seem to be so.
i need some family love.
the only family i have here is my dearest cousin cum sister cum friend.. cousin Lowie.
he once asked me whether i feel very lonely here. and i said. NO.
fact is i do feel very so.
i miss home. =(
have a great weekend people.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
today.
delicious spaghetti.
delicious chicken soup.
nice manicures. =)
i guess i am stupid enough to think about THAT again.
I know we are not possible. [before u think that its the same person. NO it's not.]
i don't why. recently i've been brought back to the past very very often. i miss him and i love him. yes i do. when our eyes met. i don't know how to describe that feeling. it's sweet. and it's nice. i am that foolish girl who have rejected him. yet at this point in time, when we were both talking again and when our eyes met. somehow. yeahs. i am brought back. and i'm reapproaching myself. why did i tell him that he is foolish enough to like me? why did i tell him that we are always impossible? dumbo me! why did i? why? why? why? anyhow, yes la. we are impossible. hope this is just some stupid thgy that is happening to me just every now and then.
delicious spaghetti.
delicious chicken soup.
nice manicures. =)
i guess i am stupid enough to think about THAT again.
I know we are not possible. [before u think that its the same person. NO it's not.]
i don't why. recently i've been brought back to the past very very often. i miss him and i love him. yes i do. when our eyes met. i don't know how to describe that feeling. it's sweet. and it's nice. i am that foolish girl who have rejected him. yet at this point in time, when we were both talking again and when our eyes met. somehow. yeahs. i am brought back. and i'm reapproaching myself. why did i tell him that he is foolish enough to like me? why did i tell him that we are always impossible? dumbo me! why did i? why? why? why? anyhow, yes la. we are impossible. hope this is just some stupid thgy that is happening to me just every now and then.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
blahs. he & she have been asking me.
ur sms replied? and my answer has always been NO.
and to think I've been deceiving myself, telling myself, oh wells, maybe somehow the message wasn't sent. HAHA. and the shoot me!
"how possible is that, lily? HOW possible i ask you?"
now i know how it feels when ppl dun reply ur sms. the feeling sucks.
well, to tell you guys the truth. i don't have 500 or 1000 FREE sms-es like some of you do.
i don't have free incoming calls like you all do. cuz i am not that attached to my phone. THUS, i am using prepaid card instead. and i am not as busy as some of you do to have phone calls and sms-es coming in every single minute. i am not that popular. so prepaid cards are more worth it. =p
so i chose the people and the sms-es which i should reply to. sorry.
but hey. if you have 500 - 1000 FREE sms. like. cant you at least give me a reply?
my whole body is aching due to yesterday's badminton session. =(
and i fell down today!! so paisehs!!! so unlucky!!!
cuz the ground was too slippery then i just slipped and fell. =(
i am like trying to do a split. Lucky i wear jeans. IF not, confirm bleed de. =p
so.. seee.. there is nth wrong in wearing jeans to campus everyday. =p
leg's bruised. ='(
i am still very very very confused. =(
ur sms replied? and my answer has always been NO.
and to think I've been deceiving myself, telling myself, oh wells, maybe somehow the message wasn't sent. HAHA. and the shoot me!
"how possible is that, lily? HOW possible i ask you?"
now i know how it feels when ppl dun reply ur sms. the feeling sucks.
well, to tell you guys the truth. i don't have 500 or 1000 FREE sms-es like some of you do.
i don't have free incoming calls like you all do. cuz i am not that attached to my phone. THUS, i am using prepaid card instead. and i am not as busy as some of you do to have phone calls and sms-es coming in every single minute. i am not that popular. so prepaid cards are more worth it. =p
so i chose the people and the sms-es which i should reply to. sorry.
but hey. if you have 500 - 1000 FREE sms. like. cant you at least give me a reply?
my whole body is aching due to yesterday's badminton session. =(
and i fell down today!! so paisehs!!! so unlucky!!!
cuz the ground was too slippery then i just slipped and fell. =(
i am like trying to do a split. Lucky i wear jeans. IF not, confirm bleed de. =p
so.. seee.. there is nth wrong in wearing jeans to campus everyday. =p
leg's bruised. ='(
i am still very very very confused. =(
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
went cousin house. so nice. went for lunch. chit chat. and we went for badminton.
lousy me. i sort of sprained my right hand. shiet. not really sprained la. i just cant lift it up. very pain. =(
i din go work today. =X
cuz, me n my cousins went for dinner after badminton. this time is really cousins. =)
Wendy came here to further his studies too. cousins gathering. always so nice. =)
i am even more sure of my feelings when we met. when we talked face to face, when we look at each other. i want to tell him, but i can't. after all i am the 1 who persuaded & convinced him out of this. i am so retarded. why didn't i just carry on with it back then. i miss talking to him. i m so retarded. =(
lousy me. i sort of sprained my right hand. shiet. not really sprained la. i just cant lift it up. very pain. =(
i din go work today. =X
cuz, me n my cousins went for dinner after badminton. this time is really cousins. =)
Wendy came here to further his studies too. cousins gathering. always so nice. =)
i am even more sure of my feelings when we met. when we talked face to face, when we look at each other. i want to tell him, but i can't. after all i am the 1 who persuaded & convinced him out of this. i am so retarded. why didn't i just carry on with it back then. i miss talking to him. i m so retarded. =(
Monday, October 8, 2007
I've finished watching One litre Of tears.
a very touching show.
it's real life story.
it's a very cruel disease.
who would have thought about it?
who would have thought they would contract this cruel disease?
(spinocerebellar atrophy)
i didn't know such a disease actually "exists".
Is there a cure for it? hopefully yes.
throughout the whole show, i kept thinking of the many what ifs.
i know i am dumb.
shan't think so much. since no one will ever know and i guess only He knows and i will always be the second 1 to know and never the first.
watched the show. taught me a lot. real lot.
TREASURE YOUR LIFE & THOSE AROUND YOU.
what's important is now and as long as you've given your best to it. then everything is ok.
everything will fall in place one fine day. the truth will be known. maybe the truth hurts, but no matter how hard you fall, as long as you are able to stand up. you will be fine. I will be fine.
i believe all the W-H-Y-S will be answered one fine day.
it's very very sad whenever i called my parents or when they call me.
I am happy, yet at the same time, i am also sad.
it's especially sad when my dad asked me yesterday.
"how are you? are you fatter or thinner? have you eaten? got drink water? got eat fruits? got school tml? got work?"
Why can't i be like the rest? who have their parents by their side, watching them grow?
Taking care of them when they are sick. welcome them back from school. Hear their complaints. hear their nagging? know when their kids are in trouble. know when their kids are sad and everything.
oh wells. this is my life. life of being alone in this cruel world. maybe in future i will get to know the answer. =)
however i am glad i have a bunch of friends. this bunch of very great friends whom i don't meet often, yet whenever i talk to them they are able to bring that smile back on my face. Thank you girls and guys! love you all! i don't know how close is close. i don't know how best is best. i don't know how sisterly or brotherly we are. i only know you people are a part of my life and i wouldn't know what to do without you. it's sincerity, that friendship, that bond. =D
this is the reason why i'd rather keep it to myself than let it out of me and hurt our friendship. and i would never allow anyone to say it out without my permission. i trust you and you have to hold on to that trust.
Don't dwell on the past. Live on.
a very touching show.
it's real life story.
it's a very cruel disease.
who would have thought about it?
who would have thought they would contract this cruel disease?
(spinocerebellar atrophy)
i didn't know such a disease actually "exists".
Is there a cure for it? hopefully yes.
throughout the whole show, i kept thinking of the many what ifs.
i know i am dumb.
shan't think so much. since no one will ever know and i guess only He knows and i will always be the second 1 to know and never the first.
watched the show. taught me a lot. real lot.
TREASURE YOUR LIFE & THOSE AROUND YOU.
what's important is now and as long as you've given your best to it. then everything is ok.
everything will fall in place one fine day. the truth will be known. maybe the truth hurts, but no matter how hard you fall, as long as you are able to stand up. you will be fine. I will be fine.
i believe all the W-H-Y-S will be answered one fine day.
it's very very sad whenever i called my parents or when they call me.
I am happy, yet at the same time, i am also sad.
it's especially sad when my dad asked me yesterday.
"how are you? are you fatter or thinner? have you eaten? got drink water? got eat fruits? got school tml? got work?"
Why can't i be like the rest? who have their parents by their side, watching them grow?
Taking care of them when they are sick. welcome them back from school. Hear their complaints. hear their nagging? know when their kids are in trouble. know when their kids are sad and everything.
oh wells. this is my life. life of being alone in this cruel world. maybe in future i will get to know the answer. =)
however i am glad i have a bunch of friends. this bunch of very great friends whom i don't meet often, yet whenever i talk to them they are able to bring that smile back on my face. Thank you girls and guys! love you all! i don't know how close is close. i don't know how best is best. i don't know how sisterly or brotherly we are. i only know you people are a part of my life and i wouldn't know what to do without you. it's sincerity, that friendship, that bond. =D
this is the reason why i'd rather keep it to myself than let it out of me and hurt our friendship. and i would never allow anyone to say it out without my permission. i trust you and you have to hold on to that trust.
Don't dwell on the past. Live on.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
i still have so many things to do. =(
.sian.
i can't be bothered with other things anymore now.
i am waiting for October to be over then. i will see how things go.
don't ask me why i don't want to go out la.
i only go out with people i am comfortable with.
and if i am comfortable with the person. no matter how busy i am, i will squeeze out that teeny weeny bit of time for him/her. =)
time to do work. =)
I'm letting go
.sian.
i can't be bothered with other things anymore now.
i am waiting for October to be over then. i will see how things go.
don't ask me why i don't want to go out la.
i only go out with people i am comfortable with.
and if i am comfortable with the person. no matter how busy i am, i will squeeze out that teeny weeny bit of time for him/her. =)
time to do work. =)
I'm letting go
Saturday, October 6, 2007
i have PBF test on tuesday.
yet i am now doing USELESS stuff like FINDING MEANING OF WORDS.
to prepare for tuition class on monday.
i growing to dislike her as the days goes by.
just like yesterday.
i end my class and i 1...2...3... take my bag and just leave the place.
i don't like her. up till now i still haven't receive my pay yet. I really don't like her.
maybe our friendship wasn't as fantastic as wonderful as i thought it is.
maybe we are just deceiving ourselves.
i think we are.
gah! not important.
i want my mommy.
mad.. i not guai. i din go out. =X
i munched on biscuits for dinner though. =)
yet i am now doing USELESS stuff like FINDING MEANING OF WORDS.
to prepare for tuition class on monday.
i growing to dislike her as the days goes by.
just like yesterday.
i end my class and i 1...2...3... take my bag and just leave the place.
i don't like her. up till now i still haven't receive my pay yet. I really don't like her.
maybe our friendship wasn't as fantastic as wonderful as i thought it is.
maybe we are just deceiving ourselves.
i think we are.
gah! not important.
i want my mommy.
mad.. i not guai. i din go out. =X
i munched on biscuits for dinner though. =)
there is an accident by the roadside this morning. i don't what happened. only saw the damage of the car. din see any ambulance around so i supposed no one was injured.
have been "seeing" lots of accidents recently.
just that night i was telling heup n gerald about the accident that happened to my dear friend's friend.
hais. hopefully he is getting along fine on the other side.
i realy don't know who he is.
many people leave us every single day. and many people are also born on the very same day.
is it a cycle?
when one person is taken away another is brought into this world.
is it a good thing to leave this world or is it a bad thing?
i used to have suicidal thoughts.
and my mom keep telling me to stop thinking about this kind of thing.
cuz "those things" will come to you and disrupt ur life and finally you get ur wish.
be careful what you wish for.
how do you give comfort to those who lost their loved ones?
the best thing is to leave them alone.
for me. i have been staying away from her.
cuz, i noe nothing i say is going to make sense. cuz i am not her. i am not experiencing it.
i know how it feels to lose someone. but it's a totally different feeling.
i am not them. i don't know how they feel.
i am now very careful when crossing the roads.
from experience of almost getting knocked down by car. it taught me to be more careful.
i still rmb that incident near innova. when me n mirna & i don't know who, were going home from school. i dont know what i was doing back then. but i tried crossing the road when the cars were still coming in from the opposite direction. i really saw the green man light shining. that was why i walked. luckily mirna pulled me back and this lorry was horning so loudly. then i finally woke up.
you know the scar on my right hand wrist? that scar that i have been telling people that i tried to commit suicide. =X but no i did not try to. it's just a cut. 1 cm to the right of all the veins. lucky me. it din cut through the veins. if not i don't know what will happen. {Anw, how many of you actually know i had this scar on my right hand? }
most of the time, i guess when mishaps are about to happen, you wont know what you were doing. and you don't know why you did that.
and this incident is only one out of the many times i am lucky enough to be able to reach home safely.
so i was thinking, when it is time for me to go, i don't think anyone will know. not even myself.
i am not trying to be emo. i am just trying to bring the message across that,
please don't take people around you for granted, they are there beside you for a reason.
life is really. really. fragile and unpredictable.
treasure those around you? PLEASE. stop taking them for granted.
have been "seeing" lots of accidents recently.
just that night i was telling heup n gerald about the accident that happened to my dear friend's friend.
hais. hopefully he is getting along fine on the other side.
i realy don't know who he is.
many people leave us every single day. and many people are also born on the very same day.
is it a cycle?
when one person is taken away another is brought into this world.
is it a good thing to leave this world or is it a bad thing?
i used to have suicidal thoughts.
and my mom keep telling me to stop thinking about this kind of thing.
cuz "those things" will come to you and disrupt ur life and finally you get ur wish.
be careful what you wish for.
how do you give comfort to those who lost their loved ones?
the best thing is to leave them alone.
for me. i have been staying away from her.
cuz, i noe nothing i say is going to make sense. cuz i am not her. i am not experiencing it.
i know how it feels to lose someone. but it's a totally different feeling.
i am not them. i don't know how they feel.
i am now very careful when crossing the roads.
from experience of almost getting knocked down by car. it taught me to be more careful.
i still rmb that incident near innova. when me n mirna & i don't know who, were going home from school. i dont know what i was doing back then. but i tried crossing the road when the cars were still coming in from the opposite direction. i really saw the green man light shining. that was why i walked. luckily mirna pulled me back and this lorry was horning so loudly. then i finally woke up.
you know the scar on my right hand wrist? that scar that i have been telling people that i tried to commit suicide. =X but no i did not try to. it's just a cut. 1 cm to the right of all the veins. lucky me. it din cut through the veins. if not i don't know what will happen. {Anw, how many of you actually know i had this scar on my right hand? }
most of the time, i guess when mishaps are about to happen, you wont know what you were doing. and you don't know why you did that.
and this incident is only one out of the many times i am lucky enough to be able to reach home safely.
so i was thinking, when it is time for me to go, i don't think anyone will know. not even myself.
i am not trying to be emo. i am just trying to bring the message across that,
please don't take people around you for granted, they are there beside you for a reason.
life is really. really. fragile and unpredictable.
treasure those around you? PLEASE. stop taking them for granted.
Friday, October 5, 2007
is the weather very hot?
how come i cant feel anything?
gastric found its way back to me le!!! =(((
soo sickening.
throughout the 3 hrs of lecture in the morning i was hugging my bag. pressing it against my stomach.
cuz its damn pain!!
and so i guai kia. learnt my lesson.
d pain is unbearable. so i ate my lunch and dinner today =)
but still no mood to eat. asked d man to decrease d rice by a whole lot.
but better than i dun eat anything right?
tml duno will eat not. see how. =p
my uncle says he is sending his daughter here to study,
haha. hopefully really will send.
then. we can rent a whole flat. and we can have cousins chalet le. LOL.
imagine all the gina stay together!!! WAH!!!! good!!! soo cool! =D
i'm looking forward to that day. =)
gastric shooOoooooooooOOOOoooOOoOOOoOOooOo!!! i DON'T like gastric!
OH! and i finally called mad girl yst! HAHA! nice chat! haha! hope to see you soon! =D
transportation fee increase le!! =((
i miss him! but i'm trying to get over him! =D
how come i cant feel anything?
gastric found its way back to me le!!! =(((
soo sickening.
throughout the 3 hrs of lecture in the morning i was hugging my bag. pressing it against my stomach.
cuz its damn pain!!
and so i guai kia. learnt my lesson.
d pain is unbearable. so i ate my lunch and dinner today =)
but still no mood to eat. asked d man to decrease d rice by a whole lot.
but better than i dun eat anything right?
tml duno will eat not. see how. =p
my uncle says he is sending his daughter here to study,
haha. hopefully really will send.
then. we can rent a whole flat. and we can have cousins chalet le. LOL.
imagine all the gina stay together!!! WAH!!!! good!!! soo cool! =D
i'm looking forward to that day. =)
gastric shooOoooooooooOOOOoooOOoOOOoOOooOo!!! i DON'T like gastric!
OH! and i finally called mad girl yst! HAHA! nice chat! haha! hope to see you soon! =D
transportation fee increase le!! =((
i miss him! but i'm trying to get over him! =D
Thursday, October 4, 2007
.tired & sleepy eyes.
but i can't sleep.
there is something about us.
i don't know what.
sorry. i can't be bothered.
i love him.
i want to go back home.
possible bo?
i am getting lazier and lazier as the days goes by.
don't mistake me for being lazy to do homework or go school k?
after moving in to here,
i am lazy to open my mouth to eat. =X
just like today.
I haven had any proper meal up till this time. 5.49. =/
reason being, the food center is so damn far.
but then again i think even if d food court is anywhere near. i think i am just lazy to step out from the house la. =X
i am so damn lazy to walk.
how i wish i had a car. =(
days when i am eating are days when i am at my cousin Lowie house.
cause she is a very free girl now. no work.
with only school and assignments and exams coming up.
lazy me is off to work now.
.hidden words. hidden meaning.
but i can't sleep.
there is something about us.
i don't know what.
sorry. i can't be bothered.
i love him.
i want to go back home.
possible bo?
i am getting lazier and lazier as the days goes by.
don't mistake me for being lazy to do homework or go school k?
after moving in to here,
i am lazy to open my mouth to eat. =X
just like today.
I haven had any proper meal up till this time. 5.49. =/
reason being, the food center is so damn far.
but then again i think even if d food court is anywhere near. i think i am just lazy to step out from the house la. =X
i am so damn lazy to walk.
how i wish i had a car. =(
days when i am eating are days when i am at my cousin Lowie house.
cause she is a very free girl now. no work.
with only school and assignments and exams coming up.
lazy me is off to work now.
.hidden words. hidden meaning.
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
i guess recently i have been very weird?
but everything seems fine to me.
ling hui keep asking me,
"lily, today what happen? why you weird weird 1..?"
hmm.. fact is nth happen. i also duno why. i am sorry if i offended you in any way okies?
but i really don't know what is wrong with me la. =X
tml, Friday, Saturday. working. =(
do you realize?
no talk. since you don't understand. and i don't wish to talk to u.
do whatever you want to do. i can't be bothered.
but everything seems fine to me.
ling hui keep asking me,
"lily, today what happen? why you weird weird 1..?"
hmm.. fact is nth happen. i also duno why. i am sorry if i offended you in any way okies?
but i really don't know what is wrong with me la. =X
tml, Friday, Saturday. working. =(
do you realize?
no talk. since you don't understand. and i don't wish to talk to u.
do whatever you want to do. i can't be bothered.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
i'm not fussy ok.
i'm staying here till i graduate, i guess. =D
very funny. very weird. we stay in the same house. YET we are talking through msn.
i don't like this.
not that i want to talk to you in person.
we should cut short on this kind of stupid thingy.
NOT healthy.
.PROTECT MYSELF.
i have so much things to share with you.
yet i guess, i should just forget about it.
i know the things has passed for quite sometime.
to you, it means nothing, but to me, it changed me a lot as a person.
after that "happening", i am sort of traumatized.
i know people will say,
"Don't be stupid la. Also nothing happen lo. U trauma what."
seriously, I've become a little bit anti-social. i choose people whom i should talk to.
I became wary of people.
for guys, i only talk to those i know, those whom i don't and i don't wish to make friends with i will just heck them. treat them as invincible.
i don't dare to stay out late anymore.
Just like the supper i went with heup, ger & hl.
i tot after ger drop me off at least someone will acc me up to my block. at least to the lift la.
but! OMG! no 1 acc-ed me.
know what i did? when i got off d car after they left, i ran all the way to the lift.
cuz i got very scared.
i see guys around and it's so dark.
now, i often imagines bad scenario. YES. FRIGHTENING scenario. i am not some stupid freak, but yes. after that incident, i am scared of almost everything.
everytime i walk, i will look back turn around to see of anyone is following, anyone is around.
In the past, i can just stay out late until 1 or 2 am, without worrying about anything. i only need a person to keep me accompanied through sms, he/she doesn't have to be physically there beside me, just keep me accompanied through sms and i will not be afraid of anything and just walk back home.
Now, i can't do the same. even though i see two policeman patrolling that night, i still got very scared. i just ran all the way to the lift.
the bad thing is. I love staying out late. =(
rmb how i used to ask ppl not to go home and ton the night away.
NOW, i will say, I'm going home latest at 9.
I prefer night time than day time.
But i can't do that anymore. i can't unless someone is seeing me home.
making sure i reach home safely.
I am like freaked out at the slightest happening now.
and i am afraid of the dark even more now.
i switched on the night light to sleep now. when usually i will pester and force my mom to switch off the night light, cuz its too bright and i can't sleep. now, i myself, needs the night light.
Cuz i can't sleep in the dark. I am just very scared. I am scared that someone will somehow get into my room and i won't notice him/her. I am scared.
.一路好走.
i'm staying here till i graduate, i guess. =D
very funny. very weird. we stay in the same house. YET we are talking through msn.
i don't like this.
not that i want to talk to you in person.
we should cut short on this kind of stupid thingy.
NOT healthy.
.PROTECT MYSELF.
i have so much things to share with you.
yet i guess, i should just forget about it.
i know the things has passed for quite sometime.
to you, it means nothing, but to me, it changed me a lot as a person.
after that "happening", i am sort of traumatized.
i know people will say,
"Don't be stupid la. Also nothing happen lo. U trauma what."
seriously, I've become a little bit anti-social. i choose people whom i should talk to.
I became wary of people.
for guys, i only talk to those i know, those whom i don't and i don't wish to make friends with i will just heck them. treat them as invincible.
i don't dare to stay out late anymore.
Just like the supper i went with heup, ger & hl.
i tot after ger drop me off at least someone will acc me up to my block. at least to the lift la.
but! OMG! no 1 acc-ed me.
know what i did? when i got off d car after they left, i ran all the way to the lift.
cuz i got very scared.
i see guys around and it's so dark.
now, i often imagines bad scenario. YES. FRIGHTENING scenario. i am not some stupid freak, but yes. after that incident, i am scared of almost everything.
everytime i walk, i will look back turn around to see of anyone is following, anyone is around.
In the past, i can just stay out late until 1 or 2 am, without worrying about anything. i only need a person to keep me accompanied through sms, he/she doesn't have to be physically there beside me, just keep me accompanied through sms and i will not be afraid of anything and just walk back home.
Now, i can't do the same. even though i see two policeman patrolling that night, i still got very scared. i just ran all the way to the lift.
the bad thing is. I love staying out late. =(
rmb how i used to ask ppl not to go home and ton the night away.
NOW, i will say, I'm going home latest at 9.
I prefer night time than day time.
But i can't do that anymore. i can't unless someone is seeing me home.
making sure i reach home safely.
I am like freaked out at the slightest happening now.
and i am afraid of the dark even more now.
i switched on the night light to sleep now. when usually i will pester and force my mom to switch off the night light, cuz its too bright and i can't sleep. now, i myself, needs the night light.
Cuz i can't sleep in the dark. I am just very scared. I am scared that someone will somehow get into my room and i won't notice him/her. I am scared.
.一路好走.
Monday, October 1, 2007
.finally talked.
today second day staying at new place.
everything is fine, except that. HAHA.
i don't know how to open the woody door and the metal door. =X
yst was the metal door. today the woody door.
so paisehs la. they keep laughing at me. -.-''
they say i bo strength don't know how to open door. =X
i will familiarize myself with the door. =)
it's a very nice feeling to get certain things off your chest. =)
thank you for not making me feel so disappointed. =)
i don't know him personally, nor have i ever seen him.
still i hope.
hope he will pass on peacefully.
一路好走
today second day staying at new place.
everything is fine, except that. HAHA.
i don't know how to open the woody door and the metal door. =X
yst was the metal door. today the woody door.
so paisehs la. they keep laughing at me. -.-''
they say i bo strength don't know how to open door. =X
i will familiarize myself with the door. =)
it's a very nice feeling to get certain things off your chest. =)
thank you for not making me feel so disappointed. =)
i don't know him personally, nor have i ever seen him.
still i hope.
hope he will pass on peacefully.
一路好走
Saturday, September 29, 2007
.moving. yes. today.
not looking forward. like what i told them, i prefer staying with someone i know rather than this kind of stranger-relative-friend-kinda relationship place. =X
whatever it is. complaining is no longer valid. so. yeah. pray with me together. hoping that i will stay there safely without any stupid things happening again. THANK YOU! =)
so fast. October is coming. I have 2 test coming up in the 1st 2 weeks.
MATHS & PBF.
I'm.. OK la.. prepared. =)
MATHS. as long as the formulas is in my head, i will pass with flying colours.
PBF, i read, practiced. IF i can remember and apply well. THEN. GOOD FOR ME! I will be able to pass.
Ironically, tests in SIM. are optional. =p
HA HA! like maths. Dr Phil said, those who doesn't want to sit for it, can go home after the break, those who wishes to take the test den stay for the test lo.
Then, for PBF i don't know... =P
I am a good girl. SO i am going for both test. might as well. see how much i have learnt these two months? =)
i Love my aunt loads. She is a very sweet lady. I love her.
i feel like i have so many mama's. they are all my mom's sisters. =)
they treat me like their own daughter. Thank Yous!
know the bracelet i have, that i always put on? the one with LOVE?? =)
my aunt bought it for me. has a lot of sentimental value. when she bought this bracelet 4 me, we were still staying at the house that i loved a lot. so haha. yesh. i love this bracelet she bought for me for my 17th birthday alot! and i have been putting it on with me since then. =D
why is it none of my aunts are in singapore?
if at least one of them are here. then i wont be so troubled now. cuz my 'god-mom' is here with me. of course it will be better if my parents are here, but not possible la. =/
whatever it is. i love my family. =D
family and friends are both very important to me. =)
。其实幸福很简单。
not looking forward. like what i told them, i prefer staying with someone i know rather than this kind of stranger-relative-friend-kinda relationship place. =X
whatever it is. complaining is no longer valid. so. yeah. pray with me together. hoping that i will stay there safely without any stupid things happening again. THANK YOU! =)
so fast. October is coming. I have 2 test coming up in the 1st 2 weeks.
MATHS & PBF.
I'm.. OK la.. prepared. =)
MATHS. as long as the formulas is in my head, i will pass with flying colours.
PBF, i read, practiced. IF i can remember and apply well. THEN. GOOD FOR ME! I will be able to pass.
Ironically, tests in SIM. are optional. =p
HA HA! like maths. Dr Phil said, those who doesn't want to sit for it, can go home after the break, those who wishes to take the test den stay for the test lo.
Then, for PBF i don't know... =P
I am a good girl. SO i am going for both test. might as well. see how much i have learnt these two months? =)
i Love my aunt loads. She is a very sweet lady. I love her.
i feel like i have so many mama's. they are all my mom's sisters. =)
they treat me like their own daughter. Thank Yous!
know the bracelet i have, that i always put on? the one with LOVE?? =)
my aunt bought it for me. has a lot of sentimental value. when she bought this bracelet 4 me, we were still staying at the house that i loved a lot. so haha. yesh. i love this bracelet she bought for me for my 17th birthday alot! and i have been putting it on with me since then. =D
why is it none of my aunts are in singapore?
if at least one of them are here. then i wont be so troubled now. cuz my 'god-mom' is here with me. of course it will be better if my parents are here, but not possible la. =/
whatever it is. i love my family. =D
family and friends are both very important to me. =)
。其实幸福很简单。
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
actually. what do i really want?
i miss him a lot.
yet. i don't want to look for him.
i want to talk to him.
yet. i don't want to call him, when all i need is open my mouth.
i want everything to fall back in place.
yet. everything seems to be standing still. not moving at all.
i miss home a lot.
yet. i can't go back home.
where did the problem lies?
.i am fine. no worries. just random thoughts.
work. go school. have my meals. get my pay. make new friends. keep in contact with current friends. talk crap. help others in need. miss home. miss papa & mama. miss him. sleep. rest. listen to music. watch television. msn. friendster. multiply. yahoo. hotmail. crunchyroll. tudou. edison. phone calls. wash clothes. hang clothes. iron clothes. bathe. brush teeth. facials. walking here and there. mark assignments. scold students. read up notes. read up. read. read.
this is how i am leading my life now. meaningless? VERY! but i am trying to improve. =)
NO WORK tonight!
because it is MOONcake festival! =)
NO WORK next monday! HAHA!
because it is CHILDRENs DAY!!
VERY GOOD!!! VERY GOOD!!! =)
你是问真的还是问假的？
有些事情你越不去想他， 他就偏偏一直待在你身边。。。 烦！
不想和你说话。。
我的愿望还没成真。。。。。。。。。
Bestie! i want to meet up with u!
Mad! i want to meet up with u!
Ade! i want to meet up with u!
Ade! i want to meet up with u!
Mad! i want to meet up with u!
Bestie! i want to meet up with u!
Hope you girls are doing very fine!
i miss him a lot.
yet. i don't want to look for him.
i want to talk to him.
yet. i don't want to call him, when all i need is open my mouth.
i want everything to fall back in place.
yet. everything seems to be standing still. not moving at all.
i miss home a lot.
yet. i can't go back home.
where did the problem lies?
.i am fine. no worries. just random thoughts.
work. go school. have my meals. get my pay. make new friends. keep in contact with current friends. talk crap. help others in need. miss home. miss papa & mama. miss him. sleep. rest. listen to music. watch television. msn. friendster. multiply. yahoo. hotmail. crunchyroll. tudou. edison. phone calls. wash clothes. hang clothes. iron clothes. bathe. brush teeth. facials. walking here and there. mark assignments. scold students. read up notes. read up. read. read.
this is how i am leading my life now. meaningless? VERY! but i am trying to improve. =)
NO WORK tonight!
because it is MOONcake festival! =)
NO WORK next monday! HAHA!
because it is CHILDRENs DAY!!
VERY GOOD!!! VERY GOOD!!! =)
你是问真的还是问假的？
有些事情你越不去想他， 他就偏偏一直待在你身边。。。 烦！
不想和你说话。。
我的愿望还没成真。。。。。。。。。
Bestie! i want to meet up with u!
Mad! i want to meet up with u!
Ade! i want to meet up with u!
Ade! i want to meet up with u!
Mad! i want to meet up with u!
Bestie! i want to meet up with u!
Hope you girls are doing very fine!
Monday, September 24, 2007
i'm fine. i'm ok. i'm not sick. i am all well. just stressed out. that is all.
.no worries.
i told her i don't want to work ald.
then she din say "OK".
but now i think again i think she indirectly said OK.
cuz she said go find something i like to do mahs.
and teaching is definitely not one.
hmm... hmmm...
anw, i hafta wait till they finish exams?? yeaps.
i really don't want to work le la.
cuz, i'm now going there for the sake of going there.
then she still ask me go there earli so i can ask her qns.
what's the use lo. i don't like gg there early. that is the problem.
and i am no longer interested in teaching. so what's the use?
i want to reach on the DOT. at least 5 to 10 mins earlier la. i am not that bad. =X
school's fine today. =)
moving out on sat.
not looking forward to it.
but mama as me try 1st. really dun like then move out again.
like. mama!!! shifting hse is not fun.
i'm looking forward to PAY DAY.
it's 2.45 ald.
sighs.
time to go work. =(
.no worries.
i told her i don't want to work ald.
then she din say "OK".
but now i think again i think she indirectly said OK.
cuz she said go find something i like to do mahs.
and teaching is definitely not one.
hmm... hmmm...
anw, i hafta wait till they finish exams?? yeaps.
i really don't want to work le la.
cuz, i'm now going there for the sake of going there.
then she still ask me go there earli so i can ask her qns.
what's the use lo. i don't like gg there early. that is the problem.
and i am no longer interested in teaching. so what's the use?
i want to reach on the DOT. at least 5 to 10 mins earlier la. i am not that bad. =X
school's fine today. =)
moving out on sat.
not looking forward to it.
but mama as me try 1st. really dun like then move out again.
like. mama!!! shifting hse is not fun.
i'm looking forward to PAY DAY.
it's 2.45 ald.
sighs.
time to go work. =(
Friday, September 21, 2007
i just reached "home" from work. =(
tired. i came back here to get clothes for tml. =)
tml still got to work. hopefully, tml will be a better day.
yeaps. tml will be better bahs.
ha!
today had a sudden high fever.
my students kept asking me if i am ok not.
cuz i look very sick.
and i can feel my body temperature.
not the normal temperature. =X
very warm. very hot.
then i thought y ling hui so accurate 1, cuz i was complaining of my whole body aching during class in d morn. den she said, u might be having flu le... =X
den i was thinking CHOY! i cannot fall sick la. i still have loads of things waiting for me to finish.
so i quickly take the bottle of water and drank 3/4 of the 1L of water.
usually my 1 litre can take about 1 week to finish. =X
phew! luckily, at 730 i'm much better le. =)
my students today. duno what is wrong with them la. omg.
i tot i kept doing wrong things.
cuz they keep asking me.
"teacher is like that mehs? our answer different from urs lehs!"
den i panicked. so i redo in front of them. in the end.
I AM RIGHT LORHS!!!
scare me!
anyways, they are having their end of year exams, PSLE, Streaming, O'levels soon. HEE HEE!!!
which also means that i am going to have my holidays of working very very soon. =D
hopefully.
yeaps.
i'm super tired.
i don't know if i made the right choice by getting into SIM.
i hope i did.
anyways. whatever it is. i just have to put my best in it.
pass my
1st yr,
2nd year,
3rd year.
graduate with a first class honors, if possible. =)
Ling Hui we will work hard together ok?
Don't give up! =)
oh wells, nothing is impossible right?
haha! =)
I sometimes wish that all those predictions "clever" people made about me
are going to be all correct.
I sometimes hope that all those "lines" in my hand represent the correct predictions they made.
yeahs. so that i will
stop pinning. stop hoping. stop thinking.
and just wait for everything to fall in place.
how nice.
maybe everything is predestined, but do we actually have the chance to change anything?
i need to think of ways to help save around 20K so that kor kor can faster get into university.
den mama & papa won't be so kek sim. they wanted him to be independent in US.. haiyas.. i also duno la... but.. since i can help why not right??
maybe i shouldn't quit my job anymore.
just guai guai cont working.
den i can save more. cuz.
hais. now, i have to start saving for kor-kor le.
hopefully i can help. =)
is money really that important!???!?!
blessed & fortunate are those children who have rich parents who have millions and billions of dollars prepared to let them spend.
i am envious. not jealous.
i have my own ways and means to get them too. =)
sometimes money is not everything. =)
ok. time to go cousin house.
i am not allowed to stay here for the night. =X
.the woman in me needs the man in you.
tired. i came back here to get clothes for tml. =)
tml still got to work. hopefully, tml will be a better day.
yeaps. tml will be better bahs.
ha!
today had a sudden high fever.
my students kept asking me if i am ok not.
cuz i look very sick.
and i can feel my body temperature.
not the normal temperature. =X
very warm. very hot.
then i thought y ling hui so accurate 1, cuz i was complaining of my whole body aching during class in d morn. den she said, u might be having flu le... =X
den i was thinking CHOY! i cannot fall sick la. i still have loads of things waiting for me to finish.
so i quickly take the bottle of water and drank 3/4 of the 1L of water.
usually my 1 litre can take about 1 week to finish. =X
phew! luckily, at 730 i'm much better le. =)
my students today. duno what is wrong with them la. omg.
i tot i kept doing wrong things.
cuz they keep asking me.
"teacher is like that mehs? our answer different from urs lehs!"
den i panicked. so i redo in front of them. in the end.
I AM RIGHT LORHS!!!
scare me!
anyways, they are having their end of year exams, PSLE, Streaming, O'levels soon. HEE HEE!!!
which also means that i am going to have my holidays of working very very soon. =D
hopefully.
yeaps.
i'm super tired.
i don't know if i made the right choice by getting into SIM.
i hope i did.
anyways. whatever it is. i just have to put my best in it.
pass my
1st yr,
2nd year,
3rd year.
graduate with a first class honors, if possible. =)
Ling Hui we will work hard together ok?
Don't give up! =)
oh wells, nothing is impossible right?
haha! =)
I sometimes wish that all those predictions "clever" people made about me
are going to be all correct.
I sometimes hope that all those "lines" in my hand represent the correct predictions they made.
yeahs. so that i will
stop pinning. stop hoping. stop thinking.
and just wait for everything to fall in place.
how nice.
maybe everything is predestined, but do we actually have the chance to change anything?
i need to think of ways to help save around 20K so that kor kor can faster get into university.
den mama & papa won't be so kek sim. they wanted him to be independent in US.. haiyas.. i also duno la... but.. since i can help why not right??
maybe i shouldn't quit my job anymore.
just guai guai cont working.
den i can save more. cuz.
hais. now, i have to start saving for kor-kor le.
hopefully i can help. =)
is money really that important!???!?!
blessed & fortunate are those children who have rich parents who have millions and billions of dollars prepared to let them spend.
i am envious. not jealous.
i have my own ways and means to get them too. =)
sometimes money is not everything. =)
ok. time to go cousin house.
i am not allowed to stay here for the night. =X
.the woman in me needs the man in you.
I haven't been a good girl this week and i paid for it.
Yeahs! Serves me right!
Learnt from my lesson though. =)
went for this workshop yesterday.
one word i brought back form the workshop.
.NETWORKING.
basically, i'm supposed to have at least 2000 contacts in my phone book by the time i graduate from SIM. Possible??? YESH!
hahaha.. will try my best to socialise and make more friends!! =)
and something struck me yst!
am i going to be an accountant for the rest of my life?!?!?!
nvms. shall graduate with the degree first. =)
number changed.
my old number is still available. still can be used.
but i seldom check it.
so if u want to contact me. go to my new number.
sack me PLEASE.
working as a promoter is so so much better. =)
i called my mom telling her that i don't want to work as a tutor anymore.
i'd rather find a low paid part time job that doesn't need my brain.
serious.
i don't want to fail my 1st year.
AND SHE SAID...
OKAY CAN!
get a lower paid job. don't stress yourself. i understand.
just don't tire yourself. studies still come FIRST. =)
i know everyone's been trying to help me.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
everything changes. nothing is permanent.
just like our relationship.
we ended this unknown relationship.
we are more like a stranger now than friends.
no one will forever stay on the top of the wheel. what goes up will always come down.
just like, no one will forever stay under the wheel. what is down will also go up.
is it always true?
i've experience my fair share of being on top and now being on the lower part.
i believe soon i will get to go up there again. =)
and everyone know it's happiness being on top. cuz everything seems so perfect. =)
.BERDUA PASTI LEBIH BAIK.
Yeahs! Serves me right!
Learnt from my lesson though. =)
went for this workshop yesterday.
one word i brought back form the workshop.
.NETWORKING.
basically, i'm supposed to have at least 2000 contacts in my phone book by the time i graduate from SIM. Possible??? YESH!
hahaha.. will try my best to socialise and make more friends!! =)
and something struck me yst!
am i going to be an accountant for the rest of my life?!?!?!
nvms. shall graduate with the degree first. =)
number changed.
my old number is still available. still can be used.
but i seldom check it.
so if u want to contact me. go to my new number.
sack me PLEASE.
working as a promoter is so so much better. =)
i called my mom telling her that i don't want to work as a tutor anymore.
i'd rather find a low paid part time job that doesn't need my brain.
serious.
i don't want to fail my 1st year.
AND SHE SAID...
OKAY CAN!
get a lower paid job. don't stress yourself. i understand.
just don't tire yourself. studies still come FIRST. =)
i know everyone's been trying to help me.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
everything changes. nothing is permanent.
just like our relationship.
we ended this unknown relationship.
we are more like a stranger now than friends.
no one will forever stay on the top of the wheel. what goes up will always come down.
just like, no one will forever stay under the wheel. what is down will also go up.
is it always true?
i've experience my fair share of being on top and now being on the lower part.
i believe soon i will get to go up there again. =)
and everyone know it's happiness being on top. cuz everything seems so perfect. =)
.BERDUA PASTI LEBIH BAIK.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
think positively.
no news means good news.
i'll change 2 new number tomorrow. yeaps. =)
the new number is..
1st number : is 1 added to my 1st number of my old number-
2nd & 3rd number: is d same as the 1st number of my old number-
4th number: is 1 added to the 2nd number of my old number-
5th number: same as d 1st number of my old number-
6th number: is my birth-date
7th & 8th number: is the same as the 7th and 8th number of my old number.
....
understand??? then... CONGRATS!!! u got my new number!
i am looking forward to saturday outing with the girlssss!!! =D
give me lots of energy to hold out till the last day of my life! =)
no news means good news.
i'll change 2 new number tomorrow. yeaps. =)
the new number is..
1st number : is 1 added to my 1st number of my old number-
2nd & 3rd number: is d same as the 1st number of my old number-
4th number: is 1 added to the 2nd number of my old number-
5th number: same as d 1st number of my old number-
6th number: is my birth-date
7th & 8th number: is the same as the 7th and 8th number of my old number.
....
understand??? then... CONGRATS!!! u got my new number!
i am looking forward to saturday outing with the girlssss!!! =D
give me lots of energy to hold out till the last day of my life! =)
very very unlucky!
gosh! i seriously think that i am in a down and low state these few weeks.
like.. yah.. i'm in a series of very very bad luck.. so stay away from me!
its just last week that that happened to me and i have to move immediately.
just now, i went school.. got down the bus, then just as i was scanning my ez-linkcard, i received a phone call telling me that class is canceled.
THANKS!
so i got down the bus.. crossed the bridge and boarded another bus home.
THANKS!
these 2 days those brats are getting on my nerves (im talking abt my students)
they have been giving me serious attitude problems and they just yeahs! spoil my whole day.
THANKS!
I'm thinking of job hopping.
changing into another profession. not teaching. daRn. it's not easy being a teacher. now i respect teachers even more. i salute them. really. i am serious.
i am also serious about job hopping. forget about the pay and everything. teaching is not easy. its not my cup of tea.
anw, these series of "unlucky-ness".. bad days..
sort of yeahs. percobaan.
shall think positively..=p
me moving hse, means that i will be staying ina much safer environment.
me having my class cancelled means that i can stay home all day todae, i get to rest.
me having attitude & irritating students means that i am now more tolerant and more patient. =p
gosh! i seriously think that i am in a down and low state these few weeks.
like.. yah.. i'm in a series of very very bad luck.. so stay away from me!
its just last week that that happened to me and i have to move immediately.
just now, i went school.. got down the bus, then just as i was scanning my ez-linkcard, i received a phone call telling me that class is canceled.
THANKS!
so i got down the bus.. crossed the bridge and boarded another bus home.
THANKS!
these 2 days those brats are getting on my nerves (im talking abt my students)
they have been giving me serious attitude problems and they just yeahs! spoil my whole day.
THANKS!
I'm thinking of job hopping.
changing into another profession. not teaching. daRn. it's not easy being a teacher. now i respect teachers even more. i salute them. really. i am serious.
i am also serious about job hopping. forget about the pay and everything. teaching is not easy. its not my cup of tea.
anw, these series of "unlucky-ness".. bad days..
sort of yeahs. percobaan.
shall think positively..=p
me moving hse, means that i will be staying ina much safer environment.
me having my class cancelled means that i can stay home all day todae, i get to rest.
me having attitude & irritating students means that i am now more tolerant and more patient. =p
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
i bought a new number on saturday.. gave a few of my frens my new number..
on monday... sms-ed a few of my other frens d number..
now... i think i've forgotten who i msged abt my new number..=X
i can only remember several of those whom i know i din tell.
the rest.. =X
i really duno who else... =X
how?
so those whom i really missed out.
i am very very sorry.
VERY.. =X
so if i missed u out..
leave me a message.. here.. fs.. or msn...
i prefer my old number leiss.... dun like the new 1 cuz it started with a '9'
but there is 3 '8'-s in d new number tho.. =X
i finished packing half of my stuffs le.
left clothes and some dumbo stuffs.
hopefully i'll be able to finish them very very soon. =)
talking about msn..
i will not be online for these 2 weeks.
i got to talk to Sisilia yst..
she's now at Seattle.
her dorm is NICE!!! d environment is damnnn nice can!!!
and yah.. everything is NICE...
i dun tink we can find such a place in singapore.
not possible.
i got to catch up with bea's life too.
she is doing so fine in indonesia.
i'm also envious!
i wishhh wisshhhh wisshhh...
my wishes will come true..
I just realised that i'm moving to my new place next sunday. ^^
so fast~~~
and i very long nv talk to ... le.
我许了个愿， 等待它成真！
on monday... sms-ed a few of my other frens d number..
now... i think i've forgotten who i msged abt my new number..=X
i can only remember several of those whom i know i din tell.
the rest.. =X
i really duno who else... =X
how?
so those whom i really missed out.
i am very very sorry.
VERY.. =X
so if i missed u out..
leave me a message.. here.. fs.. or msn...
i prefer my old number leiss.... dun like the new 1 cuz it started with a '9'
but there is 3 '8'-s in d new number tho.. =X
i finished packing half of my stuffs le.
left clothes and some dumbo stuffs.
hopefully i'll be able to finish them very very soon. =)
talking about msn..
i will not be online for these 2 weeks.
i got to talk to Sisilia yst..
she's now at Seattle.
her dorm is NICE!!! d environment is damnnn nice can!!!
and yah.. everything is NICE...
i dun tink we can find such a place in singapore.
not possible.
i got to catch up with bea's life too.
she is doing so fine in indonesia.
i'm also envious!
i wishhh wisshhhh wisshhh...
my wishes will come true..
I just realised that i'm moving to my new place next sunday. ^^
so fast~~~
and i very long nv talk to ... le.
我许了个愿， 等待它成真！
okays. i'll be officially moving room on the 30 sept.
hopefully. this place will suit me.
hope it will be as comfy as this room. [note: i typed ROOM not FLAT]
hopefully.
so fast found new place. the funny thing is, i din even say i want to move there..
but they make it seem as if i said so.. den er.. Ok lo. move. cuz they bought the bed and stuffs le. so. okay i am moving in. =)
i wanted to move there, cuz i'll have a friend. and like what mad says, dont think so much, if i dont think, people wont think too. but mama don't allow. =X
sorry! anyway thanks for the offer, please do bear in mind that i took that as one of the available option i din totally rule out that option. thank you yeahs! =)
hopefully the new place will be the LAST place i am moving into in my 3 years of study.
i am not asking for a lot. i really hope that the new place wont give me any problems.
work.. hasn't been fine. been very stressed. busy. tired.
i want to thank mad. for EVERYTHING. really. i am grateful. thanks girl! =)
i really think that parents should set a good example to their children.
because your children follows what you did.
even those very ridiculous actions you did.
such as when you use vulgarities on your wife or husband.
such as when you throw your temper and did all the negative actions.
your child follows.
i am not joking.
it's TRUE.
so those daddies and mommies please mind your actions.
if quarreling doesn't solve the problem, then don't quarrel.
if violence doesn't solve the problem, den don't use violence.
if using vulgarities doesn't help, then don't use. what is so nice so great about vulgarities???
it only downgrade your character as a whole.
hopefully. this place will suit me.
hope it will be as comfy as this room. [note: i typed ROOM not FLAT]
hopefully.
so fast found new place. the funny thing is, i din even say i want to move there..
but they make it seem as if i said so.. den er.. Ok lo. move. cuz they bought the bed and stuffs le. so. okay i am moving in. =)
i wanted to move there, cuz i'll have a friend. and like what mad says, dont think so much, if i dont think, people wont think too. but mama don't allow. =X
sorry! anyway thanks for the offer, please do bear in mind that i took that as one of the available option i din totally rule out that option. thank you yeahs! =)
hopefully the new place will be the LAST place i am moving into in my 3 years of study.
i am not asking for a lot. i really hope that the new place wont give me any problems.
work.. hasn't been fine. been very stressed. busy. tired.
i want to thank mad. for EVERYTHING. really. i am grateful. thanks girl! =)
i really think that parents should set a good example to their children.
because your children follows what you did.
even those very ridiculous actions you did.
such as when you use vulgarities on your wife or husband.
such as when you throw your temper and did all the negative actions.
your child follows.
i am not joking.
it's TRUE.
so those daddies and mommies please mind your actions.
if quarreling doesn't solve the problem, then don't quarrel.
if violence doesn't solve the problem, den don't use violence.
if using vulgarities doesn't help, then don't use. what is so nice so great about vulgarities???
it only downgrade your character as a whole.
Monday, September 17, 2007
can i say what i really feel???
honestly.
I dont feel like moving..
i noe all of u are like going to blast at me.
BUT, i realli like this room im staying at months ago till a few days ago.
REALLY.
ITS.... COZY... QUIET... CLEAN.... I just love it la...
AND...
i cleaned this room up with bestie like onli a month ago.
i moved here onli like a month ago.
now i have to clear up my stuffs and move over to another house.
which i am actuali quite reluctant to move over to.
I know its so much SAFER over there.
BUT aiya... cfm will have problems again 1.. i have one in my head now...
and onli mama knows... =(
i dont like staying with relatives 1...
damn ma fann!!!! i Know she is like not connected to me la..
she is my cousin-in-law sister...
very far ald.. but still... stilll we are actuali 1 family.. damn ma fan 1 la..
later what happened b/w me n my cousin happen again den... ho seh liao...
but i think this auntie wun be so ma fan 1..
hais.. den somemore that person is there... he better stay on with his r/ship with the girl.. if not... hais...
i duno la..
i just dun feel like moving.
but i noe i have to... no matter what... gota move...
n yesh i am moving...
soon...
=(((
AND EVERYONE sayS that i cant even stay here even for a night anymore...
den my money... busted... gone... =(((
hais... *sigh*
i realise i've been spending unnecessary money...
all that bloody shit fault!!! bastartsssss!!!!
hais... darn!
i miss having my own room..
my own space.. =(
dont worry. i'm fine ald.
its just tt i am still very frustrated n irritated.
cuz everything is not finalized yet.
everything not yet finalized.
honestly.
I dont feel like moving..
i noe all of u are like going to blast at me.
BUT, i realli like this room im staying at months ago till a few days ago.
REALLY.
ITS.... COZY... QUIET... CLEAN.... I just love it la...
AND...
i cleaned this room up with bestie like onli a month ago.
i moved here onli like a month ago.
now i have to clear up my stuffs and move over to another house.
which i am actuali quite reluctant to move over to.
I know its so much SAFER over there.
BUT aiya... cfm will have problems again 1.. i have one in my head now...
and onli mama knows... =(
i dont like staying with relatives 1...
damn ma fann!!!! i Know she is like not connected to me la..
she is my cousin-in-law sister...
very far ald.. but still... stilll we are actuali 1 family.. damn ma fan 1 la..
later what happened b/w me n my cousin happen again den... ho seh liao...
but i think this auntie wun be so ma fan 1..
hais.. den somemore that person is there... he better stay on with his r/ship with the girl.. if not... hais...
i duno la..
i just dun feel like moving.
but i noe i have to... no matter what... gota move...
n yesh i am moving...
soon...
=(((
AND EVERYONE sayS that i cant even stay here even for a night anymore...
den my money... busted... gone... =(((
hais... *sigh*
i realise i've been spending unnecessary money...
all that bloody shit fault!!! bastartsssss!!!!
hais... darn!
i miss having my own room..
my own space.. =(
dont worry. i'm fine ald.
its just tt i am still very frustrated n irritated.
cuz everything is not finalized yet.
everything not yet finalized.
Friday, September 14, 2007
irritated and
my close frens have been hearing this out from my mouth since yesterday night. *sighs*
i realy dont know what to do. will someone please just help me?
anyone.
i will be very grateful.
please give me the answer to what is happening to me now.
i really dont know what i should do.
i really dont.
on top of school. and work, now i have to encounter with such rubbish.
hais.
i really dont know.
i really dont.
really dont.
i am confused.
out of so many people why me?
i keep thinking.. maybe things aren't as bad as we thought it is.
Maybe he had a good intention.
maybe he also don't.
But then again. i should protect myself.
yeah. protect myself. PROTECT MYSELF.
yst was the 3rd time in d year that i cried so badly.
Realy got to thank my dear friends for their help and stuffs.
U guys really helped a lot by even just listening. Yeahs.
Thanks for talking to me, thanks for caring. Thank you. Thanks!
Thank you cousin Lowie for coming by my place today. =)
Thanks 2 cousin & couisn in law for providing me with a place to stay yesterday, today, tml & sunday night.
I will find a place to move as soon as possible?
In the mean time.. IF anyone know of anyone who wants to rent out their room..
an all female environment, accessible, reasonable price, safe place, anywhere at clementi & bukit panjang is fine.
I need to move out AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.
i hope to get a place from someone i know. it will be safer.
I need to protect myself.
YOUR HELP WILL BE GREATLY APPRECIATED BY ME.
thank yous!
and from now on, i will STOP being so friendly. I really will.
i don't want to get into any kind of stupid situation like this ANYMORE.
somehow my friendliness has brought trouble upon me.
I am changing my phone number soon.
maybe today or tomorrow le.
asap.
those who doesnt know my number... in case i missed out ur name.. =X
.NONSENSE.
I am now learning how to say NO to people.
I am now learning to stop being nice to people.
If not, i guess the word "please bully me" will always be on my forehead.
do i have the look like i love having people to bully, tease and take advantage of me?
bastarts!!
my close frens have been hearing this out from my mouth since yesterday night. *sighs*
i realy dont know what to do. will someone please just help me?
anyone.
i will be very grateful.
please give me the answer to what is happening to me now.
i really dont know what i should do.
i really dont.
on top of school. and work, now i have to encounter with such rubbish.
hais.
i really dont know.
i really dont.
really dont.
i am confused.
out of so many people why me?
i keep thinking.. maybe things aren't as bad as we thought it is.
Maybe he had a good intention.
maybe he also don't.
But then again. i should protect myself.
yeah. protect myself. PROTECT MYSELF.
yst was the 3rd time in d year that i cried so badly.
Realy got to thank my dear friends for their help and stuffs.
U guys really helped a lot by even just listening. Yeahs.
Thanks for talking to me, thanks for caring. Thank you. Thanks!
Thank you cousin Lowie for coming by my place today. =)
Thanks 2 cousin & couisn in law for providing me with a place to stay yesterday, today, tml & sunday night.
I will find a place to move as soon as possible?
In the mean time.. IF anyone know of anyone who wants to rent out their room..
an all female environment, accessible, reasonable price, safe place, anywhere at clementi & bukit panjang is fine.
I need to move out AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.
i hope to get a place from someone i know. it will be safer.
I need to protect myself.
YOUR HELP WILL BE GREATLY APPRECIATED BY ME.
thank yous!
and from now on, i will STOP being so friendly. I really will.
i don't want to get into any kind of stupid situation like this ANYMORE.
somehow my friendliness has brought trouble upon me.
I am changing my phone number soon.
maybe today or tomorrow le.
asap.
those who doesnt know my number... in case i missed out ur name.. =X
.NONSENSE.
I am now learning how to say NO to people.
I am now learning to stop being nice to people.
If not, i guess the word "please bully me" will always be on my forehead.
do i have the look like i love having people to bully, tease and take advantage of me?
bastarts!!
i am very confused.
I really don't know what to do.
I am bringing so much trouble for myself and so many people.
what if we made the wrong assumption?
Maybe he didn't mean it that way?
I don't know.
I don't want to create another trouble out of nowhere.
why am i always this naive, this stupid, this gullible, this friendly, this responsible, this idiotic.
Sometimes i think that people are taking my friendliness for granted.
they think that with me being nice they can climb over my head.
after so much hassle. i still have to move back to that place.
this is plain stupidity.
now i need to start from scratch again and find a new place to move.
yet. i still don't know if i can move out from here or not.
this is the first time i'm doing everything on my own.
YET.
FAILED.
I really don't know what to do.
I am bringing so much trouble for myself and so many people.
what if we made the wrong assumption?
Maybe he didn't mean it that way?
I don't know.
I don't want to create another trouble out of nowhere.
why am i always this naive, this stupid, this gullible, this friendly, this responsible, this idiotic.
Sometimes i think that people are taking my friendliness for granted.
they think that with me being nice they can climb over my head.
after so much hassle. i still have to move back to that place.
this is plain stupidity.
now i need to start from scratch again and find a new place to move.
yet. i still don't know if i can move out from here or not.
this is the first time i'm doing everything on my own.
YET.
FAILED.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
the fried beehoon at Fajar is not nice.. no wonder it costs a dollar cheaper than that at BB 280... =X
i don't want to go out with u.
it's back to working time again tomorrow.
hais.
i realise i always put myself in very dangerous position.
darn.
i need to start on something new in order to move on.
i want to know.
我许了个愿， 等待它成真。
i don't want to go out with u.
it's back to working time again tomorrow.
hais.
i realise i always put myself in very dangerous position.
darn.
i need to start on something new in order to move on.
i want to know.
我许了个愿， 等待它成真。
i'm HAPPY.
cuz i get to sleep till 10 today & tomorrow! =)))
n i have NO WORK today! =D
only have econ lecture. =)
now lectures no longer bores me.
at least not that bad le la.
cuz i have ling hui who will acc me.
and keep me entertained thruout the lecture.
Thanks girl!
I din know that when my mood changes (like last weekend) i look scary and it seems that i have "get away from me" sign written all over me. thus he did leave me alone and din bother me.
wise choice.
this is what my house mate said. =X
sorry. i am just not in good mood.
had a terrible weekend.
glad it's over.
very tired.
dont feel like doing anything.
period.
wanted to but i din.
cuz i get to sleep till 10 today & tomorrow! =)))
n i have NO WORK today! =D
only have econ lecture. =)
now lectures no longer bores me.
at least not that bad le la.
cuz i have ling hui who will acc me.
and keep me entertained thruout the lecture.
Thanks girl!
I din know that when my mood changes (like last weekend) i look scary and it seems that i have "get away from me" sign written all over me. thus he did leave me alone and din bother me.
wise choice.
this is what my house mate said. =X
sorry. i am just not in good mood.
had a terrible weekend.
glad it's over.
very tired.
dont feel like doing anything.
period.
wanted to but i din.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
bad day.
yesterday ended off badly too.
The two classes aren't cooperative.
punished them.
lectured them.
The sec 4 class. was not fruitful.
PAST TENSE.
HISTORIES.
i am waiting for HER to take action.
eng is NOT my cup of tea.
in fact.
i HATE eng.
i somehow can't get all those Dumbo terms into my head.
i feel eng is somewhat common sense rather than stupidly having to memorize those terms and giving reasons as to why this is not these and that is not those. you think the examiner will ask u why are using this conjunction and not that conjunction?? I somehow just cant absorb all those terms, cuz currently things that is supposed to be in my head are...
assets = liabilities + owner's equity
Hicksian's law of substitution and Slutsky law of substitution.
Debt instruments and equity instruments.
differentiation and integration.
shall apologize to all my prev eng teachers. *sorry*
this morning class.
and they are only in primary TWO.
WORST.
I realize my boy is a much better student than they are.
GOODNESS.
BAD DAY.
9 more hours. den i get to rest. =(
before that i have 3 hours of lecture. & 1 half hr of work. 2 hours of walking and traveling.
I'm tired.
N it's only Tuesday. still have how many more days to go?
i have to reach home at TEN again tonight!
darn!
urghs!
:::::::hint::::::: I don't want to talk to YOU.
我许了个愿， 等待它成真。
yesterday ended off badly too.
The two classes aren't cooperative.
punished them.
lectured them.
The sec 4 class. was not fruitful.
PAST TENSE.
HISTORIES.
i am waiting for HER to take action.
eng is NOT my cup of tea.
in fact.
i HATE eng.
i somehow can't get all those Dumbo terms into my head.
i feel eng is somewhat common sense rather than stupidly having to memorize those terms and giving reasons as to why this is not these and that is not those. you think the examiner will ask u why are using this conjunction and not that conjunction?? I somehow just cant absorb all those terms, cuz currently things that is supposed to be in my head are...
assets = liabilities + owner's equity
Hicksian's law of substitution and Slutsky law of substitution.
Debt instruments and equity instruments.
differentiation and integration.
shall apologize to all my prev eng teachers. *sorry*
this morning class.
and they are only in primary TWO.
WORST.
I realize my boy is a much better student than they are.
GOODNESS.
BAD DAY.
9 more hours. den i get to rest. =(
before that i have 3 hours of lecture. & 1 half hr of work. 2 hours of walking and traveling.
I'm tired.
N it's only Tuesday. still have how many more days to go?
i have to reach home at TEN again tonight!
darn!
urghs!
:::::::hint::::::: I don't want to talk to YOU.
我许了个愿， 等待它成真。
Monday, September 10, 2007
i have frens for PBF tml...
haha.. we made a deal..
now... me n LH willl acc each other on alt weeks...
1 week she'll go on tues.. den d next i will go on monday... =)
that way, we will have frens... lesson wun be soo boring le.. =)
it's important to have frens.. =D
monday morning passed very fast..
hmm... still okays..
cuz i have LH to acc me today... =)
glad her mom's fine le.. =)
i am crossing all my fingers hoping that i dont have to go work tml morning....
so i can sleep till late late... =D
I made another deal with someone else too...
i will not think.. cuz there is no use thinking...
all worries comes from within u..
if u choose not to think, then all will be fine.. =)
so miss lily.. is learning to stop thinking of useless stuffs. =)
mel.. i went to that kopitiam to buy food le.. =)
my stomach needs to be filled.. soo..
this time round.. they din tease me le..
just that.. yeahs.. they tried having conversations with me...
and.. I paid cheaper... =D
I keep waking up todae.. i think i woke up at like 5+++
den sleep... dennn wake up again...
duno wat is wrong..
but i had a dream todae.
weird dream..
i'm not really looking fwd to class outing.. =X
I'm currently into hokkien songs... hahas... nice songs.. help me de-stress...
must be bcuz of my Dad.. back at home...
he always plays all the hokkien songs.. den i'm so addicted now... =p
whenever i'm unhappy... will just go online and listen to all these Hokkien songs...
actuali hokkien songs are nice..
我许了个愿。。等待它成真。。。=)
haha.. we made a deal..
now... me n LH willl acc each other on alt weeks...
1 week she'll go on tues.. den d next i will go on monday... =)
that way, we will have frens... lesson wun be soo boring le.. =)
it's important to have frens.. =D
monday morning passed very fast..
hmm... still okays..
cuz i have LH to acc me today... =)
glad her mom's fine le.. =)
i am crossing all my fingers hoping that i dont have to go work tml morning....
so i can sleep till late late... =D
I made another deal with someone else too...
i will not think.. cuz there is no use thinking...
all worries comes from within u..
if u choose not to think, then all will be fine.. =)
so miss lily.. is learning to stop thinking of useless stuffs. =)
mel.. i went to that kopitiam to buy food le.. =)
my stomach needs to be filled.. soo..
this time round.. they din tease me le..
just that.. yeahs.. they tried having conversations with me...
and.. I paid cheaper... =D
I keep waking up todae.. i think i woke up at like 5+++
den sleep... dennn wake up again...
duno wat is wrong..
but i had a dream todae.
weird dream..
i'm not really looking fwd to class outing.. =X
I'm currently into hokkien songs... hahas... nice songs.. help me de-stress...
must be bcuz of my Dad.. back at home...
he always plays all the hokkien songs.. den i'm so addicted now... =p
whenever i'm unhappy... will just go online and listen to all these Hokkien songs...
actuali hokkien songs are nice..
我许了个愿。。等待它成真。。。=)
Saturday, September 8, 2007
I haven't been good.
It's obvious.
Been BUSY with my so called INDEPENDENT life.
BUSY with revising school work.
BUSY with work.
BUSY trying to find things to help myself de-stress.
I am also sick of complaining how life has been.
Cuz there is no use complaining.
Just a note to those who DON'T understand anything about the kind of life i am leading now.
SHUT YOUR MOUTH UP.
CLOSE YOUR EYES.
KEEP UR FINGERS TO YOURSELF.
DON'T COME N READ WHAT I'VE BLOGGED ABOUT.
CUZ I THINK IT'LL BE VERY TORTURING FOR YOU.
UNTIL I GET THE KIND OF LIFE THAT I WANT.
I DON'T THINK I WILL STOP COMPLAINING.
Because i get kind of irritated when YOU told me that i have been doing NOTHING except complaining about how GREAT my life has been.
If you want me to write about how beautiful my life is, den try to fulfill what is lost in my life.
in short.
SHUT UP IF YOU DON'T KNOW ME WELL.
DON'T ACT AS IF U KNOW ME WHEN YOU DON'T AT ALL.
I really don't want to resort to saying out nasty things.
I know you are concerned. Thanks. But i dun feel like saying anything. Sorry.
I don't understand why some people cant seem to get the BIG hint i gave.
Thank you David for tonight.
I made a wish tonight, i hope it will come true soon. =)
.DESSERTS.
It's obvious.
Been BUSY with my so called INDEPENDENT life.
BUSY with revising school work.
BUSY with work.
BUSY trying to find things to help myself de-stress.
I am also sick of complaining how life has been.
Cuz there is no use complaining.
Just a note to those who DON'T understand anything about the kind of life i am leading now.
SHUT YOUR MOUTH UP.
CLOSE YOUR EYES.
KEEP UR FINGERS TO YOURSELF.
DON'T COME N READ WHAT I'VE BLOGGED ABOUT.
CUZ I THINK IT'LL BE VERY TORTURING FOR YOU.
UNTIL I GET THE KIND OF LIFE THAT I WANT.
I DON'T THINK I WILL STOP COMPLAINING.
Because i get kind of irritated when YOU told me that i have been doing NOTHING except complaining about how GREAT my life has been.
If you want me to write about how beautiful my life is, den try to fulfill what is lost in my life.
in short.
SHUT UP IF YOU DON'T KNOW ME WELL.
DON'T ACT AS IF U KNOW ME WHEN YOU DON'T AT ALL.
I really don't want to resort to saying out nasty things.
I know you are concerned. Thanks. But i dun feel like saying anything. Sorry.
I don't understand why some people cant seem to get the BIG hint i gave.
Thank you David for tonight.
I made a wish tonight, i hope it will come true soon. =)
.DESSERTS.
pusink!! pusink!!!
cape banget.. 3 minggu ke depan gue bakalan cape banget... gila.. kerja dari senin ampe minggu...
hais.. emank seh.. bisa dapet banyakan duit.. tapi! eh... masa yg gue dapet lebih dikit dari yg gue harus dapet??? kan parah banget yah ga??
hais.. ga tau dhe.. gue kalo mikirin itu gue bisa stress berat...gue beneran kayanya udh ga bisa stay this way lagi.. cape banget n gue pengen banget give up..
hais.. gue pengen pulank.. mau pulank.. beneran pengen pulank! =(
boleh ga. Tuhan kasih gue kesempatan untuk memilih gimana gue harus jalanin hidup ini..
gue cape banget.. pasrah gue akan hidup ini..
kenapa org lain bisa se-seneng itu..
kenapa gue harus jalanin ini semua>?? kenapa?
Tuhan tolong dunk bukain jalan buat aku... Tolong kasih aku petunjuk..
gue udah cape banget dengan hidup ini.. serius.
Gue mau pulank ke rumah yang ada papa sama mama...
gue nga mau hidup yang kaya begini...
kadang gua juga pengen banget ada orang yg care sama gue dalam setiap saat...
gue ga mau hidup gua yang sekarang...
hidup kaya orang bego begini...
kerja sekolah kerja sekolah..
mank gue beneran harus kerja ampe gue mati.
mau pulanK!
cape banget.. 3 minggu ke depan gue bakalan cape banget... gila.. kerja dari senin ampe minggu...
hais.. emank seh.. bisa dapet banyakan duit.. tapi! eh... masa yg gue dapet lebih dikit dari yg gue harus dapet??? kan parah banget yah ga??
hais.. ga tau dhe.. gue kalo mikirin itu gue bisa stress berat...gue beneran kayanya udh ga bisa stay this way lagi.. cape banget n gue pengen banget give up..
hais.. gue pengen pulank.. mau pulank.. beneran pengen pulank! =(
boleh ga. Tuhan kasih gue kesempatan untuk memilih gimana gue harus jalanin hidup ini..
gue cape banget.. pasrah gue akan hidup ini..
kenapa org lain bisa se-seneng itu..
kenapa gue harus jalanin ini semua>?? kenapa?
Tuhan tolong dunk bukain jalan buat aku... Tolong kasih aku petunjuk..
gue udah cape banget dengan hidup ini.. serius.
Gue mau pulank ke rumah yang ada papa sama mama...
gue nga mau hidup yang kaya begini...
kadang gua juga pengen banget ada orang yg care sama gue dalam setiap saat...
gue ga mau hidup gua yang sekarang...
hidup kaya orang bego begini...
kerja sekolah kerja sekolah..
mank gue beneran harus kerja ampe gue mati.
mau pulanK!
Friday, September 7, 2007
bleaghs!
MY precious one week break ends today!!! =(((
5 days school and work.
for the next 3 weeks i will be VERY VERY VERY busy.
both with school and work.
.I BETTER NOT FALL SICK.
I miss home sooo sooo much! =((
MY precious one week break ends today!!! =(((
and i haven done much. =(((
next week..
its back to..5 days school and work.
for the next 3 weeks i will be VERY VERY VERY busy.
both with school and work.
.I BETTER NOT FALL SICK.
I miss home sooo sooo much! =((
and i can go back home only after my exams! *sighs*
Thursday, September 6, 2007
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
SOMETHING VERY GREAT JUST HAPPENED TO ME FEW HOURS AGO..
AND ENDED ONLI LIKE 10-20 MINS AGO...
here it goes....
This afternoon.. i have a class at 3.30...
so i was ald prepared at TWO... bathed and everything...
den i walked out of my room... wanting throw sth....
then suddenly... a gust of wind... blew over... and BOOM!!!
my room is LOCKED...
My bag... books... house & room keys... handphone... are all INSIDE...
as 4 the reason behind y my room is locked...
the room handle.. watever u call that.. is faulty...
so if the door closes by itself... it'll be locked...
and so poor me got locked out from my room.. and got locked in the house...
most importantly.. i dont my hp with me...
cant contact anyone... Luckily there is a house phone in the living room...
so i searched around the living room for the house owner phone numbers...
then there is this 1 starhub phone bill...
den i just called that number... since Mad encouraged me to do so...
and haha! BINGO.. d number belongs to the brother... den i asked 4 d sister's number...
and she asked her maid who is staying a few blocks away to get the spare keys for me...
When she came it was already 430... and somemore..
she got the WRONG keys... so she come oso no use...
so i have to ask the poor maid to go back and get all the keys available over..
and i tried the keys ONE BY ONE....
FINALLY.... DOOR opened at 440...
by that time...
I AM TOO LATE FOR SCHOOL!!!
and its ECONS!!!! =((((
I missed it... =((
what am i supposed to learn from this????
GET a house OF MY OWN...
den i dun have to keep locking and unlocking my room door... den it wont be faulty..
den no matter how strong the wind is... and it blew over...
my room wont be locked and i still can get out from d house....
do you know who is d 1st person i tot of when i am so helpless???
my parents!!!!!! but i cant call them!!!! =((((
so instead i called mad girl... cuz her number is d onli number i rmb at tt time...
mad asked me if i can ask jor they all to come over....
den i said... no use.. they are all not here... all working... n in ns...
bestie is out working.. no point calling her...
den i called Ade.. to ask for Linghui's number...
Now that i think of it.. even if i call ALL of my friends...
none of them can come to my rescue...
except for the house owner and the locksmith... -.-''
Fortunately... i am locked outside my room...
in the house and not some ulu place like d toilet or lift..
if not... i cfm will cry like siao...
Againn.. my mind did run wild when i was locked and alone in d house just now...
i kept thinking.. what happened if... what if.... where can i run if sth bad happens????
stupid me yeahs... but... arghs... i am always like this... what to do????
anyway... thanks loads mad girl for calling me again and again to check if i am ok le nots...
it helps a great deallll...!!! =)
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I found out something yesterday... and it made me feel very horrible...
i should have listened to my friends and parents...
They are right... i still do.... now it's time to let go....
the feeling sucks...
AND ENDED ONLI LIKE 10-20 MINS AGO...
here it goes....
This afternoon.. i have a class at 3.30...
so i was ald prepared at TWO... bathed and everything...
den i walked out of my room... wanting throw sth....
then suddenly... a gust of wind... blew over... and BOOM!!!
my room is LOCKED...
My bag... books... house & room keys... handphone... are all INSIDE...
as 4 the reason behind y my room is locked...
the room handle.. watever u call that.. is faulty...
so if the door closes by itself... it'll be locked...
and so poor me got locked out from my room.. and got locked in the house...
most importantly.. i dont my hp with me...
cant contact anyone... Luckily there is a house phone in the living room...
so i searched around the living room for the house owner phone numbers...
then there is this 1 starhub phone bill...
den i just called that number... since Mad encouraged me to do so...
and haha! BINGO.. d number belongs to the brother... den i asked 4 d sister's number...
and she asked her maid who is staying a few blocks away to get the spare keys for me...
When she came it was already 430... and somemore..
she got the WRONG keys... so she come oso no use...
so i have to ask the poor maid to go back and get all the keys available over..
and i tried the keys ONE BY ONE....
FINALLY.... DOOR opened at 440...
by that time...
I AM TOO LATE FOR SCHOOL!!!
and its ECONS!!!! =((((
I missed it... =((
what am i supposed to learn from this????
GET a house OF MY OWN...
den i dun have to keep locking and unlocking my room door... den it wont be faulty..
den no matter how strong the wind is... and it blew over...
my room wont be locked and i still can get out from d house....
do you know who is d 1st person i tot of when i am so helpless???
my parents!!!!!! but i cant call them!!!! =((((
so instead i called mad girl... cuz her number is d onli number i rmb at tt time...
mad asked me if i can ask jor they all to come over....
den i said... no use.. they are all not here... all working... n in ns...
bestie is out working.. no point calling her...
den i called Ade.. to ask for Linghui's number...
Now that i think of it.. even if i call ALL of my friends...
none of them can come to my rescue...
except for the house owner and the locksmith... -.-''
Fortunately... i am locked outside my room...
in the house and not some ulu place like d toilet or lift..
if not... i cfm will cry like siao...
Againn.. my mind did run wild when i was locked and alone in d house just now...
i kept thinking.. what happened if... what if.... where can i run if sth bad happens????
stupid me yeahs... but... arghs... i am always like this... what to do????
anyway... thanks loads mad girl for calling me again and again to check if i am ok le nots...
it helps a great deallll...!!! =)
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I found out something yesterday... and it made me feel very horrible...
i should have listened to my friends and parents...
They are right... i still do.... now it's time to let go....
the feeling sucks...
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
i made a new "friend" today.. hmm... but.. i guess will be friend for only today ba..
bcuz i dont like the term "we made friends through friendster.. msn.. blablabla.."
i'm sorry.. i find the whole thing very childish and fake... =X
anyways its just coincidence that he added me on friendster..
he mistook me for another girl...
is it in the trend that nowadays guys find girlfriends through internet???? -_-"
guys???
and sg is small..
this new "fren" of mine is actually rov's officer in brunei...
min, hope rov's leg is okay yeahs?? he told me he injured his leg... =X
and he is also wan yi's twin brother officer and he is wan yi's fren...
and he got to know wanyi thru d net too... =X
it's amazing how.. one person can link up to a few people i know...
now... i no longer find using hp any interesting..
it has now became a tool for me to communicate with people onli in times of need.
this also explains why...
i am no longer replying those type of sms-es...
i used to use my phone to chit chat with people sending sms after sms-es just to talk crap...
now i no longer do that..
which is also why i will continue to use prepaid card instead of applying for a new line..
which requires me to pay a fixed amt of bill every month... =X
i guess Lily do grow up yea?
new beginning... new life... all d memories erased...
bcuz i dont like the term "we made friends through friendster.. msn.. blablabla.."
i'm sorry.. i find the whole thing very childish and fake... =X
anyways its just coincidence that he added me on friendster..
he mistook me for another girl...
is it in the trend that nowadays guys find girlfriends through internet???? -_-"
guys???
and sg is small..
this new "fren" of mine is actually rov's officer in brunei...
min, hope rov's leg is okay yeahs?? he told me he injured his leg... =X
and he is also wan yi's twin brother officer and he is wan yi's fren...
and he got to know wanyi thru d net too... =X
it's amazing how.. one person can link up to a few people i know...
now... i no longer find using hp any interesting..
it has now became a tool for me to communicate with people onli in times of need.
this also explains why...
i am no longer replying those type of sms-es...
i used to use my phone to chit chat with people sending sms after sms-es just to talk crap...
now i no longer do that..
which is also why i will continue to use prepaid card instead of applying for a new line..
which requires me to pay a fixed amt of bill every month... =X
i guess Lily do grow up yea?
new beginning... new life... all d memories erased...
Monday, September 3, 2007
Pardon me for the super LOW quality of the pics... =p
wait till i get a new phone... my current phone.. is crazy ald... =X
gota save some money... and... get a new 1 for myself... =D
this is my PINK VAIO..
LOVE it loads...
again thanks to bestie & her parents... =)))
My 猪朋狗友 who accompanies me to sleep evry single night... =D
This blanket.. has been with me since i was 9 yrs old...
The VERY STUPID & RIDICULOUS WORK that i have been doing almost every week now... i'm like re-taking my o's!!!! -_-""
Piles of work... waiting to be marked.....
My work place... =p
wait till i get a new phone... my current phone.. is crazy ald... =X
gota save some money... and... get a new 1 for myself... =D
this is my PINK VAIO..
LOVE it loads...
again thanks to bestie & her parents... =)))
View from my window...
very nice view right?!?!?! =X
My 猪朋狗友 who accompanies me to sleep evry single night... =D
This blanket.. has been with me since i was 9 yrs old...
which means it's here in singapore together with me... from my 1st year all the way to...... =)
The VERY STUPID & RIDICULOUS WORK that i have been doing almost every week now... i'm like re-taking my o's!!!! -_-""
Piles of work... waiting to be marked.....
My work place... =p
decorated by me.... all... mickey mouses & poohs... and... my fam pics... =)
this is the 30cm x 30cm cake which i helped decorate when the person who is supposed to decorate is away... hahas... this is done by Miss Lily... =D
i miss eating all these cakes.... =((
i miss eating all these cakes.... =((
these 2 are the very adorable... cute... lovable.... nephew n niece i have.... i superrrrr misss themmmmmm.... =X
okies... the quality of the pics are really horrible... i shalll re-take all these pics again when i get a new phone for myself! =D
it's time to change for a new 1...
ppl are getting quite irritated when they cant get me on the phone... =X
Sunday, September 2, 2007
i trust ppl very easily...
i really do.. and this is bad!
very bad..
i really can see my reaction and my cousin's reaction when we get some 1st hand informations...
TOTALLY different reactions...
i am too gullible..
those "evil" people always look for preys like me...
see me gong gong... den want take advantage!!! wth... !!! evillll....
I wont fall into their trap though...
cuz there will always be angels around me who will take care of me..
and remind me of things.. And i thank these angels... =)
and i am very very very very very silly...
mel.. now i dont even dare to go to that kopitiam le... =X
i tried going there wanting to buy food... but i walk halfway..
turn back and go home. without buying food la.... !!!!
dumbo me la.. really lorhs.. i also duno what is wrong with me...
stupid them larhs.. duno tease me for what!!!!
hopefully they will have memory loss and forgot about having seen me twice...
i am marking their compos..
omigawd..
i really duno how to give marks...
am i supposed to fail them...
cuz really la... omg..
discussed with cousin about renting a flat at clementi...
hopefully we can reach an agreement... found a flat that we like..
reasonable price and everything.. and we can move in...
like very nice ryt.. staying in ur own rented hse..
den i wun be so lonely anymore...
den i dun need eat alone everyday le...
den i will have people to talk to le... =)))
i'm really looking forward to it larhss...
hopefully... can find yeahs... =)
i asked mom about moving to his hse...
She say... "mai la... mai la..."
so haha... his house option will always be out...
thanks for offering though! Really thanks! =)
maggie mee is not good for health..
sleeping late is not good for health...
skipping meals is not good for health...
i should stop all these unhealthy habits... =X
and...
evil people with ulterior motives...
.STAY AWAY FROM ME.
I M I S S H O M E
i really do.. and this is bad!
very bad..
i really can see my reaction and my cousin's reaction when we get some 1st hand informations...
TOTALLY different reactions...
i am too gullible..
those "evil" people always look for preys like me...
see me gong gong... den want take advantage!!! wth... !!! evillll....
I wont fall into their trap though...
cuz there will always be angels around me who will take care of me..
and remind me of things.. And i thank these angels... =)
and i am very very very very very silly...
mel.. now i dont even dare to go to that kopitiam le... =X
i tried going there wanting to buy food... but i walk halfway..
turn back and go home. without buying food la.... !!!!
dumbo me la.. really lorhs.. i also duno what is wrong with me...
stupid them larhs.. duno tease me for what!!!!
hopefully they will have memory loss and forgot about having seen me twice...
i am marking their compos..
omigawd..
i really duno how to give marks...
am i supposed to fail them...
cuz really la... omg..
discussed with cousin about renting a flat at clementi...
hopefully we can reach an agreement... found a flat that we like..
reasonable price and everything.. and we can move in...
like very nice ryt.. staying in ur own rented hse..
den i wun be so lonely anymore...
den i dun need eat alone everyday le...
den i will have people to talk to le... =)))
i'm really looking forward to it larhss...
hopefully... can find yeahs... =)
i asked mom about moving to his hse...
She say... "mai la... mai la..."
so haha... his house option will always be out...
thanks for offering though! Really thanks! =)
maggie mee is not good for health..
sleeping late is not good for health...
skipping meals is not good for health...
i should stop all these unhealthy habits... =X
and...
evil people with ulterior motives...
.STAY AWAY FROM ME.
I M I S S H O M E
Saturday, September 1, 2007
this fren's fren of mine asked me on the bus last weds if i noe this girl from BBSS named Jocelyn... hmm... i was thinking.. i think is the girl from 4e2... den i "tried" describing her features to my friend... and haha... she said.. "no lei she not like tt 1"...
i just went to log in into my frenster just a while ago.. and.. Joce's profile appeared onmy main page.. den i went to take a look.. "ehs!!! she is the correct girl larhs!!!" am i that bad at desribing people's features??? =X
blahs! anw, Joce's going over to states? or is it australia to further her studies... i dun really know her that well.. or mayb i do.. but im so sorry.. no impression at all.. =X (but then again.. i guess even her own ex-classmate doesnt know about her departure overseas la... =X)
but i guess i know her?? yeaps... =) anw, hopefully she will have a great time there.. be it states or aust... both are places which i really wish to further my studies at... all the best girl! =)
i went to help cousin look after her house and Akong just now...
den the maid told me certain thgs.. got these 2 strangers came to knock door, asks stuffs... bla bla bla... i havent reached when these two strangers came... so i have no idea about how these 2 strangers look like... den when my cousin came home.. i told her...
guess what was her reply??
she said... aiya.. she bluff 1 la.. u beliv her mehs???
hmm... i duno.. but i guess there is nothing to lie about ryt?
why is it so hard for humans to trust each other???
to believe what each other say without any doubts?
-trust-
i told my clementi cousin and a few of my frens about me helping my bukit panjang cousin do this n that...
what is their reply???
"ehs u very free hors.. can help people look after house?"
"they treat u like sai.. u so nice to them for what?''
true.. i agree with them...
why am in wasting my time doing such meaningless stuffs when i can do my own things?
i guess its in d genes la.. my whole family is like tt.. my clementi cousin also says so.. she thinks its in the genes... hahaas...
-forgive and forget-
im still troubled about another stuffs..
place to move to..
what mad says is right la...
like if i dun think soo much ppl wun think too...
hmm... wells, see how...
honestly.. it is very lonely staying alone... VERY...
another thing is work...
i feel so cheated... mayb i shouldnt say this... but...
i duno what to say... but i guess i should get what i deserve right???
i dont want to slog and work like mad.. in return i dun earn much... while other people only need to work one day to earn as much as me... why am i wasting my time right?
-money is the root of all evil-
.him.her.he.she.they.we.
i just went to log in into my frenster just a while ago.. and.. Joce's profile appeared onmy main page.. den i went to take a look.. "ehs!!! she is the correct girl larhs!!!" am i that bad at desribing people's features??? =X
blahs! anw, Joce's going over to states? or is it australia to further her studies... i dun really know her that well.. or mayb i do.. but im so sorry.. no impression at all.. =X (but then again.. i guess even her own ex-classmate doesnt know about her departure overseas la... =X)
but i guess i know her?? yeaps... =) anw, hopefully she will have a great time there.. be it states or aust... both are places which i really wish to further my studies at... all the best girl! =)
i went to help cousin look after her house and Akong just now...
den the maid told me certain thgs.. got these 2 strangers came to knock door, asks stuffs... bla bla bla... i havent reached when these two strangers came... so i have no idea about how these 2 strangers look like... den when my cousin came home.. i told her...
guess what was her reply??
she said... aiya.. she bluff 1 la.. u beliv her mehs???
hmm... i duno.. but i guess there is nothing to lie about ryt?
why is it so hard for humans to trust each other???
to believe what each other say without any doubts?
-trust-
i told my clementi cousin and a few of my frens about me helping my bukit panjang cousin do this n that...
what is their reply???
"ehs u very free hors.. can help people look after house?"
"they treat u like sai.. u so nice to them for what?''
true.. i agree with them...
why am in wasting my time doing such meaningless stuffs when i can do my own things?
i guess its in d genes la.. my whole family is like tt.. my clementi cousin also says so.. she thinks its in the genes... hahaas...
-forgive and forget-
im still troubled about another stuffs..
place to move to..
what mad says is right la...
like if i dun think soo much ppl wun think too...
hmm... wells, see how...
honestly.. it is very lonely staying alone... VERY...
another thing is work...
i feel so cheated... mayb i shouldnt say this... but...
i duno what to say... but i guess i should get what i deserve right???
i dont want to slog and work like mad.. in return i dun earn much... while other people only need to work one day to earn as much as me... why am i wasting my time right?
-money is the root of all evil-
.him.her.he.she.they.we.